Aoife In Wonderland - Page 32 - JP Fitness Forums

Aoife · 09-04-2008, 05:02 PM

That one was awsum too. Frickin hilarious.

Aoife · 09-04-2008, 05:15 PM

NEWAI…

While not going much lower, I am hovering under 160 now, so that's progress. sorta. I've been inconsistent on activity because of my schedule, but it'll be going up as this weekend and next week I'm hanging and focusing lights. Blah blah, nothing else really to say. *shrug*

Deserve · 09-05-2008, 07:54 AM

No more frequent flier b&tch miles.

That's awesome. I may need to see this one.

Aoife · 09-05-2008, 11:39 AM

Is very funny.

And I'm really particular about my movies. I annoy the SHIT out of Otto, and my sister won't ever tell me if a movie is really good or not, because I complained how much Napoleon Dynamite and Big Labowski were hyped and ended up being pretty meh.

I'd put it up with Zoolander and the Zohan.

SpacecityPaula · 09-05-2008, 01:20 PM

OMG I would have never known that was tom....

UConnJulie · 09-05-2008, 06:15 PM

I'll have to put it on my list to see ... not too many on there these days!

tkinsley · 09-07-2008, 12:47 PM

Seein' it today, I'm thinking... I'm packing my depends, just in case.

L'ilJ · 09-07-2008, 09:29 PM

Aoife · 09-09-2008, 09:56 PM

I liked myself better when I "used to be fat", not "used to be thin."

*sigh*

Aoife · 09-09-2008, 10:00 PM

Signs yer a little fucked in the head:

When you think this is not a good body to have.

So fixated on the flaws, dammit.

Bytsi · 09-10-2008, 08:51 AM

Sigh...
I'll have to find a pic of me in hs and scan it in - I was 105# and worried about my "poochy" belly... What I wouldn't give, now, to have that "awful" body back

One of our goals (all women who need this!) should be to love ourselves and STOP fixating on the flaws that, most likely, no one else notices or cares about.

Aoife · 09-10-2008, 09:33 AM

I wanted to look awsym naked. Now I look bad in clothes.

In reality, I had a huge priority shift, and the gym stopped being fun. I don't know why, but it did. It was a long time maintenance, and a slow creep up after that. Only recently has shit skyrocketed out of control. And now it's under control, but the path down was much faster last time. I can't handle that level of intensity at the moment, although I keep finding myself trying… like a friggin Alzheimer's patient.

I'd prolly do best to count on doing very little and just eat low to compensate for that.

It feels like there's so much to do, and so little time for it all. It's not necessarily the case, I slack of a LOT, but that's kinda in the vein of avoidance. Call it laziness or fear, it has the same consequence. School work is always last minute, training never gets done, code isn't written, logs aren't made, house isn't clean, the grass becomes a pygmy village, and there's never more than 2 ironed shirts at most.

I've severely cut back on hanging around here, huge time-sink that it is. The bright side is if I only stick to subscriptions (usually just people's logs) then I can easily read on the touch, and checking the forums fits into smaller pockets in the day.

You know, all my real progress came before I started hanging out in fitness forums.

If I accomplish a lot, it sets a standard, and I feel guilty for slacking off. If I sit around and do nothing, nothing gets done, but at least I don't feel …what? Inferior? Wasteful?

But I do.

School puts my life on hold, even though it was on hold before school, and in the end all it's gonna get me is a BA after 7-8 fucking years. It feels pointless to do stuff now, but in reality there's plenty to do now. If I do things right and stuff works out gud, I won't actually NEED that silly degree. Does that mean I wasted years and a shitton of money on it?

It's been a looooong time since I've worked up to "my potential," as my grade school teachers called it. Thinking I'm prolly not good enough? Worried that I'm fabulous? I dive in to stuff and shit starts going well, and then I back off. No longer interested, want more free time, etc.

Really I want more time to relax without shit hanging over my head. The path to that is getting shit done. But I don't, and avoid instead.

I can trace shit back and analyze myself all day, in the end I'm still a fat lazy bitch IF I don't actually DO something about it.

Aoife · 09-10-2008, 09:37 AM

I am still hovering under 160, but not really losing anymore (over a week). Now it's time to shift again. Either lower calories, or add in more work.

1 lift session, short and heavy, a week. 1 yoga a week. Stretching and SMR every day for a couple minutes (which will make lifting heavy shit and doing bendy stuff more funner).

Thought for the day: A lot of NEAT one day is NOT "useless" if the next day the scale doesn't move.

RedLefty · 09-10-2008, 10:53 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Aoife

It's been a looooong time since I've worked up to "my potential," as my grade school teachers called it. Thinking I'm prolly not good enough? Worried that I'm fabulous? I dive in to stuff and shit starts going well, and then I back off. No longer interested, want more free time, etc.

Really I want more time to relax without shit hanging over my head. The path to that is getting shit done. But I don't, and avoid instead.

Get out of my head, crazy chica.

Wanna make a mutually accountable agreement about forum checking during the day? Only at certain times of the day or only X number of times per day? And we can agree to kick each other's ass (or have Otto/Jamie do it) if we break the rule.

Aoife · 09-10-2008, 11:18 AM

lolz

I need to limit total time, likely. If I mainly check on the computer with the rescue time that can actually see the pages I view (as opposed to here where it can't, different version camino, I guess) then I can say how long and know if I'm sticking to it.

Surely there's simple ground rules like lunchtime ok, or maybe one other time.

I'm thinking like an hour total. But i have no idea how much time I really spend. Lately, not much. But only the last few days.

Hmm...

SpacecityPaula · 09-10-2008, 11:38 AM

I totally relate on the limiting of time on the forum. I've worked really hard the last month in not being here all the time. My brother's funeral kind of a wake up call for me. I can do stuff, or I can sit on my ass and hide behind a bunch of words on the screen.

I like the feeling of accomplishment I've had over the past month as I've progressed forward. Is everything in my life straightened up, picked up, or cleaned up?? No. Am I making progress in the different areas that I feel I need to make progress in? Yes. Little by little I'm getting there.