This has been my problem for the last year or so. I KNOW what to do. I know how to do it. I know what it takes. I just don't DO it.
I'm not the gifted girl who's naturally active. When I'm nice and lean, I am... I'll play music, dance while being in the house all day, run between classes, etc. But if I slow down, I slow down. All the way down. It's pathetic really.
Over 5 years ago now I was over 200 pound and 4 years ago I was 120ish. Maintainted for a good long while. Looked great. Felt great. Terribly active.
Then things went to shit. 3 years ago I started school again. Maintained, but got a bit soft... not as much time in the gym, but not as much eating so I was good.
2 years ago I was starting to lose ground. Weight crept up a bit, but since I was training off and on it was mostly a bulk (for real) and just not terribly clean all the time. I was getting softer, but also stronger. It was a compromise, but I was eating okish, dealing with school for the first time in 10 years, and still was a size 5.
The last year has been not good. I've gone from dirty bulking to just plain getting fat. First I see 150 on the scale. I am not happy. But I get my ass back in the gym and it stays there. It doesn't go down, but at least it doesn't go up. Then I stop having time for the gym (love the excuse, don't you?) and one day I step on the scale to see 160. Holy shit. Totally not happy. Get my ass back in the gym. Buy new clothes, cuz all that cute stuff I got 2 months ago doesn't fit my ever growing ass.
Then, all of a sudden (literally, it was like overnight) I see 170 when I get home from Vegas. It's since dropped down a few since I got over the cold and recovered from the vacation... but that was downright scary. WTF mate?
All along here, I know what to do. I know how to fix the problem. In spurts I do. But every time I start I just stave off going up, I don't go down. Then I get irritated and stop working at it.
So, whilst I give myself (and others) very good advice, I very seldom follow it these days, and I'm lost in a wonderland of being a statistic of "people who lose weight gain it back" and I'm pretty much hating it.
So I asked some grinning cat and a smoking caterpillar what to do, and decided to go to HELL. I started it sort-of, but the head-cold and DOMS stopped me so I'm just restarting again a week later.
Monkeys are still awsum but it's a new year and Aoife isn't all that awsum.
UGH. So now to re-buy stinking real estate. *sigh*
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I don't have stats for today, but last I checked the scale said 167 (sigh) and I'm 5'3" - 5'4". Size 10/medium.
I know I only see bad, so I do admit I am still a rather compact 160whatever, but still.
Here's my fat ass goofin off in Vegas:
Shudder.
For now I'll work on HELL, hoping it gets me somewhere. I'll move to New Rules for women after that prolly.
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I dunno - I think the fact that you can tell it like it is is pretty awesome. Now to follow up with the doing of it.
Heh. Yeah, but I certainly don't look awsum.
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I've been in both places too and everywhere in between. I was 220..then down to 121..now back up to 136. I was as high as 145 in December.
When i was 121 i promised myself i would never get back in the 130's..yeah right.
You do look good in your pic..i would never have guessed 160.
I know we will both do great
I've just let my point of "wtf" slip. In the beginning, when I got to 135 I worked hard to get back to under 130. Then I started packing on muscle and said, ok, so stay in size 3. Yet eventually came 5 and 8 and now I'm sittin here in 10s that are not loose at all. heh.
I don't care what I weigh. And I'm even ok with a size 5 since 3 is a little tiny for me in the legs if I want to actually squat anything worth being in a cage for. I'm still sure that'll be under 145 for me. I'm not that tall.
Good, nip it in the bud now, Vanessa.
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As I said to someone else, my titanium foot is available for some ass kicking. Still, you know what you have to do. You've done it. You certainly don't have as much to do. So do it, damn it.
Gotcha on the yo yo thang. Personally I think it's all about being SELFISH. Making the time to get yerself to the gym, make your food, put the boss and family second. If you don't make the time to take care of yourself, no one else is going to come along and do it for you.
Another thing I KNOW, is that I will NEVER wake up excited about working out and eating clean. That magic Monday (when all diets and exercise routines start) isn't going to happen. I just HAVE to do -- like NIKE says.
Well, so much for a rah rah cis boom bah. I've read your posts, you are a smart woman. Not sure what H.E.L.L. is but it's going to get you out of Vegas!!
*Yes, it should be 15 reps, I still have issues with holding the bar and that whole "choking effect" that happens. I'll get over it and get the numbers up soon enough.
sigh
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dont 'they' say admitting is half the battle..? or some shit like that
so you know what to do, get to it! you will do great! youve def got the attitude
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I was in the gym, forgot my workout log so just did what I thought I remembered seeing on the list.
This is why I set up my workout log for the next few months. I kept forgetting it and it was an excuse not the follow the program. Time to nip that crap in the bud so to speak.
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So, lesson for today...
EAT TO SUPPORT YOUR WORKOUT DIPSHIT!
I ran out of steam, enjoying a rather nice shake now but overall I=dumbass. It's an equation in your mathbook, look it up.
It's also apparently a bad time of the month for my back, so I had to take it a bit easy. Overall, however, my ass was kicked, my heartrate was up, and I literally fell asleep during a rest period.
Worked out at home, so there's been a coupla tweaks.
Alternating lunges (instead of walking)
40x10ea
40x10ea
40x10ea
Band face pulls (purple band, not as much resistance as the normal weight but still good)
20
20
20
good morning
50x20
50x15*
50x17*
tate press**
17.5x20 (so glad have platemates)
17.5x20
17.5x20
pinch plate front raise (45degree for shoulder needs)
10x11 (yay, more than last time!)
10x11
10x12 (ooo, gettin up there)
bb standing calf raise off step (instead of seated)
50x20
50x20
50x20
side plank
L 20s / R 20s
raised toe touch
4x20
then i kinda dozed and then decided I was too tired to continue.
so again the intervals were left off. I'll get them in tomorrow or something. dammit. I need to remember to eat. dammit.
*each set started off fine, but then after 10 my back wanted to burst, so I listened and only went so far as I could. Which, of course, is truly annoying with this little weight, but whatever. still have intact back better than worrying about who sees me with bittyplates.
**I don't totally do these right. I can't just keep my elbows in the same place and have my arms out to a 45degree angle like that, it scares the bejeezus out of me since I'm still terrified of separating my shoulders during a workout again. I go out some, and simply straighten my arm... which leads to a bit of chest work prolly, but whatever. A non-separated shoulder is a happy shoulder.
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This is why I set up my workout log for the next few months. I kept forgetting it and it was an excuse not the follow the program. Time to nip that crap in the bud so to speak.
See, I have a log. I forgot it. Therefore it doesn't matter what was or wasn't in it if it wasn't with me.... I actually used a mini notepad in my purse to track what I did.
I didn't not do it. Just like the time when I forgot pants/shorts and had to work out in a skirt. Nuthin like a girl in a skirt in a powercage doing squats and goodmornins.
Once I'm AT the gym there's no problem. It's getting my ass to the gym that's sometimes the issue.
I'm actually in the middle of making a HELL book with a pretty paper cover and everything... but I can't wait till it's done to start working out, so normal logs will have to suffice till then. heh.
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dont 'they' say admitting is half the battle..? or some shit like that
They're wrong. Admitting to being a stupid weenie head is only about 1/8th of the battle. And it hardly works toward the solution. Think of all the people that moan about how fat they are whilst scarfing their 12th donut for the morning.
I am, however, completely to that point of "this shit's too high" and I've pulled out the shovel. I have no idea if I'll stay in the game long enough to see the damn floor, but at least It'll stink less.
eh. I'm old, and jaded. Plus I totally need some peas.
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I didn't not do it. Just like the time when I forgot pants/shorts and had to work out in a skirt. Nuthin like a girl in a skirt in a powercage doing squats and goodmornins.
Okay this is dedication.... I bet the guys at the gym were loving you that day
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They're wrong. Admitting to being a stupid weenie head is only about 1/8th of the battle. And it hardly works toward the solution. Think of all the people that moan about how fat they are whilst scarfing their 12th donut for the morning.
I am, however, completely to that point of "this shit's too high" and I've pulled out the shovel. I have no idea if I'll stay in the game long enough to see the damn floor, but at least It'll stink less.
eh. I'm old, and jaded. Plus I totally need some peas.
Yout attitude is in the right place, so the rest should be cake, right? mmmmm, cake. I am just finishing my 3 month program, so if there's any advice I can give or anything, let me know. It is a life changing program to say the least!
Good luck and I know that with this attitude you can do it!
Yout attitude is in the right place, so the rest should be cake, right? mmmmm, cake. I am just finishing my 3 month program, so if there's any advice I can give or anything, let me know. It is a life changing program to say the least!
Good luck and I know that with this attitude you can do it!
mel
Damn I love cake.
Yet the funny thing is, I don't actually want it. I mean, if I weren't staying away from grains and you put some in front of me I'd eat it... I'm not like anti cake now... I just don't actually *want* cake or cookies or whatnot anymore.
Now that I think about it, it's been a looong time since I could say that. That candy and pastry and whatnots didn't make me a little wet. It's usually easy to keep my eating in line, sure, but it's been a while since it's been this easy. Now if I could just remember to eat and manage to get my workouts in... I'll be back to where I should be in no time.
caaake.
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Okay this is dedication.... I bet the guys at the gym were loving you that day
It was a long skirt. I am over 30 now after all...
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Aoife my friend ... I have been, actually am where you are ... swap a few pregnancies with the return to school, and your story could be mine. In 6 months we will NOT be this horrified by our shapes. I too carry my weight well (if there is such a thing) and it is a blessing and also not so much. I know I'll never be a twiggy 120 (since I carry about 120 of lean mass!) or have thin thighs (mine are like rocks) ... but I will look smokin in some nice low rise jeans again ... and I won't be embarrassed of the pictures of me waterskiing this coming summer!!! I turn 40 at the end of May, and what better gift to myself than the gift of a hot bod!! We will do it together!!
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It was a long skirt. I am over 30 now after all...
Honestly, you don't look over 25.
A snatch joke popped into my head... but I will leave it be.
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I didn't not do it. Just like the time when I forgot pants/shorts and had to work out in a skirt. Nuthin like a girl in a skirt in a powercage doing squats and goodmornins.
I used go to Bally's (inexpensive, close to home). There was a woman that would workout in snug jeans, tucked into boots with mid to high heel boots, etc.
She looked good, but she didn't look prepared to work.
A snatch joke popped into my head... but I will leave it be.
heh heh. You said "snatch."
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Well, on the bright side weight is down to 164 today.
On the not-so-bright side I've not been eating enough. Fortunately I haven't been munchy or anything. My problem being that without the grains I'm used to having, my hunger response is less noticeable, and I'm already very good at forgetting to eat... getting too engrossed in whatever else I'm doing and just not paying attention. Now I don't get hungry really, I just go straight to the headache phase of hunger. *sigh*
I also am beginning to dislike Leigh as much as I do Alwyn.
But on the bright side, that does mean 3 pounds down... which of course means nothing because a good shit can do that for a girl... but still. It may be some glycogen since I'm not eating what I should, but I'm not working that hard yet, I really don't feel too depleted.
/ramble.
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So this day calls for 10 rounds of the circuit of cone hop, burpee jacks, push jumps, squat hops. I completed 3... whilst rest times between parts increased hugely, and it all just sucked complete and total donkey balls.
Next time will be better, but omfg am I out of cv shape. *sigh*
Then onto the intervals... calling for 18 minutes (6 sets of walk/run/jog) I only got through 12 minutes (4 sets) before tanking. on the elliptical, .72 miles with levels 1-walk/3-jog/5-run (and faster speeds to match.)
Eh, so I suck.
However, at this point I need to #1 lose fat, and #2 continuously improve. Granted, noone likes the "most improved" award (or at least those who know that it means that they really sukked in the beginning) but I just need to suck it up and deal with the fact that I've lost MASSIVE amounts of ground will have to trudge along again from square three.
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I actually used a mini notepad in my purse to track what I did.
Okay this is dedication.... I bet the guys at the gym were loving you that day 
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