And, if it helps, never compare yourself to others. You need to work on your own progress, and it will be different from everyone else's. Everyone has different outside influences, which affect them a great deal.
This is such a great lesson for us hard-headed broads.
Good go, realcdn.
Honestly, I feel like I always fail compared to my own standards. As I'm running so hard for HIIT- all out effort - that I feel I'm going to pass out, and serious nausea when I'm done, I still feel like maybe I could've done more. WTF? Who's boss here, anyway? And that feeling of ~ not good enough ~ sets me onto a "poor me" eating binge. Thank GOD there's nothing crazy-caloric in the house anymore. (The kids ain't happy but at least I'm can't explode.)
The more I do this self flagellation of sorts, the more I KNOW I am my own worst enemy. What kind of weirdo sabotages themself?!?
My number one goal is to figure out WHY I don't want ME to reach my goals.
Sounds crazy, and maybe it is.
So, I guess what I'm trying to say is... I feel you.
And we need to figure this out.
-Sally
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Kelly, I know it is a seemingly long endless uphill battle, but just think where you'd be if you did nothing for the next six months? Would you be closer or further from your goals?
Sorry you've been dealing with the sickies too ... I know how much it stinks!
Keep on keeping on ...
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Okay, Tom this is my log, feel good answers only please LOL! J/K.
Yeah you are probably right!
Good news for good measurements. Got my bloodwork back from the doctor. I was cringing since the last year was hell on wheels and I said WTF with my health. So I do have stress which is gradually lessening.
I have been lifting again since October and watching and attempting to get my eats in order since January. My cholesterol was down and good woohooo. HDL really nicely up. Triglycerides perfecto. Blood pressure better too which he is okay that I am not hypertensive and will give me a chance to get it down with lifestyle changes. No thyroid, no nuttin.
So I am just a fat chick with no health problems.... whew what a relief. On to tweaking my stuff to get this fat off.
Kelly, I know it is a seemingly long endless uphill battle, but just think where you'd be if you did nothing for the next six months? Would you be closer or further from your goals?
Sorry you've been dealing with the sickies too ... I know how much it stinks!
Keep on keeping on ...
That is why I keep reminding myself I have NO OPTION to quit LOL! Nope, no quitting.
Thanks for stopping by and I hope your kiddos are ALL DONE!
Hi Kelly, I tend to get chatty in my log, too. I don't usually post a workout unless I take the laptop down to the "gym," cut and paste, and put in new numbers and comments. I am sooo lazy!
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Life is short. Break the rules. Forgive quickly. Kiss slowly. Love truly, laugh uncontrollably. And never regret anything that made you smile.
You're not 4 years old. You can tell yourself NO!" Dr. Phil
I had hormones, testosterone , glucose all kinds of things it was pretty complete. But I don't know what hba1c is LOL! But that doesn't mean I didn't have it!
Okay, I have made the decision to make new goals and make a new self challenge for myself. I have looked at my results which are suboptimal for my goals, while not bad, they were not my goals.
So tomorrow is a new day. I took my end of challege pics for my other forum and stats and I will begin anew tomorrow. I want to to a 2 month or equivalent in weeks chunk. Then I will do a summer thing etc etc.
So look for my goal! I don't know if I will post my pics here or not yet. I might. But I really saw more results for what I needed before NROL4W. That is not saying that it is not a good program, it is not what I need right now. I will be reading NROL this week and will be getting my new program from my trainer. I am putting my family on NROL fatloss.
I had hormones, testosterone , glucose all kinds of things it was pretty complete. But I don't know what hba1c is LOL! But that doesn't mean I didn't have it!
It's a test that tells you how well you've managed your blood sugar over the past 2-3 months.
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No "happy hours" makes for a lot of miserable days. - Mahler
I have decided not to post my before and after pics. I can't see a difference. 7.5 lbs spread over my whole body does not amount to much visible difference. Therefore I decided not to torture myself by posting pics.
I gotta be honest, I am not feelin the love on this forum from "some" people. I have been shocked at what I have been hearing in regards to fat people and fatties. It just makes me sad. Perhaps people here forget that there are "fatties" here. Fatties that are trying the best they can to change and improve.
And you know what? I basically have my life together. I have a lot of crap in my life, but that is life. Sometimes it gets to me and I air it here on the forum and spare my family and friends. This is my last frontier to tackle.
Why the F has it taken me so long? I have read and read and read. I have read tainted bad stuff. I have worked my @$$ off to get nowhere. Then you wear out and throw up your hands. It does not take as much as you think to get where I am. I could be much much heavier. Just gain 10 lbs every couple of years, 5 lbs a year and not be able to take it off. I can make myself starve. I can work my @$$ of for 2 hours at a time. I just have never been able to get the combination right.
I am not lazy, slothful, and am not a couch potato. I own my own business, I am a leader, I lead groups, I teach. And every year I try to lose this weight with faulty information.
Why the difference this year? I refused to believe the crap that was fed me, finally, which led me on a quest, which led me to the little I know now. Contrary to popular belief, this information is not easy to find. Unless you know what to look for, it is completely hidden.
I don't want to become a bodybuilder, an athlete or a competitor, I am too busy. But I would like to be athletic and fit, for ME.
It just really fries my fanny when people make unfair judgments. The young who have never had a problem, the ones who have lost and are like "smokers who quit" (you gotta know how annoying they are), and ones who are just plain mean to people who are not "hot".
I don't even want to be hot, heck, I am married and my DH thinks I am hot. You may not think so, you may puke. What the heck do I care, I am loved and I am cared for by a wonderful person who I think is hot. Isn't that what life is all about? I don't want to wear a bandaid and post my butt all over the internet. I don't want notoriety. I am just a mom, who wants to live life to the fullest, not worry about health or weight, shop in a normal store, do normal things and last but not least, not be discrimnated against because of how I look.
At least I have a pretty face. Some of you are ugly and there is not a dang thing you can do about it! (Can you tell I am really pissed off?)
I am done with my rant.
On the flip side. You ladies and gentlemen that have been support in this community deserve a reward. You will never know that what you do changes lives.
I gotta be honest, I am not feelin the love on this forum from "some" people. I have been shocked at what I have been hearing in regards to fat people and fatties. It just makes me sad. Perhaps people here forget that there are "fatties" here. Fatties that are trying the best they can to change and improve.
Hmmm... maybe I'm skimming more than I should be. From time to time I've seen something said that kind of makes me grit my teeth, but really not much. All I can suggest is that you take the good and try to ignore the bad.
On the before/after pics, well... I never see much of a difference in mine. I took pictures the other week (322) and compared them to the ones I took at the highest I dared do them (369) and I don't see much (if any) difference. Some of it is because I can't see past how bad they all are. Part of it is that the shape is pretty much the same, just slightly less of it.
I gotta be honest, I am not feelin the love on this forum from "some" people. I have been shocked at what I have been hearing in regards to fat people and fatties. It just makes me sad. Perhaps people here forget that there are "fatties" here. Fatties that are trying the best they can to change and improve.
Can I ask - where have you been reading these things? It sucks that some people are just assholes. When I first started reading the forums, there was a thread I found really offensive because people were picking on a complete stranger - just a picture of a stranger - just because she was fat and a dietician. Like, who are they to know what's gone on in her life? It's bullshit. Anyway, I ended up reporting the thread and talking to some moderators, who were very kind and understanding, but told me that they were really careful about how they censored the forums. I said I understood, and really, their attention was more than enough. They moved the thread to someplace more relevant (i.e., the middle of nowhere), and that was that. So I wonder now where the bigotry has popped up again.
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I am not lazy, slothful, and am not a couch potato. I own my own business, I am a leader, I lead groups, I teach. And every year I try to lose this weight with faulty information.
Why the difference this year? I refused to believe the crap that was fed me, finally, which led me on a quest, which led me to the little I know now. Contrary to popular belief, this information is not easy to find. Unless you know what to look for, it is completely hidden.
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It just really fries my fanny when people make unfair judgments. The young who have never had a problem, the ones who have lost and are like "smokers who quit" (you gotta know how annoying they are), and ones who are just plain mean to people who are not "hot".
Maybe this is too effusive, but honestly, I am proud of you. I know we don't really know each other, but you have so much courage. So many people would just accept that "this is the way I'm meant to be" and give up. So many people would hide behind other people, not making time to take care of themselves. It is HARD to admit that you don't like something about yourself. It is HARD to begin something new, make yourself vulnerable, and keep at it. It is HARD to KEEP going to the gym, working your ass off, when the results come slow and it feels like some days you just can't get it right.
So I AM proud of you. I'm proud of you for taking on something that is not an easy task when you only have 10lbs to lose, forget about more than that. I'm proud of you for cheering yourself and the rest of us on (and we all have our negative days, that's when we're there for each other). I'm proud of you for every day you get up and work out, and every day you try to eat better than the last. I look up to your strength, because I know how terrible I feel sometimes just having 20-30lbs to lose, and I can only imagine how it must feel to have such a big journey ahead of you. And to me, it just seems like you come in with such a great attitude, ready to take in on.
Well, you know what? Good for you, dammit!
You're right! Young people who have ALWAYS been thin or fit DON'T know what it's like to fight for a healthy body. And it's going to bite them in the ass one day, I guarantee it. I was NEVER a thin girl - not as a child, not as a teenager, not now. But I'm only just beginning to recognize my strengths - like, um, strength (quite literally), a certain fierceness in the weight room, and the smarts to sort out what's sane (eating whole foods, working out hard) and what's bull (endless cardio, fasting diets, weight loss drugs).
You know, I read somewhere that your body is never really at stasis. You're either building muscle or breaking it down; burning fat or storing it. All day, every day, your body is in a state of flux. You breathe in, you breathe out.
But I believe that this applies to so much more in life. You're either improving yourself or you're deteriorating. You're either becoming a better person or you're becoming worse. You're either getting smarter or you're losing it.
And you, my friend, are improving. Not just health, but heart and soul. This struggle, this journey is making you a tougher person, a kinder and more compassionate person, and a smarter person.
What can you say for all the jerks who are posting mean things about "fatties?" Which direction are they going?
There's more to life than a "hot bod." You and I know that. ALL the people reading your log know that. And I'm glad to know you and grow with you. So just remember that.
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I was the skinny one, I was the one making fun of fatties. I could eat anything and not gain a pound.
Ever hear, what goes around comes around? It DID bite me in the ass and it won't let go. I learned the hard way.
So now, instead of berating and beating down those less fortunate without major high metabolisms, I am a crusader FOR them. Who knew. Life has it's funny twists and turns. Maybe because I was on the other end of the bad joke, I recognize the behaviour and abhor it.
I am also the first to recognize that this obesity epidemic is not only physical, it is a mental battle. Our society is not making it better. I think it is ridiculous when thin people are mad because clothes are made more stylish for the obese. Who the hell wants obese attached to their name? Do people think it is fun? Something to be sought after? It is the LAST thing people want. Sometimes things happen, illness, injury, death, job loss, depression and you just can't get yourself out of the hole. Hallelujah to you if you don't eat when you are upset. There are many that do.
Come on people it is time to rise up and fight with us, not against us!
I see I am still on my soapbox. My humiliation began today with my young son and my progress pics and ended with my husband looking through my files and finding out what I weigh.
It has been a hell of a day. Can I be anymore humiliated? You bet I can. Just now, someone will regret it. Make my day. > : (
I see I am still on my soapbox. My humiliation began today with my young son and my progress pics and ended with my husband looking through my files and finding out what I weigh.
It has been a hell of a day. Can I be anymore humiliated? You bet I can. Just now, someone will regret it. Make my day. > : (
Oh man, that's the worst! I still don't know what my boyfriend weighs. I don't want to know, because I'll probably feel bad. And he's not going to know what I weigh for a while, either.
How did your husband react? Did he say anything?
A couple of us at work were talking about kids the other day, and someone said her brother, after his wife had a kid, was like, "Wow, I didn't realize there was going to be so much collateral damage." Which will now be my bargaining point for not having kids yet. It's like, "You want a baby? Take a good look at all this, because it's never going to be the same." So many women struggle with weight after having kids, and yet there's still this idea in our society that women are just supposed to be thin and beautiful no matter what. It's so backwards.
And the obesity thing, I think it's more complex than people realize. I mean, I've heard theories on a dozen different reasons why we're all fatter now than thirty years ago - less nutrients in our food, more chemicals in the environment, poor city planning that's lead to less walking (i.e., suburbs), the increased use of high fructose corn syrup, the government pushing a high-carb, low-fat diet. I think there's probably more to the equation than meets the eye. It's not just that people are lazy and like to eat bad food, because you're right: no one wants to be obese. There's something there that we don't understand. Not to mention that the whole classification system is bunk - the height/weight charts are unrealistic for a lot of us.
Anyway, I'm right there with you. And run for president? Haha! I'm not even old enough, and I'm pretty sure it would be my worst nightmare. It takes a strong person to survive the scrutiny of not just their friends and family, but the whole country. Pass.
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Good news for good measurements. Got my bloodwork back from the doctor. I was cringing since the last year was hell on wheels and I said WTF with my health. So I do have stress which is gradually lessening.
I have been lifting again since October and watching and attempting to get my eats in order since January. My cholesterol was down and good woohooo. HDL really nicely up. Triglycerides perfecto. Blood pressure better too which he is okay that I am not hypertensive and will give me a chance to get it down with lifestyle changes. No thyroid, no nuttin.
So I am just a fat chick with no health problems.... whew what a relief. On to tweaking my stuff to get this fat off.
Kelly........I've been lax in my posting on other's logs, so I apologize that I haven't peeked in for awhile. I've been so worried about tweaking my program this week, that I haven't had time for much else.
I did just peek in, though......and I'm so happy to see your bloodwork results. This is great news for you. Now, once you get started with a program, you'll know there is nothing holding you back (except that knee, of course). You can start with that nutrition and work with it until then.......which I suggest. Because, as I'm realizing right now, doing both is super time consuming.
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I was the skinny one, I was the one making fun of fatties. I could eat anything and not gain a pound.
Ever hear, what goes around comes around? It DID bite me in the ass and it won't let go. I learned the hard way.
So now, instead of berating and beating down those less fortunate without major high metabolisms, I am a crusader FOR them. Who knew. Life has it's funny twists and turns. Maybe because I was on the other end of the bad joke, I recognize the behaviour and abhor it.
ETA: I didn't read past your bloodwork and then I realized all of this other stuff was going on. I agree with Rixa.......You are doing what's right for you! Keep doing that. Don't lose touch with that crusader feeling especially when it comes to you. You post in so many of our threads to keep our heads high......don't forget to do that for yourself!
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Excelllent news on the bloodwork Kelly. You are making improvements in your health, and that's HUGE!!!
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You are doing what's right for you! Keep doing that. Don't lose touch with that crusader feeling especially when it comes to you. You post in so many of our threads to keep our heads high......don't forget to do that for yourself!
I second what Stephanie says - you are such a great cheerleader for the rest of us - don't forget to be proud of your own accomplishments!!
Thanks Stephanie and Tracey, I try to encourage, it's kinda like pay it forward but I do it naturally you know? I want us all to succeed.
Okay as I speak I am getting my marching orders from my trainer. It looks like I am going to be following a food template for ease (Yay) eating between 2200-1800 cals. Anything between those numbers is "on", whew I can do that! I was hoping for that!
Here are my goals:
Starting Monday March 31st. 12 weeks till Monday Jun 23rd. Around July 4th is when the whole giant family goes up north for vacation by the lake.
Goals
1. Keep going no matter what.
This sounds better than not quitting since quitting is not an option anyhow.
2. Refine menus that I can just look at and go. A template as it were.
No thinking too hard on busy days. No excuses. My fridge is too full to predo too many meals and I have a big fridge! All them veggies for the fam.
3. Figure out finally what my deficit needs to be to lose 1.5 - 2 lbs a week.
I am sooo confused!!!!
4. Have a couple of workouts on hand that take care of excuses for injuries. A good back up plan.
5. Lose 18-24 lbs of fat. And/ or remove 2" off chest waist and butt, yes I am still after the fanny LOL. In fact let's up that to 3" off the fanny.
I am good with this for a start. If I run past this, well good for me LOL!
Glad to see someone else with a trainer. I'll be looking forward to what he/she will have you be doing. Frustrating as it is, your calories requirements are going to be a moving target, so your best bet is to hope be in that window most days. It sucks because eating too little or eating too much eventually leads to the same result - the body stores fat. Keep on going though, as persnickety as it may seem, it's still your best chance for success.
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No "happy hours" makes for a lot of miserable days. - Mahler
Glad to see someone else with a trainer. I'll be looking forward to what he/she will have you be doing. Frustrating as it is, your calories requirements are going to be a moving target, so your best bet is to hope be in that window most days. It sucks because eating too little or eating too much eventually leads to the same result - the body stores fat. Keep on going though, as persnickety as it may seem, it's still your best chance for success.
I am so glad I found this lady too. She has been where I am and turned it all around. And compassionate. I need compassionate LOL!
The program "looks" easy but so did NROL4W. I will post it later. I am also ordered to walk walk walk. She knows about my knees.
I feel more empowered that I am not shooting at a rapidly moving target at least for today and that I have someone on my side that will help me trouble shoot. Ahhhhh what a feeling...
I am so glad I found this lady too. She has been where I am and turned it all around. And compassionate. I need compassionate LOL!
The program "looks" easy but so did NROL4W. I will post it later. I am also ordered to walk walk walk. She knows about my knees.
I feel more empowered that I am not shooting at a rapidly moving target at least for today and that I have someone on my side that will help me trouble shoot. Ahhhhh what a feeling...
I can't wait to see your program! I'm a proponent of both cardio (even moderate cardio) and strength training. That's why I am so happy to be back to doing 3 sessions of it a week. It's a big mood booster for me, too. And........what perfect timing for the walking. Birds will be singing, the flowers are just coming up, it's still a bit cooler......It will be a nice change for you!
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I will take more time tomorrow to post what I will be doing. Today was a bust eats wise meaning I am undereating. I have a headache and my tummy not so hot. Everyone is so sick around this town. I wash my hands from the store, wipe down the cart with wipes etc....
This is so not fun. I was less sick last year, although I got pneumonia, with major stress!
I had to run my mom to the doctor, she was so sick she couldn't drive. I am hoping the stormy weather is the cause of this @%#% headache.
I didn't sleep well last nite either, I am trying to get 8 hours a nite in. After 6 I was awake, doze, awake, doze.... arrrrggghhhh
Anyway my mood is up with everything. I know I can do this.
I don't usually post a workout unless I take the laptop down to the "gym," cut and paste, and put in new numbers and comments. I am sooo lazy!
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