I bought a foam roller last week, so I'm really looking forward to rollin' out my aches and pains. Oh, and a HRM too for when I commence my walks. Still haven't received the GWF
Glad to hear a positive report! Good job at not caving to the desire to work out!
I see you've bought some nifty gadgets. I bought a foam roller also, and have only tried it for a few minutes but MAN, does that hurt!! Looking forward to getting into it more though. Buying a HRM is on my list for tomorrow. I briefly considered the GWF but decided that for now I don't need an additional thing to be thinking about (plus wearing that all day every day would likely annoy me - LOL). I'll be very interested to hear how you end up liking it though.
Your commitment to the process and clear desire to do right by your body is inspiring.
Some journals on other forums have left me feeling disheartened... so many people ignoring the obvious and convincing themselves that the only way out of the hole their stuck in is to dig deeper.
Then I read your journal here and smile - utter honesty and awareness.
Still plugging away here ladies!! Sorry I've been slack with the updates!
I had my bloodwork done last week and was surprised that some of the results were back Monday when I went to my MD! (I was going in for a referral for food allergy testing). My thyroid results were not back yet, which was the number I was really hoping to get back, but apparently it takes a while...
Everything was normal EXCEPT for my non-fasted blood sugar, which was 2.8mmol/L (~50mg/dl). So, hypoglycemic episode. I've been researching the issue and discussing it with the ladies over on O2, and the consensus is that the low reading is/was likely due to my history of overtraining/dieting and something that might come back to normal with more REPAIR As might be the case with my ongoing battle with new food intolerances. I'm just hoping and praying that all of these issues will work themseves out in time. And I'm going to be patient with my body. I know it needs some healin'.
I checked my non-fasted BS last night and this morning and had normal readings, so I'll keep monitoring moods/BS/energy, etc. I do remember feeling like ass when I had my blood drawn (irritable, low energy, tired, shaky), so I'm not surprised my reading was low. I can think back now to many episodes like that, which I now suspect were a result of falling blood sugar.
Feeling good today though. I woke up NOT feeling like I hadn't slept, which I was thankful for (especially considering I've been sleeping a LOT!). Still resting and eating! My general ability to move around, work, run errands, etc has been great over the past few days. I think my body is coming around. I am trying to be moderate with my stimulant consumption (caffeine), but I haven't given it up entirely.
Foam rolling commences next week Looking forward to the pain/gain! I also have a deep tissue massage booked for Friday, so hopefully that will prep my muscles for a bit of work.
I'm surprised at how well this whole process is going....my skin looks better, smile is brighter, eyes are sparklier (good word), clothes are looser (water being shed I assume), mood is much better. Also, my GI issues seem to be dwindling. Even when I'm not consistent taking my digestive enzymes and probiotics, my tummy still feels pretty settled. This is HUGE for me. I am eating a good amount every day too and feeling satisified. I am eating about 7x/day though...I find more frequent is working right now.
Sorry this post is a jumbly mess, but in conclusion, I'm doing well and feeling better day by day. Love this REPAIR deal. Love it.
Your commitment to the process and clear desire to do right by your body is inspiring.
Some journals on other forums have left me feeling disheartened... so many people ignoring the obvious and convincing themselves that the only way out of the hole their stuck in is to dig deeper.
Then I read your journal here and smile - utter honesty and awareness.
Just had to say that.
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NOW, my question- how did your labs turn out?
Hope you are having a good day~
NOT corny. At all.
Thank you a million times over. As much as I tell myself I'm doing the right thing, outside support means the world to me. Truly. I feel more aware and in tune with myself than I EVER have, and it is such a blessing. A bit of a surprise how quickly my mind switched gears though. I'm not questioning it, just rolling with it
Labs went well. Non-fasted BS was LOW at ~50mg/dl. I wrote a a bit about that in my last post.
I don't think I can ever go back to reading some journals and seeing some plans and thinking "wow, that's discipline...I bet I could be that disciplined". I now feel an overwhelming sense or urgency, sadness and anxiety. But then again, I think this conclusion is only one I could have come upon on my own. I was good at ignoring the signs for so long. The best you can do is say your peace and hope for a glimpse of sanity.
Amy, I just got through reading your entire journal and I'm really glad I found it! You're dealing with all of the issues I'm currently afraid to face, but seeing how well you're responding and how much happier you are and your energy increasing, etc, is really motivating for me to see.
I'm currently stuck in a tough spot and am starting therapy this week, but your journal is exactly what I need right now(to see someone doing what I fear most and see that it IS okay). Thank you for making this and tracking your progress.
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Wow - sorry it's been so long since I checked in! I'm keeping another journal over on O2, and it feels like a full-time job keeping everything up-to-date
A lot has been happening with my body, none of which is particularly great. I was humming along on MRM, but once I had a bit more energy, I decided to hit up the gym again (lifting pretty heavy but no cardio). I don't think my body was ready for it though because the symptoms came back, and I started feeling crappy again. My eating patterns on the other hand, have been good. I'm just saying "eff it all" and eating. Resting, eating. Period. My cals have been in the range of 1900-2600 over the past 2 weeks with NO workouts. I feel like I have more energy most days, but I am still retaining a TON of fluid. I feel like a jiggly puffy marshmallow most days. The fluid seems to travel, accumulating in my legs, shoulders (weird?), arms, face, and abdomen. I actually went to the ER last Friday because my stomach was so distended, I was scared. I looked about 4 months pregnant, no joke. My stomach is still distended now, so overall, it's been about 12 days of serious stomach bloat. Some pain, but mostly discomfort. The ER doc did bloodwork and checked my urine - all normal. I had bloodwork done last month as well - all normal. Oh, wait - I had a non-fasted bloodsugar reading of 2.8mmol/L (~50mg/dl), so hypoglycemic.
Every morning I wake up with deep sleep indentations on my abdomen, legs, shoulders and face. some mornings I feel groggy even after sleeping 8-11 hrs. I'm tired a lot. Still. I am supplementing with a digestive enzyme, multi, calcium, Mg2+, K+ and Morton's light salt, fish oils, and probiotic. My PCP prescribed me a diuretic which I took for a few days last week, but I stopped. I don't want to further mess up my system.
I guess my hope is that with lots of nutritious food, proper supplementation and rest, I can get my body back to normal. Weight gain is not even a concern for me right now. Don't care. Besides, I've been holding so much fluid for so long, I have NO idea how much I weigh or what my body actually looks like. Not a clue. Every day, I look different. Fluid collects in different places, clothes I wore the day before may be super tight or incredibly baggy. No rhyme or reason to the madness.
I'm sure there is more I haven't mentioned, but that's all I can think of for now!
Wow, sorry it sounds like things haven't been too hot for you lately. I do think it's good that you're resting--it can be tempting to jump back into things too soon, and our bodies certainly let us know that they don't like it.
But nice job on the calories!
One suggestion--when you get to the point where you feel like you have energy again, maybe start out with some nice, easy walks before going back to lifting or intensive cardio. You could see how your body takes that and just ease back into things.
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Yes, I did! And love it I wore it for ~ 3 weeks straight, but once I got a handle on my average burn, I stopped. It was kinda bugging me anyway. I deal with fluid retention in my arms, and I would get large indents and clamminess under the device. Gave me a better idea of my activity though!
Wow, sorry it sounds like things haven't been too hot for you lately. I do think it's good that you're resting--it can be tempting to jump back into things too soon, and our bodies certainly let us know that they don't like it.
But nice job on the calories!
One suggestion--when you get to the point where you feel like you have energy again, maybe start out with some nice, easy walks before going back to lifting or intensive cardio. You could see how your body takes that and just ease back into things.
I do think I jumped the gun a bit, and my body freaked out. I do feel like it's just stressed for all the years of restricting and training like a madwoman.
The calories - yeah. It's a love/hate relationship with all the food. I'm certainly not used to eating so freely, so a bit of anxiety. I do enjoy the eating part though.
That's what I've been thinking too. Easy walks to begin with, although I can't honestly say I will be feeling up to it anytime soon. It's tiring enough just getting through a full work day (and I don't have a very active job).
Hey Amy!
Glad you came back It is so much easier to follow along here as your journal moves really fast on the other forums...
I'm sorry you've found yourself stuck in water balloon land. I can definitely sympathize as up until I visited the acupuncturist I found I would bloat up tremendously depending on humidity/sweat production/temperature/stress/ etc. I actually only caved and invested in an acupuncture treatment after I started having trouble bending my knees and ankles due to excess fluid.
Water retention - Remember me mentioning my own issues w/water retention? Well I haven't had ANY problems in 2 weeks since I saw an acupuncturist!! I'd highly suggest giving some thought into taking that route.
On a different not - good job on recognizing that your body wasn't ready for all the intense incline walking & lifting..... sometimes our bodies are more in tune than our minds (frustrating!).
Just wondering, but did you read Leigh's recent postings on the GWF?
Hey Amy!
Glad you came back It is so much easier to follow along here as your journal moves really fast on the other forums...
I'm sorry you've found yourself stuck in water balloon land. I can definitely sympathize as up until I visited the acupuncturist I found I would bloat up tremendously depending on humidity/sweat production/temperature/stress/ etc. I actually only caved and invested in an acupuncture treatment after I started having trouble bending my knees and ankles due to excess fluid.
Water retention - Remember me mentioning my own issues w/water retention? Well I haven't had ANY problems in 2 weeks since I saw an acupuncturist!! I'd highly suggest giving some thought into taking that route.
On a different not - good job on recognizing that your body wasn't ready for all the intense incline walking & lifting..... sometimes our bodies are more in tune than our minds (frustrating!).
Just wondering, but did you read Leigh's recent postings on the GWF?
Interesting about the acupuncturist - I'll have to look into that! I do hope though that with proper nutrition and rest, I can reset my hormones and stabilize my system, so that I can lead a normal life without all these issues.
I was surprised how negatively my body reacted to what I would consider moderate/low intensity exercise. I have a history of running every day, along with lifting many days a week, so I guess my body has finally decided to rebel. I feel like I'm making progress though, so that makes me optimistic!
After I read your reply, I went searching for Leigh's newest info re: GWF. I read excerpts quickly, but I'll have to go back and have a closer read.
With our crazy, obsessive, go-go-go minds, I sometimes wonder how accurate our perception of "moderate" or "easy" is.
How is your stomach doing?
If you get a chance, I'd recommend listening to Leigh's "The Fat Loss Troubleshooter" and "Ask Leigh" on itunes....I've found them very helpful in terms of providing a different perspective when I find myself emotionally drained or overwhelmed by ED'd thoughts.
As might be the case with my ongoing battle with new food intolerances. I'm just hoping and praying that all of these issues will work themseves out in time. And I'm going to be patient with my body. I know it needs some healin'. 
Looking forward to the pain/gain! I also have a deep tissue massage booked for Friday, so hopefully that will prep my muscles for a bit of work. 
I do think it's good that you're resting--it can be tempting to jump back into things too soon, and our bodies certainly let us know that they don't like it. 
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