Friday was an awful day for me and I'm not exactly quite sure why. I ran through the entire gambit of human emotion 4 or 5 times. My mood swings have become considerably more frequent and increasingly more intense; the highs being very high and the lows becoming very low. I kind of expected this in a way as my birthday and the holidays approached, but the severity has taken me completely off guard. Which is why I'm starting consider more intense treatment options for my mental health.
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Bond, really sorry to hear about that. But, unlike a lot of people who suffer in silence, at least you are aware of the problem and ready to do something about it. I'm assuming you're already seeing some sort of mental health professional...what does he/she recommend?
PLEASE, do as you are planning and get it looked at now. You don't want to wait and have it spiral out of control.
Currently, I'm only taking anti-depressants and working with my family doc on finding the right meds for me. I'm not currently interested in "talk" therapy as I do not honestly believe that there's anything left to talk about. My mental instability is chemical and can be properly regulated with the right drug. I'm just not sure if we've found it yet.
The reason why I'm looking into a mental health care facility is because I have moments where confinement and close supervision would prevent me from doing harm to myself. Last Friday I was very seriously thinking I'd need something like that until a medication is tried that works well for me.
Today is a MUCH better day and everything seems to be so much clearer. But, I do plan to continue to search for a reputable facility in case an emergency does arise. I just don't know when I might feel like I did on Friday again. The only thing I can be certain about is that I will feel that way again. And, that scares the ever living tar out of me.
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I think it would scare the heck out of anyone. Definitely do the search and find one quickly, because I think you have the right mindset (no pun intended) in your course of action. Have your wife help to find a reputable one. Arkansas isn't that much of the boonies! [img]smile.gif[/img] Just do it, get to the root cause, fix it and get on with living. Life is just too short to suffer or live in fear.
PM me if you want to dicuss it further or need support. I'm usually on this board just a little bit. [img]tongue.gif[/img]
I found some information that MIGHT be affecting my mental health. I've been taking Ambien off and on for almost 1.5 years for sleeping problems. But, in the last few weeks, I've been taking it more regularly. Today, I came across this and discovered that the Ambien could be exacerbating my depressed mood and suicidal thoughts. Needless to say, I've stopped taking the drug and I will definitely let my doctor know how it's been affecting me.
I know this isn't all of my problem, but after reading that, I'm convinced that the Ambien was contributing to the situation.
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