I think the stress of the problems with Monica are finally having an effect on me. I've been struggling the past couple days. Today is horrible.
I don't want to eat, work out, anything.
Monica is not suicidal but the only reason she isn't is because she wants to stay around for me and the kids. I guess that's something but it's not the right reasons.
I wish I knew when these increased drugs will bring my wife back.
I'm soooo tired....... I just don't have any fight in me anymore. I'm at the end.
I'm soooo tired.....
Our tax return was supposed to come today, nothing so far. I'm sure we're going to end up being audited. Why? Cause everything else is souring on me.
I just ate a horrible lunch. Already screwed up my diet today. Who the hell cares?
I don't think you're the kind of guy that would give up.
You've gotten through so much already, the worst MUST be over by now. Just hang on a bit longer, and see what life throws your way. It can't rain every day.
One bad lunch isn't the end of the world. Who cares? Your friends do! We know you'll be back on track soon.
You and Monica have been through a lot. It's natural for that level of stress to be tiring. And it will take some time for you both to work everything out and arrive at some healing. I wish it could be faster, but some things can't be hurried.
I'm wishing you all my best. Hang in there. Things will get better.
__________________ The trick is in what one emphasizes. We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same. -- Carlos Castaneda
If you got hit by a dumbell in the head, would it bruise? If you DL'd 600 pounds tonight, would you have DOMS tomorrow?
You've been hit by the emotional equivalent of a 10-ton truck, then had to pull the truck 7 miles to a garage. All while having to juggle fourteen rabid wolverines and sing Prince's "Kiss". In falsetto.
For every action there's equal and opposite reaction. I'd be worried if you didn't feel like you do right now. That would mean you're in denial, which you're clearly not. Just stay real, stay honest with yourself about how you feel, and remember that you're not alone.
You're not alone.
__________________ Megaloi -- My Blog
"Every society honors its live conformists and its dead troublemakers."
- Mignon McLaughlin
Prioritize...take what life has given you...work the problem!
Focus on your wife and kids. A couple bad meals won't matter in the long run. Take some time, narrow your focus on what's really important.
You can't quit or give up. Sorry, we're not going to let you off that easy. Do what's necessary to get through the day to the next one...things will improve...like Red said, you're not alone in this.
Hang tough! We're counting on you! Failure is not an option!!!!!!!
Enough cliche's already!
Ted
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There are three things in my life which I really love: God, my family, and baseball. The only problem - once baseball season starts, I change the order around a bit. ~Al Gallagher, 1971
Don't be so hard on yourself. You need to relax, you need to cut yourself some slack. When you demand that much of yourself, something is going to give. You are doing fine. Everything does not have to be perfect.
I have only recently become familiar with your travails and I have been absolutely amazed at your great strength and ability to deal with these difficulties. You have demonstrated to all here that a person can indeed rise to a tremendously life-changing challenge, face it, and guide his family through it. It is clear that you have shown great courage, sound judgment, wisdom and love as you have done what you have had to do.
These things take a toll. It would be unrealistic to expect not to experience periods of letdown, doubt, or simple bad luck. RedLefty's post and advice is right on target.
Come on, Terry, hang on. I know it seems overwhelming, I've been down that road too. But you're one of the strongest people I know. I know it's tough but just keep coming here and we can prop you back up when you need it.
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__________________ “I have always done my duty. I am ready to die. My only regret is for the friends I leave behind me.”
-- Zachary Taylor, 12th U.S. President, 1849-1850
Taking a day or two off from the gym (or even five days to a week) isn't giving up. It's a deload or an off week - a need rest. A couple of messed up meals is no real big deal either. It's what you do in the long run that makes the difference. Hang in there! We know you'll be back at it soon. We believe in you. You've proven that you're a very strong person.
RL you are hilarious and amazing at providing such awesome insight in comical ways. GR, you're one tough mo-fo. You should feel run down. Forget about your diet for today. A day or two of a little slacking isn't going to hurt you. It's a sacrifice well worth paying in order to get things back in order. All that you've put up with in the last year or so is more than most people are faced with in their lifetime. And still, through all this, you achieved your personal physical goals, which you've worked years to perfect. Stay strong man, I know you'll pull through this!
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"Don't spend your life wishing. Spend it doing." -FishrCutB8
"You're a mutant, like a snake with two heads or a cat shy one nipple. Be thankful that your mutation is helpful." - LD
Terry,
At some point in the future you are going to look back on this and smile, because you made it through. These are tough times, but you are a tough individual. You have had a lot of stress placed upon you and it's natural to be in the dumps about it. A few bumps in the road do not mean that you have given up the journey. This is a detour that in many ways may make you stronger. Few could say they would hold up as well as you have. Just discussing it is good for the spirit. Keep posting and just get it out of your system.
__________________ In Fitness & Friendship, MAHLER
______________________________ __________________________ There is no light at the end of the tunnel. You carry the light with you.
Whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger...that works for marriages too.
Hang in there mate.
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Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable. -- Sidney J. Harris
hanging in. I think I actually may literally be sick. My whole body has ached today, got a headache, tired, so tired. Monica seemed a little better this afternoon when she saw that I was feeling like shit. I actually got some sleep without worrying about her. You know what? Everything was ok when I woke up.
Still not feeling right, but I'm better than earlier today. I'm taking some time off to concentrate on the bare essentials. Thanks guys. I'll keep checking in.
Terry, I got exhausted for you when I knew what you were going through. That's why my very first message to you after she came home was to get some rest. You have been in hyper-vigilent mode for a sustained period of time, and that always taxes the body. Give yourself a well earned resting period, and take the pressure off of yourself that you feel you have to live by.
The body is very forgiving when you treat it right, and right now yours is shutting down to demand you give it some rest. You may not want to listen, but it doesn't sound like your body wants to be ignored.
Nutrition and exercise can wait till you have mentally recharged your batteries. And you know what, you won't lose as much as you think. You don't always have to be at 100%. Most people operate at about 20%, so you could spend a little time in the mortal plane and then get back to the regimen.
If anyone is entitled to a little slacking off, it is you. What's my excuse?
I think you are exactly right. My whole body ached, I was so tired. I was just exhausted. period. I slept so much and today am feeling much better. Not 100% but much better. I'm still going to take today and tomorrow off, forget the diet and the workouts and focus on resting.
Monday, I'll be back at it. I'm not giving up yet.
Thanks for the update. Glad to hear you're getting some rest! You deserve it.
__________________ The trick is in what one emphasizes. We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same. -- Carlos Castaneda
Thanks for the update, Terry. It is amazing what a little rest will do when you have been through the wringer. Listen to the body and give it what it needs most. I'm still praying for you.
__________________ In Fitness & Friendship, MAHLER
______________________________ __________________________ There is no light at the end of the tunnel. You carry the light with you.
I'm feeling much, much better. Monica told me today that she thinks the meds are finally kicking in. She feels lots better also. It's such a great feeling. I seem to have my wife back. She was smiling and joking with me today.
I'm finally going back to work tomorrow. I'm looking forward to it.
I'm also going to start back working out and eating right again tomorrow. The last couple, three days off have worked wonders on me.
Thank you all again for all your thoughts and prayers.
__________________ The trick is in what one emphasizes. We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same. -- Carlos Castaneda
Great news man. With your drive, determination, and will, you personify the saying "You can do anything you set your mind to."
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"Rust on a nail builds tetanus. Rust on a barbell builds character, strength, and attitude." -EC
"Don't spend your life wishing. Spend it doing." -FishrCutB8
"You're a mutant, like a snake with two heads or a cat shy one nipple. Be thankful that your mutation is helpful." - LD
Terry good to hear you are feeling better. You have been very strong so far. If you feel tired.. you are entitled to it, you know. So don't take it so hard on yourself. You are doing great. You are great. You are awesome. I wish I had even 1% of that determination of yours.
I've just about given up.
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