I have not had a good workout in the past 2 weeks. Found out low BP 90/60 2 weeks back. It is still low, even though I have tweaked my diet quite a bit. Very surprising. Then the last 2 days I am down with flu and hubby is on a business trip. He wanted to cancel his trip but I did not want that. I did not want to feel more helpless than I already was feeling. I know flu and 2 kids.. it would have been better to have him here. But having him to cancel his trip for my flu would have been a BIG jolt to my already diminishing confidence.
I am working from home. I took this option to be home with my baby while I work. This is so not working out. Connection to office over VPN is slow. Not very but to get anything done takes long. I may sound like I am complaining but I have nothing to complain about. I am getting the best of both worlds. Being able to work and being able to be with my baby. It's getting a little frustrating though. Mainly because I am a high end productive girl at work. I am having difficulty coming to terms with my reduced productivity.
Then I think of Alan, Greg, Fish, Terry, the Red's.. and I pity myself for getting depressed over life's minor inconveniences. Shit happens..As Gobbla would have said. So yesterday, I finally decided to cheer myself up by logging on to JPFitness. I knew you guys would never fail me. But.. we all know what happened and I felt more depressed than I already was. All I needed this morning was lthebert's joke thread to cheer me up
No worries, that' what we're all here for, to listen to venting. I sure took advantage of it. No worries.
Step back, take a deep breath, count your blessings and take a long look at that beautiful little baby of yours.
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Working with the kids around is so frustrating! When I did it and occassionally still have to, I felt like I was doing both poorly. I took Sophie to work with me for her first 6 months about and it was very tiring. I think I would have been saner and just as productive if I could have worked part time without a kid.
Hey what a good attitude Ruma, I can hear you trying to make the best of it. It's nice that your husband wanted to stay home, sounds like a good guy.
It's hard to stay home when you're used to being out and about at work and such. Don't discount your challenges, they're real. But you're right, you'll live.
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I am certain that, on my death bed, I will look back and say, "I sure wish I had a faster Internet connection so I could have done more work."
God has a way of slowing us down when we don't have the sense to do it for ourselves. The key is to slow down (or He will slow you down even more...trust me) and listen. You will find what you need in those small moments of silent listening.
Ruma, I too am feeling a little sad and bummed out these days. Try to look to the positives and focus on them. There are SO many in your life as there are in mine. Don't let the other stuff eat away at you. Like Fish said, take time to listen. And you will find your inner peace.
Hope you get over your flu quickly. And that the kiddies don't come down with it.
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Awww Ruma. It will get better. I agree with Fish, slow down before the big guy decides to do it for you. Enjoy the time with your little guys, there will always be work later. Life is constantly changing and you need to just roll with the punches and try to make the best of things. I remember very clearly how it was trying to study with my little guys running around, I finally learned that taking time for them instead of the books made us all much happier, then when I could pick the books back up I was much more productive. Listen to the silent and not so silent clues. Good luck and keep your chin up.
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The flu and 2 kids while hubby is on a trip is not a "minor inconvenience." That is pure survival mode, and it sounds like you're doing an excellent job of surviving! Fun mode guaranteed to start eventually; it always does.
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I hope you feel better soon, Ruma! As Red said, fun mode will return, and you'll be more than ready for it.
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Ruma, I hope you are feeling better now. Being sick can be depressing enough, but add all of the other things you are trying to juggle on top of that and it's completely overwhelming! You're doing the right thing trying to give as much time as possible to your new baby. Way more important than a job!
Yeah.. I am feeling much better today. Temparature is gone. Hubby is back and I relaxed and rested a lot for 3 whole days did not even switch on my laptop.
Blood pressure is still low but I don't feel the lethargy anymore. I am going to have a great workout tomorrow morning, I bet.
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I am certain that, on my death bed, I will look back and say, "I sure wish I had a faster Internet connection so I could have done more work."
Good one. I will always remember that.
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Ruma, I too am feeling a little sad and bummed out these days.
Hope you are feeling better too, Rob. You too have gone through a lot lately and I hope your Mom is feeling better each day.
Hey Ruma! Sorry you were feeling down, but glad you are doing better! Working with children home is IMPOSSIBLE for me. I just suck at everything when I try that. Maybe Mom could come for a couple hours a week to let you focus???
Sick, hubby-less, with 2 kids is a LOT! Don't kid yourself!
I am struggling with Samantha more than usual lately...she's just doing small things that really get under my skin. Hopefully, this will go away with good rest for both of us!
I'll live...
"I'm growing older but not up. My metabolic rate is pleasantly stuck. So let the winds of change blow over my head. I'd rather die while I'm living then live while I'm dead."
did not even switch on my laptop.
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