Kicking Butt and Taking Names: jesca's NROL4W log

[jesca]

This is my info from yesterday since I never got a chance to log.

Rest: Good. A little busy and had some walking, but pretty restful overall.

Food numbers: Not so good. I went over about 90some calories and my macros were terrible. Not sure what happened, but at the end of the day I just lost track of my numbers, and had a shake and dessert. Oops!
1716 calories
63g fat
107g protein

Sleep: 8 hours

Water/sodium: Both good

Emotionally: Pretty good. I was very happy it was Friday and it was such a nice day.

Weight: 168.6
Waist: 35.5

[jesca]

So today was not the day I had planned. I went to Pilates class (which I have taken every Saturday for over a year) and I probably shouldn't have, but it's usually not that hard, either. Our teacher decided to kick our butts a little more than usual. Normally I feel like I've had a good workout, but it's more strengthening and stretching, but this was just plain hard. I tried to eat a little extra breakfast and I ate back those calories today that I worked off in class, but I hope I haven't ruined what I've been working on here. I will have class every Saturday after this, too, but at least by the next one, I'll be a few days into eat, and I expect my body won't react so badly from having been on low calories.

Rest: Ok. Clearly class was harder than I had been expecting, but I came home and tried to sleep and relax the rest of the day. I kept trying to take a nap, but it just wasn't working out. I'd drift off, have some weird ass dreams and wake up not feeling better. I finally gave up and got up.

Food numbers: Better than yesterday, but my carbs were a little high and the protein a little low. I did try to eat a bunch, but I'm not sure where I'm going wrong on the weekends. I need to look at the days I did well and try to sort find the differences. I suspect having 2 eggo waffles today may have had something to do with it!
1809 calories (minus the 182 I worked off in Pilates and you get 1627)
53g fat
142g protein

Sleep: 7.5 hours

Water/sodium: Water potentially a little low, sodium about 1g under as usual.

Emotionally: Ok. Frustrated with Pilates being so hard, and then being exhausted and not sleeping. Also in a lot of pain right now, I guess from diving into the shallow end of the workout that I shouldn't have done. I'm not sure, though, because I am really achey. I took 600mg of ibuprofen and I'm taking half a sleeping pill tonight. If I feel bad tomorrow, I will take another epsom bath and hope that helps. I'm just grumpy right now because the day did not go as planned at all, but hopefully I can get something done tomorrow!

Weight: 168.6 - yay for consistency!
Waist: 35.5

[Bytsi]

Well... I guess you could consider it a draw - the pilates equalled-out the extra 90 kcals?

I'm sure your overall program isn't derailed -you're doing great!! Hope you're not as cranky today

[jesca]

Originally Posted by Bytsi

Well... I guess you could consider it a draw - the pilates equalled-out the extra 90 kcals?

I'm sure your overall program isn't derailed -you're doing great!! Hope you're not as cranky today

Thanks, I'm doing better today after the sleeping pill knocking me out for a nice 6 hours of no weird dreams! Once I got up to let the dog out and crawled back in bed I had weird ones again. I guess I'm subconsciously food obsessed, because one of them was me eating half a package of pillsbury crescent rolls (with butter and honey, mmmm....) and then remembering that they are loaded with calories! It's so weird, because I haven't even been craving them, tho they are very tasty. I guess I just have a fear of screwing up my whole diet without realizing it, which is clearly what I was doing before this. So odd.

Anyhow, I feel the energy to get everything done today, even my pedicure but I better get moving!

Oh, and one exciting thing! I am currently wearing a pair of size 10 capri pants from the gap! I bought them over the winter, and when I tried on the 12s, they were a little too big, and I was doing the program, so I had hoped I would get into 10s soon so I bought them. Then I kept getting bigger and further from my goal. But today, I tried them on and they fit reasonably well. I have a little muffin top, but nothing a loose tee won't cure I'm actually going to leave the house in them, where before they were so tight I couldn't even sit down.

Thank goodness for Leigh!

[misstenacity]

I hope I'm not stepping on Leigh's toes here, but the point of REPAIR is metabolism fixing, not weight loss.

Weight loss DOES happen, in small amounts for most people, but it is usually de-bloating and not necessarily fat. In fact it could be muscle (because of the stoppage of workouts).

Her program is supposed to repair the metabolism with very little if any weight GAIN, for those of us so mentally wacked that we can't just do a proper re-feed and gain weight while the process is underway. If your body image is bad enough that 5-10# of gain would put you on meds, then that's what REPAIR is for.

Afterward you can cut or do fat-loss in general or just train again.

But I wanted to rain on everyone's parade (mine too, as I'm fitting into pants better!) and remind us that we're here to get better, first and foremost.

Sorry for the early June reality check.

Andrea

[jesca]

Again with the not having a chance to post last night. Hubby and I were busy making decisions about what siding to put on the house and wondering how long we'll live here and making all kinds of tentative decisions you can't necessarily control. Before I knew it, it was 11:30 and time for bed
The good thing was that before all that, I managed to clean a bag of cherries and divide them in to cup size portions, divide 3 days worth of blueberries (they're in the stores in pints now! I can't tell you how happy that makes me! I will be eating them non stop this summer, and when they're on sale I'll be freezing those babies!), and cut up a whole watermelon and weighed out a weeks worth of portions too. I'm very proud of getting that done because normally I just put that off and it doesn't get done and it makes me later for work or I just don't bring it and have to buy waaaay overpriced fruit from the store downstairs. So, my Sunday was pretty productive. Below are my notes on the day

Rest: Did some running around and errands, but nothing overly exhausting. Plus I sat in the pedicure chair for an eternity waiting for them to get to me (with my feet soaking), so talk about resting

Food numbers: Good. A little high on fat and low on protein, but I saved my calories up to go out to dinner and did pretty well. When I got home I wanted a carb/choco snack, but I knew my protein was low, so I had a shake. That was some self control!
1625 calories
58g fat
147g protein

Sleep: 9.5 hours

Water/sodium: Water a little low, sodium a little high. Definitely fixing that today (and sort of paying for it!)

Emotionally: Good. I wore some pants I never though I'd get into, so that made me happy. I got things done and I relaxed too. Usually Sundays are stressful for me because I'm trying to cram it all in, but yesterday worked out well. I felt pretty darn good.

Weight: 168.6
Waist: 35.5

[jesca]

Originally Posted by misstenacity

I hope I'm not stepping on Leigh's toes here, but the point of REPAIR is metabolism fixing, not weight loss.

Weight loss DOES happen, in small amounts for most people, but it is usually de-bloating and not necessarily fat. In fact it could be muscle (because of the stoppage of workouts).

Her program is supposed to repair the metabolism with very little if any weight GAIN, for those of us so mentally wacked that we can't just do a proper re-feed and gain weight while the process is underway. If your body image is bad enough that 5-10# of gain would put you on meds, then that's what REPAIR is for.

Afterward you can cut or do fat-loss in general or just train again.

But I wanted to rain on everyone's parade (mine too, as I'm fitting into pants better!) and remind us that we're here to get better, first and foremost.

Sorry for the early June reality check.

Andrea

You're not raining on my parade, and I know that the goal is not weight loss, but when you have been stuck at a number and feeling miserable about it and in general, when the scale moves, for whatever reason, it's something to be celebrated. I don't care if it's water or fat or muscle at this point, to be honest, because I haven't gotten that number to move down in 4-5 months, so the fact that it did, is awesome. My goal with this program is to stop feeling like sh!t all the time, stop having miserable digestion, and to find maintenance (and move that number up, hopefully!) so that I can lose sensibly. All of those things are happening, and I'm ecstatic about it. The weight loss is just a bonus, because ultimately, if I hadn't been able to lose weight at 1629 calories a day, what would that say for how bad my metabolism had really gotten. At least I know now, that 1629 is below maintenance, it's a sustainable number, and I'm coming to terms with the fact that you can actually lose weight and not exercise, which is truly amazing to me. I had constantly put so much stress on myself to exercise that it was literally making me sick. Even if I didn't get in the exercise I still thought about it constantly and it haunted me all the time. Even when I worked out it was never enough, I was always thinking of when the next workout was. I've let a lot of that go, and am just reveling in the fact that I feel so much better and can lose weight without killing myself. That right there is so cool

[Bytsi]

Hey Jes - great job on the self-control having a shake for dessert - that's great! It's all the little victories - they really add up!

I'm coming to terms with the fact that you can actually lose weight and not exercise, which is truly amazing to me. I had constantly put so much stress on myself to exercise that it was literally making me sick. Even if I didn't get in the exercise I still thought about it constantly and it haunted me all the time. Even when I worked out it was never enough, I was always thinking of when the next workout was. I've let a lot of that go, and am just reveling in the fact that I feel so much better and can lose weight without killing myself. That right there is so cool

You're making such great progress! I know how it is to always worry about the next workout, so it's encouraging to know that you can live without that mindset.

[jesca]

Originally Posted by Bytsi

Hey Jes - great job on the self-control having a shake for dessert - that's great! It's all the little victories - they really add up!


You're making such great progress! I know how it is to always worry about the next workout, so it's encouraging to know that you can live without that mindset.

Thank you! I really appreciate yours and everyone's encouragement. It's really helping me through this.

[jesca]

Today was ok. I had some anxiety surrounding traffic and getting home, but overall it was fine. I did manage to find my enzymes and probiotics in the organic market by work and they were a good price - which is a miracle in that store. I also got a foam roller at target yesterday, so apart from the BCAAs I think I'm set to the end of the program

Rest: Did a little extra walking today. Roamed around trying to see clients to no avail. Then I came home and took the dog for a walk. Today was so nice I just couldn't pass it up. I walk so much anymore I barely notice when I do "extra". I guess that will be good from NEAT standpoint after this is over.

Food numbers: Just about perfect. I litte under protein, and over on carbs. Pretty much spot on macros for the next stage. At least my carbs are coming from fruits and not from white flours and such.
1630 calories
38g fat
146g protein

Sleep: 7 hours (and I am feeling it today!)

Water/sodium: Both good

Emotionally: Pretty good. Like I said, a little anxiety in there, but mostly ok. Glad that I was supposed to work late tomorrow night, but both of my appts. cancelled, so I'm free.

Weight: 168.6
Waist: 36 - not surprised. I think I was bloated from the sodium in the mexican food last night. I totally felt it today.

[marthand99]

It looks like you're doing great, Jes. I'm with both you and Andrea about getting excited about loose pants, falling numbers, and having to check myself. I know I might put some weight on this next month, but it's worth it to get better. And proving to yourself that you can lose weight without exercise is HUGE. Before I would be terrified to miss a day, thinking I would immediately gain 5 pounds. To be free of that - there are no words. That knowledge right there is worth way more than $39.99!! hee hee

Yay on getting all the fruit ready!! I LOVE fruit. I am so excited about the farmer's market and all the Michigan cherries, blueberries, and peaches. Yay!

[jesca]

Originally Posted by marthand99

It looks like you're doing great, Jes. I'm with both you and Andrea about getting excited about loose pants, falling numbers, and having to check myself. I know I might put some weight on this next month, but it's worth it to get better. And proving to yourself that you can lose weight without exercise is HUGE. Before I would be terrified to miss a day, thinking I would immediately gain 5 pounds. To be free of that - there are no words. That knowledge right there is worth way more than $39.99!! hee hee

Yay on getting all the fruit ready!! I LOVE fruit. I am so excited about the farmer's market and all the Michigan cherries, blueberries, and peaches. Yay!

It is huge and it was totally worth it. It's the seemingly easy and little things in life that make it so much better

Oh and I love just about every fruit and vegetable out there. My husband says I have vegetarian teeth because they are completely flat. If you took all my teeth out and layed them on a table, you'd be hard pressed to tell which ones were the canines. Kinda' weird, really. Anyhow, summer makes me sooo happy in that regard. I love to garden and grow food. I've been munching on a daily harvest of sugar snap peas that I have growing out back. I get about a handful a day. It's awesome!

[SpacecityPaula]

Originally Posted by jesca

Anyone else just not a morning person? What gets you out of bed? What's your motivation? What tricks do you use?
I am sooo not a morning person and I have the hardest time getting up. I never get over it. I try to coax myself out with the thought of coffee, but even that doesn't get me up quickly. I got to figure it out, because I'm getting up later and later and it's just no good.

I think about if I get into the office earlier, then I get to leave earlier and enjoy the sunshine outside. I hate being cooped up all day.

[jesca]