Yesterday was difficult and frustrating. It started out good - good energy in the morning and didn't even crave coffee. But then around 10:30ish I started to get an agitated adrenaline rush type of feeling. I felt like I needed to beat someone up or go running for 2hrs (and I'm not a runner - LOL). Sooo... I didn't exercise at all but I kept myself extremely busy all day (I just could not sit and "relax" for anything). It's a good thing my husband is patient because my mood was horrible (think PMS x 10). By the time dinner was over I was tired and the adrenaline thing was gone - THANK GOD. That is one of THE most uncomfortable feelings. I'd really love to hear the cause and cure for that!!!! I know it's mentioned in the MRM as something that can happen when you first start resting, but I'm in week 3 now so why is this cropping up now? So far so good today...
On the up side, I hit 1900 cals yesterday (!!!) and my weight stayed stable this morning (up 2.5lbs since day 1).
If you'd told me 3 weeks ago that I'd be eating 1900cals/day now I would've thought you'd completely lost your mind. Incredible.
Sorry about the adrenaline episode Michelle, but wow! it sounds like you're body is responding very well to the rest and eats! It is amazing I know to think you could raise calories to double, stop all exercise and still 'be ok'. It's a daunting trek this MR business
I have to say again - great great job for taking this on. You are a STRONG woman!!
I have to say again - great great job for taking this on. You are a STRONG woman!!
Seconded!
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They call me Amanda, that being my real name, and "They" being people who know me in person as I don't go around introducing myself in real life as "scribess." 'Cause that would just be strange.
Yesterday started fine - another day with no coffee craving. :-) But by around 8:30 the adrenaline thing started again. So, this time instead of moving into high gear to get my mind off of it, I decided to try some deep breathing. This worked really well and seemed to nip it in the bud quickly. By lunch time I was feeling tired and was tired the rest of the day (which I was VERY thankful for because I much prefer fatigue over agitation!!!). I chalk it up to being very busy the day before.
1900 cals yesterday. Scale is up another pound today. Could be anything - normal pregnancy gain, fat gain from increased calories, water from increased sodium. Dunno, so just plugging along....
Good job on increasing the cals!! Keep plugging away.
Thanks! Say, I know you said you homeschool, too. What ages are you teaching? We're working through some of the summer this year - partly because I like to be ahead in general, and partly because of the baby being due at the end of August.
So this is weird. I'm more hungry NOW than I was on 1000 cals. I feel like I could eat 2500 cals easily. I'm making sure to keep my protein up to 40% and I don't do refined sugar or white flour products, etc - so those things aren't my trouble. Maybe this is just normal and now is where self control comes in!!
Yes, it's normal. It's not uncommon for ghrelin (I think that's the "hunger hormone") to be suppressed when undereating, particularly in the case of AN. Plus eating more means you burn more (digestive processes require energy too, yanno!) so there's that as well. Sounds like you're right on track.
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They call me Amanda, that being my real name, and "They" being people who know me in person as I don't go around introducing myself in real life as "scribess." 'Cause that would just be strange.
I have 3 kids. My oldest is going to do her senior year at public school this year and I have 6 year old twins that will be 1st grade this fall. You have my admiration, I don't know how you keep up with that many kids.
I have 3 kids. My oldest is going to do her senior year at public school this year and I have 6 year old twins that will be 1st grade this fall. You have my admiration, I don't know how you keep up with that many kids.
Well, they came one and at time so I've gotten used to it gradually! :-) Plus, now that the older ones are 11 and 9 they help out a fair amount with chores and watching the 1yo. I'm not sure what we're going to do about high school though - that's a little daunting. Did you homeschool your oldest in HS at all? I just keep saying that we'll keep going unless/until we see a reason to stop.
Well, the truth is that yesterday ended up being by FAR the worst day I've had mentally. Actually, I had been doing extremely well mentally (aside from the adrenaline issues - but I consider that a physical issue) up until then. Yesterday a few things converged and I got overobsessive about everything. #1-I gained a pound, which wasn't bad in and of itself, but I was up 3lbs from Monday-Monday (one week). #2-I fixed my hair differently and it looked awful (yes, how silly is THIS??). #3 - I started ruminating about the "what ifs". What if my body never responds and never repairs?? (This is partly rational in that I've TRIED to heal before with no luck, but partly irrational in that it seems to be responding awfully well ALREADY.) What if I have to gain 30lbs of fat weight (unrelated to pregnancy gain) BEFORE my body heals? What if blah, blah, blah.
Well, I made it through the day - which I pretty much wasted on silly thoughts - and by evening I resolved that I need to refocus on the LONG TERM and on being rational. I also know that I can't do anything in my own strength, but I'm not exactly sure of what it looks like to "let God" in a practical sense. Maybe it's a mindset more than anything.
And this always seems to happen when I start a new program of some sort - initially I spend too much time thinking about it. You'd think with all of the kids and the homeschooling and such that I'd be otherwise occupied enough to keep my mind of ME, but no. There is sin for you. *I need to get my mind off myself and onto God and others.* Of course there is work to do in my body and mind, but there has to be a reasonable balance.
Ok, enough rambling.
Yesterday's cals - 1900. Back down 1lb this morning.
I homeschooled my oldest thru 11th grade. There are lots of resources to help with it. They tested my oldest before she signed up for school and she tested really well. If you have any questions shoot me a pm. I'd be happy to answer them. God bless you.
Some of it certainly applies to me, other parts not. But this does:
Quote:
she was helpless to assert herself. She learned
that she had no private or sacred space to cherish and respect. She could not acknowledge, even
to herself, that she was being thwarted, invaded, controlled, manipulated, and forced to deny
large aspects of her natural self. She had no recourse except to comply. To succeed at being
unaware of her natural tastes, curiosities, and inclinations or of restraining her natural tendencies,
she developed an eating disorder.
This isn't something I didn't know - I was aware of it even at the time. And I went all through talking about it when I was in therapy. What I don't get is given that I KNOW this, why is it still so hard to break the cycle? Knowledge should lead to freedom...
Yesterday was great - much improved. My head was back on straight. Nice, mellow day.
Today is the last day of complete rest. That's kinda sad! :-) Today I'll be studying up on the mobility exercises so I can get started tomorrow morning.
Yesterday whenever a negative thought regarding all of the food/weight/etc issues came up I immediately said to myself, "NO, that is not you anymore." Not sure where that came from, but it popped into my head and then I used it all day and found it helpful.
That's great, Michelle! I'm a big believer in positive thinking and distracting ourselves from negative thoughts.
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They call me Amanda, that being my real name, and "They" being people who know me in person as I don't go around introducing myself in real life as "scribess." 'Cause that would just be strange.
Pre-pregnancy BMR = 1488. Activity factor = 1.2. 1488x1.2=1785. Add 300 for pregnancy. 1785+300= 2085. So my intake now for my current activity level + the pregnancy should be 2085. As of yesterday I'm up to 2000 so I'm very close.
I need to retake the FLTS quiz to determine what my activity level will be when I start exercise in week 5. If it's around 1.4, then my calorie needs would go up to....
1488x1.4=2083+300=2383. Need to double check on the 1.4 figure before then though.
Yesterday was fine - unremarkable. Cals - 1950 (stomach ache in the evening and didn't quite hit 2000), weight up another 1/2lb this morning.
Getting ready to go do mobility and foam rolling this morning.
Wondering if I pushed the calories too high too fast, since I'm up 3&1/2lbs since last Monday......? Not sure if I should back off by 100-200 and give my body a chance to catch up or if I should just ride it out. I don't have a lot to go by. I did talk to a dietician once who had told me to raise calories by 100 every 3 days until I got to where I should be (and that's what I've been doing).
Activity is done. WHOA - apparently I've really lost some fitness in 3 weeks! Just doing the mobility exercises and foam rolling had my heart rate up and I was really sweating! And hmmmm... should the rolling hurt so much that I have to breathe through it like labor pains? LOL!!
Maybe this extra activity will make up the difference (or at least some of it) for my fast calorie increase.....
First time you do foam rolling, yes, it hurts a lot (unless you've already been doing some other sort of recovery work). It's deep myofascial release. Next-best thing to a deep tissue massage. So yeah, there are a lot of kinks. When you get to a particularly painful spot, the recommendation is to hold that position for a few seconds.
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They call me Amanda, that being my real name, and "They" being people who know me in person as I don't go around introducing myself in real life as "scribess." 'Cause that would just be strange.
First time you do foam rolling, yes, it hurts a lot (unless you've already been doing some other sort of recovery work). It's deep myofascial release. Next-best thing to a deep tissue massage. So yeah, there are a lot of kinks. When you get to a particularly painful spot, the recommendation is to hold that position for a few seconds.
I've always done a lot of static stretching, but massage definitely goes further. The one spot that seems to always be in a knot is my gluteus maximus. It's just a given - to the point where my husband has been massaging it almost every day for years. I'm hoping some consistent foam rolling will help! :-)
Well, my energy levels don't seem to have improved at all yet. I did have 2 days where I didn't crave coffee in the morning, but then those ended up being my high adrenaline days. Other than that I feel pretty much the same as before I started all of this. It could just be the plain fact that I'm in my 3rd trimester of pregnancy! LOL. And it won't improve right away after the baby is born since I'll likely be up half the night for quite some time. But that doesn't last forever. Then I have to wonder about the cortisol issue - if my saliva test was accurate and my numbers really were BELOW the normal range, then I don't imagine that corrects itself in a matter of a few short weeks. I've been craving salt the last 2 days so I've been having a little more. Had a doc appt yesterday and my BP is still low (100/60).
Mentally I'm very happy to be feeding my baby and my body much better!!!!!
2000 cals yesterday, weight down 1/2lb this morning.
Is your bp always 100/60? That is what mine always runs and when I was in my 20's it ran 90/50. That is interesting about you craving salt. I always craved it when I was pregnant. I still do.
Is your bp always 100/60? That is what mine always runs and when I was in my 20's it ran 90/50. That is interesting about you craving salt. I always craved it when I was pregnant. I still do.
Good JOB on keeping your cals up.
Thanks! No, my BP used to be more average when I was younger 110-115/70-75. For the last several years it seems it keeps going down. I kinda figured it was related to low cortisol, but that could all be coincidence. Some people say 100/60 is too low, others say it's great.
This website hasn't been working properly for me all week... just lost my post so I'll start again.
Week 4 Day 3
Good energy yesterday (isn't that what always happens after you complain about something?). I was dragging the whole day the day before though. Did the mobility and foam rolling. Probably shouldn't have foam rolled 2 days in a row - SORE this morning. I lost my appetite completly after I hit about 1500 calories - dunno why, it wasn't an inactive day. Wasn't sure if I should push the rest of the cals or not, but I did because I don't want my body to think I'm restricting again.
2000 cals, weight up 1/2lb (toying up and down with that 1/2lb all week).
Looking ahead to next Thursday when I begin activity. I took the activity quiz in the FLTS and I'm putting myself at a 1.4-1.45 level (when I start the workouts), depending on the day. So, maintenance calories based on my prepregnancy weight plus 300/day extra for the pregnancy = 2383-2457. Now, I'm at 2000 right now... sooo, first off I need to up to 2050 today or tomorrow to get to just about where I should be now. But, when I start the workouts should I immediately add over 300 calories a day the first day?! That sounds like a big jump all at once. But I guess the increased deficit from the exercise will happen all at once, too.... Hmm... this should be very interesting.........
Michelle
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Took the kids to the park tonight. Picked up pizza on the way. I took a spinach salad along with egg whites and shrimp, but ate one slice of a small pizza, too (checked the calories beforehand online). Then we went for a walk in the woods (didn't check the time but it was about 30-40mins). THEN we took the kids for ice cream and I ate half of a strawberry sundae.
Now, on the surface this may sound bad, but I'm counting it as GOOD, because the last time I remember going out for ice cream and eating any myself was when I was pregnant with my first, and he'll be 12 in Sept.
I did feel somewhat guilty but not too much. The pizza was 181 cals and the sundae was 140, so not too bad in the scheme of a week's worth of clean eating, and well within my calories for the day.
and I have 6 year old twins that will be 1st grade this fall. You have my admiration, I don't know how you keep up with that many kids. 
If you have any questions shoot me a pm. I'd be happy to answer them. God bless you.
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