I just thought that was super cool because it means that everything must be working again now that I'm feeding myself right and working out at a healthy level. I'm so proud and happy! I think I'm finally on the way to doing this the right way since I lost the weight the first time (almost 7 years ago! )
Jes you are doing SO well - it's exciting to follow along with your progress!
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This is SO AWESOME to read! YAY for you!!!
Thanks gals, I really appreciate all your support through this. I can't believe I'm four days away from being done. It's pretty amazing, really. I can't wait to see what I can do after this!
So, I have to post and run, since it's so late again, but today was kind of rough. I woke up this morning with a sick stomach and simply no interest in getting out of bed. I emailed in sick and stayed in bed until around 11 am. Then around 2ish I crawled back in bed and my phone started going crazy and my inbox was blowing up from work. So I took care of a BUNCH of stuff and worked until 4:30ish. Then there was a 7pm call tonight and I hear my phone go off. My client, who said he doesn't need support, is freaking out, but won't tell me what. So I log in and dial in and solve the issues, but the call is having drama, so I ended up being on for over an hour and a half . So, needless to say, I think I'll be asking for this "day off" back! Ridiculous, how much work I do when I'm not supposed to be working. And they want to give me 25 more clients! Talk about stress. They must be joking.
Anyhow, I finally actually got hungry around 4pm and tried to eat a bunch tonight. I still figure I'm waaaay under for the day, but when you're sick, what are you going to do. I think I should have known this was coming based on how miserable I felt last night. I kept waking up and being really hot. It was like reverse fever or something. I was having hot flashes - which I do have as part of PMS sometimes - but they were wicked bad, and I just couldn't get rested. I feel more even keeled now, and I wonder if it's from all this eating , since I feel better but had a much lower feeding day. Leigh says there will probably be some insomnia, but this is worse than that.
I can't imagine trying to bulk. Especially a clean bulk. Whew.
Anyhow, I'm going to try to get some better rest tonight as I have no choice but to work tomorrow day and night - whether I'm up to it or not Hopefully I will be, nothing more fun than being sick at work!
Ugh - sorry 'bout the day off that wasn't. Ick! What do you do (you don't have to reply since it's public forum and all that - just curious!)... I get cranky even when I get texted from work when I'm off...
Ugh - sorry 'bout the day off that wasn't. Ick! What do you do (you don't have to reply since it's public forum and all that - just curious!)... I get cranky even when I get texted from work when I'm off...
Thanks. I'm feeling better today, just trying to play mental catch up!
I am a consultant for a company the provides a software to Congress. It's a very hectic job right now, but will calm down soon.
Also my husband is booking us room and plane tickets to Orlando for the end of August, so that's awesome. We are finally getting some time off! I can't wait
And so I guess I have "graduated" from the Repair program. My everything seems to back to normal for the most part, but I will be sure of all that in a couple of days. This last week I have had some hot flashes and cold spots there, but I am either get sick due to stress/overwork or that's the hardcore eating that I was doing this week getting to me. It could also be PMS, it's hard to say
Anyhow, I would definitely say that this program worked for me. My weight is a little all over the place right now with hormones and such but for the most part I still seem to be down about a 1.5 lbs since I started the program and actually have a metabolism to show for it. That's all the more impressive when you take into account that I stuffed my face this week and didn't really work out at all. My last workout was Pilates last Saturday due to the ridiculous hours I've been pulling. The days that I'm not working, I'm so tired I can't do anything but sit on the couch. It's really amazing. I worked until 11:30pm on Wed night and I still feel like I haven't recovered. I tried to rest up today and I have Pilates in the morning. I want to get a LOT of stuff done this weekend, so I'm hoping my energy returns so I can get some stuff taken care of.
But I digress....
When I started this program, I
couldn't lose weight, even at working out 3-5x a week and eating 1800ish calories
the scale was pretty much totally stuck and if it moved at all it went up.
couldn't get warm
had no energy
was extremely unhappy most of the time
didn't know what to do.
Now all that stuff is pretty much fixed. My weight fluctuates like a normal human being. I'm hot when I'm supposed to be, but still on the cooler side of normal . My moods make more sense now, even if I'm pmsing like a looney toon today. And I have a good deal more energy than I did before, so I would say that's pretty much fixed. If that's not enough, I went from eating 1800 calories and gaining to eating 2800 calories and maintaining in 8 weeks. So, yeah, I'm pretty happy with that!
I just want to say to everyone out there that is considering the program - if you take the test and you come up with B/C/D as your primary letters, than do this program and get better. If you look at the program and the last few weeks scare the crap out of you, or you can't consider stopping your workouts, then this program is for you. The mental is the hardest part, but it will save you so much heartache and frustration in the end, and you will get a fired up metabolism out of it.
So, thank you Leigh, for considering all the women who were functioning with food/workout issues and couldn't seem to recover from them. I appreciate you writing the manual and I'm glad for all the ladies who kept me going throughout. It's been a hell of a hard ride, but I'm excited to get working on getting myself down to a healthier weight and a happier shape. Now I know I can do that!
Thanks everyone for all your support! I can't believe I made it, and I wouldn't have if it weren't for you all. You rock!
I'm also posting a copy of this in the FLTS threads.
So I don't have much to report, but I thought I'd pop in and say all is mostly well. I have gone back to around 1700 calories. Saturday was a little over, yesterday is kind of hard to say because I ate on the fly a lot and today is under. It's a surprisingly easy to maintain that level, in fact, I feel like it's easier than it was before the the repair. I'm not entirely sure how that makes a lick of sense, but I'll take it - so long as it means my metabolism is still going at the right speed and I'm making a deficit here. Too early to tell.
Saturday I had my Pilates class and then I did a ton of NEAT walking around shopping. I didn't even give in to the siren song of Auntie Anne's pretzels that I love so much. And I was proud of that.
Other than that, I haven't really had much time or energy to work out. Sunday I was active cleaning around the house, but I was so sore from Pilates, I couldn't consider lifting or cardio.
I had a late call tonight, I have one tomorrow and one Wed and then all four days next week. I am not amused. It also means I don't have time or energy to work out. I can barely keep ahead of my food and what my name is, let alone sort out how to expend more energy. This steaming pile of BS comes to a close on August 7th and I've joined the challenge so I think it will all work out, if I make it that long. I've also set myself some mini goals. I'd like to lose 5 lbs by my birthday (2 gone they were just water weight - which is why 5 seems realistic) - which is the first day of the challenge. It will be an auspicious day for me!
Then we are going to Disney at the end of August, so I just want to feel comfortable in my bikini. I don't really have a number for that, but I think it's in the low 150s, which is totally unrealistic for this time frame. It's hard to say, though, since I am so much beefier than I was the last time I wore it, so we'll see. I think it's a nice goal to have, and
if it doesn't work out, I have a tankini
Anyhow, that's where I'm at. Gots to get the rest now that I have so much work to do anymore. I hope all is well with everyone.
Jesse, this is EXACTLY the thing I recommend everyone try for thmselves. Do a "bulk" and just see how danged hard it is to gain weight. If you eat cleanly you will find it to be almost impossible without HUGE efforts. The side benefit of this "bulk" is that it drives the metabolism up like mad. Mine reached and stayed at 2370. That made my cut go ultra smoothly and pretty easily. I remember standing in the kitchen talking to my friend and I announced that I think I was coming down with the flu. I just felt weak and bad. I looked at the clock and saw it was past time for me to eat. After I ate I felt fine. That was the first time I ever felt real hunger in my life. After that I was up in the middle of the night many times. I also remember the wonderful feeling of not being cold all the time. A healthy metabolism is the bestest thing ever! Good job on getting yours all fired up.
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Jesse, this is EXACTLY the thing I recommend everyone try for thmselves. Do a "bulk" and just see how danged hard it is to gain weight. If you eat cleanly you will find it to be almost impossible without HUGE efforts. The side benefit of this "bulk" is that it drives the metabolism up like mad. Mine reached and stayed at 2370. That made my cut go ultra smoothly and pretty easily. I remember standing in the kitchen talking to my friend and I announced that I think I was coming down with the flu. I just felt weak and bad. I looked at the clock and saw it was past time for me to eat. After I ate I felt fine. That was the first time I ever felt real hunger in my life. After that I was up in the middle of the night many times. I also remember the wonderful feeling of not being cold all the time. A healthy metabolism is the bestest thing ever! Good job on getting yours all fired up.
Thanks! It really is an awesome thing. I feel like this will go pretty easily. I'm eating at 1550-1700 calories a day without much problem. Yes, I am hungry, sometimes, but it's a deficit, that's the idea. I have taken off almost all of the water weight I gained from the starch max out, and I'm interested to see how effective I can be in these weeks where I have no time nor energy to work out. Even though I would like to work out, I feel like it's probably for the best to start with the deficit, get comfortable with it, and then add in as much exercise as I can without making my appetite out of control. In the end, I hope I can gain as much control and understanding of my body as you and Jane have. Just know what would work if I would apply this diet or that program would give me a great feeling that I don't think I've ever really had over myself. That's really what my challenge goal will be. Just to get me!
So this weekend was pretty intense. On Saturday DH and I helped move my Aunt, Uncle and four cousins out of their home to a house about an hour and a half away. The two of us plus six others moved their stuff out into 2 26' box trucks (yeah 2, not a typo! ) and then DH drove one truck and I drove the other up there, and then we unloaded it into the house. It was serious work, and the thing is, we probably could have filled another 18 footer. They wanted to take the rest of the stuff by car because it was delicate, but it was going to be a lot of trips. Glad it's not me!
So today I was pretty sore. I pretty much ate all my calories back yesterday in the form of donuts and pizza. I was thinking we were going to get some healthier food, but it never showed up, and I would wait until I was light headed and then eat. Not really a good plan, but I kept holding out for healthier fare. Ah well.
I rested for a lot of today as about three or four hours after I finally got up I got a serious migraine. We had a major storm blow through here and knock out the power, so there was nothing to do but sleep, anyhow. I wasn't complaining until the migraine kicked in and I couldn't sleep. I still feel a little off right now, but I've dosed up again, and I hope it doesn't come back tomorrow. I've had a lot of these lately (hormones and stress) and I really don't want to have another tomorrow. I only have a week and a half of this mayhem left, and I have to focus on that.
To give you an idea of how stressful my life has been, I actually missed my AF this month. I have missed it a whole 3 times before this in 19 years! and those times have all been very stressful times like break ups and whatnot. Before you ask, I've already tested, I am not preggers. Thankfully. I say that because I'm just trying to wait a few more months so I'm not 8.5 months pregnant when I'm the maid of honor at my friends wedding, in May, in Georgia. That just doesn't sound like fun to me! So, anyway, I've been that stressed!
Also, it's causing me to have a hard time losing weight too. Very freaking frustrating to be eating in a reasonably significant deficit and just be stuck at a weight. I'm going to say cortisol might have something to do with this. That and that I can't really workout and I'm probably not getting enough sleep for the amount of mental work I've been doing. All things leading up to my body clinging on to weight for dear life. I had dropped down to 167.6 for one day last week and I'm back stuck at 169.8. It's seriously upsetting me. I can sit here and rationalize and explain to you all the reasons that it's happening, and it all makes perfect sense, but when I think about it, I just get upset. I question everything for the last 10 weeks again and freak out. It's great times, really. I'm hoping that my hormones will balance out this week since AF and everything has been so hosed and that I will lose the water that I'm retaining from being exhausted and working my arse off yesterday and that I will fall out somewhere down where I was before. I'm not holding my breath, tho. The whole thing just sucks
Well that was longer than intended, but I guess I haven't posted in awhile. I have done much of anything in awhile except be chained to a computer and a phone. August 7th (the House goes into communications blackout for 3 months!) is going to be one of the best days I've had in a long time. I can't wait!
So things are kind of a mess right now. I don't want to get into the details, but someone at DH work hung themself, and DH was there for a lot of the aftermath. He is having a very hard time with it and we could really use your kind thoughts. It's been a very hard year for us so far as I have lost three relatives in the last nine months and now this.
Tack on that I have been dealing with some kind of weird stomach virus that I probably got because the stress has been so high, and you've got one spent person. A week from today is the end of all this mayhem, and I can't wait.
It has been a very emotional week for us. Monday was our first anniversary, so that was a huge high, and then yesterday was the suicide, and tomorrow my family who has been living in Asia for the last four years returns home to the states, but they are on their long journey home, so I'm always worried about that. I just don't know how much more stress I can actually handle right now.
I wish I had time/energy to workout right now, because I think the stress relief of that would actually help, but work has been too busy and with being sick, it probably isn't the best idea. One more week. That's all I keep telling myself.
Wow, I am sorry to hear that. How horrible. Suicide is such a difficult thing. I had a male friend from my hometown who did this last October and it just shook me to the core. Had a family, 3 kids under the age of 3 and it was just imaginable. And the grief is just hard to take.
You guys are in my thoughts.
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Thinking of you Jes. My ex's brother committed suicide and it's a very difficult thing to deal with -- part of the reason why my ex is an "ex", actually. It just changes your life forever and it changed him and it changed us. Especially if your DH was close with this person....it's going to take a long time for him to be able to move on from this.
Wow crazy happenings.... But you still have so much to be thankful for. You are in good health and still have your DH. In times like these turn to the things you have and find grattitude. That is a huge stress reliever for me..... You are both in my thoughts today. Take it easy in all things until you feel better.
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It sounds a bit trite, but I've always love the quote by Nietzsche, "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger." Stress can be a horrible thing to deal with when it's happening, but in the end we usually end up better for it. I hope things cool off a little bit for you in the coming days.
"As far as (healthy) eating, either do it, or don't. Same issues repeated over and over is just insanity. We either commit to the endeavor or pay lip-service to it. This is the hardest part of the whole process, and it needs to be practiced more than the actual physical training. It's mind training." ~ Matt Thorne
"The reason that most people fail instead of succeed is that they trade what they want most for what they want at the moment."
Wow, I am sorry to hear that. How horrible. Suicide is such a difficult thing. I had a male friend from my hometown who did this last October and it just shook me to the core. Had a family, 3 kids under the age of 3 and it was just imaginable. And the grief is just hard to take.
You guys are in my thoughts.
Thanks!
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Hang in there Jes... sorry to hear about the friend and all the stress...
Thanks, I'm trying.
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Thinking of you Jes. My ex's brother committed suicide and it's a very difficult thing to deal with -- part of the reason why my ex is an "ex", actually. It just changes your life forever and it changed him and it changed us. Especially if your DH was close with this person....it's going to take a long time for him to be able to move on from this.
Yeah, DH is having a hard time with it, but I think it was more the experience and that the guy left no note or gave no sign, than it was about the closeness of the relationship. He will be ok, but it will be awhile.
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Wow crazy happenings.... But you still have so much to be thankful for. You are in good health and still have your DH. In times like these turn to the things you have and find grattitude. That is a huge stress reliever for me..... You are both in my thoughts today. Take it easy in all things until you feel better.
Yeah, it does make you grateful. However, I think it makes you question what everyone around you is feeling, even those closest to you. The whole thing begets a bit of fear of the "unknown" and that's a hard thing to get over.
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It sounds a bit trite, but I've always love the quote by Nietzsche, "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger." Stress can be a horrible thing to deal with when it's happening, but in the end we usually end up better for it. I hope things cool off a little bit for you in the coming days.
I'm sure the work stress will make me stronger, but I never want to get better at dealing with death. I don't like what that would mean on so many levels. I do often think about that quote, and mostly believe it to be true.
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Wow Jes.... lots of stress to say the least. Take care of yourself.... and belated Happy 1st Anniversary!
Not a lot to report right now, but I do have a couple good things.
We're at less than a week until the hell has ended
Theoretically tonight is my last call that I have to manage
Monday is my 30th birthday and I've managed to get the day off! I will be spending it shopping with my Mom and I'm leaving my damn work blackberry at home! It's set to be a good day
Scale has been hanging around 167.8 for the last couple of days, so I'm thinking that I'm pretty safe with that number. I hope to have it not bounce up to the 169-171 range anymore - but I'm fine with it bouncing down as much as it wants
My PB2 should arrive tomorrow. I hope I like it since I got the required 4 pack!
Stomach thing seems to be mostly going away. I had some issues last night (tho I was eating bad food and my calls went to hell, so that was intense stress) and a little bit this morning that could be left over from last night. Otherwise I think it should be cleared up by the weekend.
So that's about it. I'm just trying to focus on the positive right now. I'm still trying to keep my deficit, but I'm not stressing about tracking until this week is over, because really, I don't need more stress! I am still trying to eat as cleanly and as lightly as possible without making my life too hard. A few more days and I will be able to get back into a good routine. I can't wait!
Hi Jes, I just read it's your birthday in the Official Challenge thread and since that's not a chatty thread . . . Happy Birthday! Hope you have a really great one !
Hi Jes, I just read it's your birthday in the Official Challenge thread and since that's not a chatty thread . . . Happy Birthday! Hope you have a really great one !
"As far as (healthy) eating, either do it, or don't. Same issues repeated over and over is just insanity. We either commit to the endeavor or pay lip-service to it. This is the hardest part of the whole process, and it needs to be practiced more than the actual physical training. It's mind training." ~ Matt Thorne
"The reason that most people fail instead of succeed is that they trade what they want most for what they want at the moment."
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. So, needless to say, I think I'll be asking for this "day off" back! Ridiculous, how much work I do when I'm not supposed to be working. And they want to give me 25 more clients! Talk about stress. They must be joking.
, since I feel better but had a much lower feeding day. Leigh says there will probably be some insomnia, but this is worse than that.
. My moods make more sense now, even if I'm pmsing like a looney toon today. And I have a good deal more energy than I did before, so I would say that's pretty much fixed. If that's not enough, I went from eating 1800 calories and gaining to eating 2800 calories and maintaining in 8 weeks. So, yeah, I'm pretty happy with that!
Thankfully. I say that because I'm just trying to wait a few more months so I'm not 8.5 months pregnant when I'm the maid of honor at my friends wedding, in May, in Georgia. That just doesn't sound like fun to me! So, anyway, I've been that stressed!
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