Rest: This was a little tough because I had to work late. The later hours of the day were more stressful and I stood and paced a lot, but otherwise it was a standard day.
Food numbers: I ate three meals out yesterday!, but I logged. Of course, who knows if I'm right. I did the best I could with guessing and logging.
1749 calories
60g fat
192g carbs (Tortilla, rice and bread for starch)
111g protein
Sleep: 7ish hours and not good. Hubby kept flopping like a fish and waking me up. He finally got up at 4 and came back at 6:30, but by then the night had been ruined!
Water/sodium: Terrible on both. Not enough water and too much sodium. I'm soo bloated today!
Probiotics/enzymes: Endeavored to take as directed. They both look alike and one you take before you eat and the other after. I'm not sure if that's going to work out, because I have a terrible memory. I may have to compromise and take both before or after until I get in the swing of taking them with meals all the time.
Quality of Food: Um, awful. That's all I'm going to say.
Emotionally: Feeling ok. Was kind of in a bad mood (probably from lack of sleep ) but I snapped out of it. Working late last night was tough and stressful so when I got home last night I just showered and crashed. I am better today.
Weight: 167.6 Waist: 36
I'm not sure what happened, but I was just craving fatty foods and could not seem to stop myself. I was able to control the portions by remembering how many calories were in the foods, but I craved them like crazy, which is unusual. Also, I could not convince myself to order a salad anywhere. Two of the places we went to have good salads with good protien that I like, and they just grossed me out yesterday. When I say I was bad, I mean I had 1 onion ring, 4 fries and 4 chips. I also had some regular fat cheese and sour cream, so it's not like it was a huge binge, but it was weird because I really hadn't even wanted any of that stuff in the last couple of weeks, and it just rushed me all of a sudden. I'm thinking the mentality of "eat" got to me. It's only 163 calories more that I can eat, but it actually feels like tons more food, if that makes sense. If I was right on my logging (which I tried to be fair over and under - historically I will pick foods on the daily plate that have more calories than I think and undereat a lot), then I came in 40 calories under. Apart from some serious chocolate cravings last night, I managed to control it pretty well. Maybe I'm getting better at this whole food thing?
I do 2x a day -- just the PB8 -- morning and night.
See that's what I was thinking it was going to be, but it has things about taking it around meals. After I think? If I could take the probiotics in the am and pm and then the enzymes around the meals, then I could totally manage that. I have morning and evening meds for my allergies, so I'm in that habit. I dunno since I have no experience in this area.
I was just craving fatty foods and could not seem to stop myself. I was able to control the portions by remembering how many calories were in the foods, but I craved them like crazy, which is unusual. Also, I could not convince myself to order a salad anywhere. Two of the places we went to have good salads with good protien that I like, and they just grossed me out yesterday. When I say I was bad, I mean I had 1 onion ring, 4 fries and 4 chips. I also had some regular fat cheese and sour cream, so it's not like it was a huge binge, but it was weird because I really hadn't even wanted any of that stuff in the last couple of weeks, and it just rushed me all of a sudden. I'm thinking the mentality of "eat" got to me. It's only 163 calories more that I can eat, but it actually feels like tons more food, if that makes sense. If I was right on my logging (which I tried to be fair over and under - historically I will pick foods on the daily plate that have more calories than I think and undereat a lot), then I came in 40 calories under. Apart from some serious chocolate cravings last night, I managed to control it pretty well. Maybe I'm getting better at this whole food thing?
I think you're doing great! We all have craving days, and don't always know why... but you didn't go overboard, so that's GREAT!
I think you're doing great! We all have craving days, and don't always know why... but you didn't go overboard, so that's GREAT!
Thanks! Today was another fattening food craving day. I think it has to do with me being tired. It's been a rough week for sleep because my husband has been tossing and turning due to the heat. Also, it's been an exhausting week in general, and when I'm tired I'm hungry and all my good habits go out the window. Tonight would have been a good night to catch up, but wouldn't you know it, I'm wired. It's 1:22 am and I should be fast asleep, but I'm not. I finally caved and took half a sleeping pill. I probably wouldn't have bothered except that I have Pilates in the morning and if I start on Friday with a screwy sleeping schedule, I'm likely to be messed up the rest of the weekend. I hope this pill kicks in soon, I want to be in bed!
See that's what I was thinking it was going to be, but it has things about taking it around meals. After I think? If I could take the probiotics in the am and pm and then the enzymes around the meals, then I could totally manage that. I have morning and evening meds for my allergies, so I'm in that habit. I dunno since I have no experience in this area.
Marty - any opinions?
Hmm. I usually just take the probiotics with the enzymes before meals - but only before two of my six meals. (Morning and night). I try to remember to take the enzymes before every meal, but I find that challenging.
Hmm. I usually just take the probiotics with the enzymes before meals - but only before two of my six meals. (Morning and night). I try to remember to take the enzymes before every meal, but I find that challenging.
Yeah, I only take the enzymes 3x a day, because I eat three slightly larger meals and 2-3 snacks. It seems nuts to eat enzymes before a couple of cups of water melon and a string cheese. I dunno. I'm going to shoot for 2x with the probiotics, after breakfast and dinner, and 3x with the enzymes. I guess if I don't feel improved in 2 weeks like Leigh says, I will up the anty.
Ack! I have two days to log. Guess I better get it together. Below is the info for Friday
Rest: Pretty good. Did some running around to various offices in the most spread out building, but not too bad. Nothing out of the ordinary.
Food numbers: Better today, but the pizza called my name. Carbs were high, protein was low. Fat surprisingly spot on.
1785 calories
67g fat
218g carbs (english muffin and pizza dough for starch)
90g protein
Sleep: A better night of sleep since hubby turned on the AC. Apparently all the flopping was because he was too hot! It was good sleep, but not enough. Still felt tired most of the day.
Water/sodium: Better. Chugged a lot of water to make up for Thursday. Then I ate pizza and commercial salad dressing with dinner and went over the sodium again. I never learn!
Probiotics/enzymes: Did better. Not perfect, but since it's new to me, this taking pills with meals, I'm not too stressed.
Quality of Food: Great until dinner. Then it kind went out the window.
Emotionally: I was in a really good mood. I had a fairly good day on Friday, even if the afternoon was incredibly boring. I was wired at night tho, could not get to sleep again!
Rest: Pretty good. I went to Pilates today, but there was a girl in class who hasn't taken advanced before, so we kind of started over with the "new" exercises, which was fine by me. We didn't get to the ones that kill me, which is good for the program. I was jello when I was done, but it didn't suck the life out of me like last time. Amazing what 163 calories can do for you!
Food numbers: Pretty much perfect! Finally!
1979calories (1800 without the 179 extra I included to account for Pilates exertion)
66g fat
201g carbs (english muffin for starch. A little short on that I guess!)
153g protein
Sleep: 7 hours. Could not sleep! I wasn't even tired. I finally took half a sleeping pill at 1:30 am. Nutso. I forced myself up for class then took like three naps. It's almost 1 am and I'm still up. I'm going to have to take an early sleeping pill on Sunday night at this rate to try to get back on schedule. I have no idea what happened this weekend.
Water/sodium: Pretty good on both. My sodium is still around 1700-2000mg a day. I guess I should figure out if that's bad or not!
Probiotics/enzymes: Did much better today. Got 2x probiotics and 2x enzymes. I missed dinner with enzymes because we ate out and I forgot to bring them. Still, much better overall.
Quality of Food: Pretty good.
Emotionally: Was in a pretty good mood all day. Allergies have been rough and that's starting to wear. Not sure what the deal is, but it's getting old. I might have to go back on Claritan D for a little while, because this will make me grumpy fast!
Rest: Not so good. I started out good, but the day devolved into me cleaning the better part of the house. Sometimes I get out of control like this. It starts with a couple of loads of laundry and ends up with sweeping, scrubbing, mopping and general exhaustion. I haven't gotten like this in awhile, but I got totally out of control. I felt like crap after I was done.
Food numbers: Pretty good to start. I hit my numbers but felt sick most of the afternoon and ate kind of crappy foods. At the end of the day, I still was almost perfect with my macros, and that was with ice cream!
1796 calories
73gfat
174g carbs (crackers, chips and corn for starch)
110g protein
Sleep: Terrible. Wasn't tired again to go to sleep and then I kept waking up over and over at night. I woke up feeling like crap.
Water/sodium: Not enough water, but still way under on sodium.
Probiotics/enzymes: Pretty good. Still having a hard time remembering enzymes before meals
Quality of Food: Good breakfast and dinner. Not good snacks.
Emotionally: Miserable. I imagine it was because I was tired since I didn't sleep right most of the weekend. When I get tired I get depressed and hungry for junk food. Then it was 98 degrees here and I was outside shopping for part of the day. I didn't hydrate enough and it ended up making me sick to my stomach. Then, eventhough I didn't feel good, I decided to clean the house. My emotions were all over the place by the evening and my temper was short. I finally gave up and took a sleeping pill so I could get back on track. Hopefully that worked and I can stop needing the pills. Allergies are also much improved, so that should help with the sleeping too.
Sorry you had a rough day. I don't really go on cleaning/scrubbing jags (I think my DH wishes I would!), but I imagine it'd be very tiring. And I feel AWFUL on the rare occasions I get dehydrated... hope tomorrow's better for you.
Sorry you had a rough day. I don't really go on cleaning/scrubbing jags (I think my DH wishes I would!), but I imagine it'd be very tiring. And I feel AWFUL on the rare occasions I get dehydrated... hope tomorrow's better for you.
Thanks! I don't usually get dehydrated because I drink so much water, so I guess there was a bigger backlash to it than many people who just don't drink water. I dunno, could have been a lot of things along with dehydration. Either way it sucked!
Rest: Better today because of work. Did about .75 miles of city walking in 98 degree heat! (that part sucked) and then a lot of standing tonight. I keep thinking I should wear my pedometer, but the battery is dead and even though I remembered to get a new rechargeable batter at radio shack for our phone I couldn't remember that one. Oh well.
Food numbers:I would have been spot on if Burger King hadn't given me the fried sandwich instead of the grilled one. I didn't realize until I got home and since it was already 9pm, I just took off the mayo and half the bun and ate it. It wasn't even that good
1796 calories
68gfat
182g carbs (2 rolls and a couple of fries for starch (and probably the damn breading on the chicken!)
109g protein
Sleep: Took a sleeping pill last night, but kind of had a hangover in the morning. I slept well but I needed more. I stayed in bed an extra hour and went in a little late, but I don't think it helped much. I need to be sleeping now!
Water/sodium: Good on both, but a higher on sodium today. I hope it doesn't make me retain water, because I just got rid of a bunch. My hands and feet hurt this morning (probably due more to dehydration that too much sodium) and I don't want to go back there. I hate that feeling and it's even worse with this heat.
Probiotics/enzymes: Did pretty good today. 3x on the enzyme and probiotics. Enzymes are finally before or right at the beginning of meals. She can be taught!
Quality of Food: Good except dinner. Still drinking about a half to full protein shake a day, but it's usually take up for not eating enough during the day. I really need to learn to get more in earlier.
Emotionally: Ok here. I am still tired, but the better part of today flew by, which helped. Today was long and tomorrow is going to be longer, so I might be a grump by tomorrow evening. I really hope not, but long days with no down time in them get me that way. Thankfully it's only 2 nights in a row instead of 3, so there's a light at the end of the tunnel. I'm so tired of working late and it's not going to improve until the beginning of August.
So logging this is interesting, since I switched to a new stage today. I'm going to log the last couple of days of rest and then try to do the first day of mobility tomorrow. I did do my mobility work and my foam rolling and some stretching today, but not fish and no BCAA's. I forgot about the fish oil and I haven't gotten and BCAA's. I do have some in some protein powder I have but I haven't used it lately. I guess I will try that organic market again and see if they have some. I have no idea what I'm looking for. Any ideas/help is appreciated
Rest: Not so good. I didn't try to do anything extra but Tuesday night was rough. I had to work a lot and it was all standing and running around chasing Congressmembers and their staff. It was very stressful and I didn't get home until late. By the time I did I was a miserable b!tch I barely hit my calories because I couldn't get dinner and just ate snacks before and the big part of work. It was a crazy day. Then I was so wiped on Wed. I could barely see straight. I did take it easy, but I couldn't sleep last night - again. Insomnia is back with a vengeance and I haven't suffered with it in many years. Getting to sleep has been rough and now it's getting to be psychological. My calendar is wide open tomorrow, so hopefully I can take it easy.
Food numbers:Pretty much on target with the calories but the fat numbers continue to be a little too high. I find this odd, but some how I keep managing it. I guess it could be worse, it's usually only off by 5%
Sleep/Emotion: Like I said earlier, little of it and crappy at best. I really thought by this point in the program I would be past insomnia. I know I haven't been following perfectly with Pilates and eating lunch out (but being careful what I eat - grilled fish and veggies most days), but I would still hope to be more on an even keel than this. I feel like I'm getting worse, and it could be the sleep deprivation screwing my emotions - which I'm sure it is - but I'm at a loss as to why my body is freaking out so much. My weight is up and down left and right, my sleep patterns are screwed, my back has been killing me (better today after the mobility) and I'm just generally feeling crappier than I was before Eat. I hope this phase goes better, because I'm going to have serious troubles if it keeps getting worsee.
Water/sodium: Far better on both since the screw up. I think my body is finally recovering.
Probiotics/enzymes: Getting better. Almost always take them, just forget about the before part of the enzymes. I'm getting there
Quality of Food: Two meals and most snacks are pretty much one item foods. Most days, though, that other meal is no where close. It's been tough with work, but I do try.
Weight: 169.6 freaking salt I was guessing. Down today tho. Waist: 36ish
So, I'm not doing so hot today. It was very hard to get up this morning and when I did finally get up, I had stabbing pains in my stomach and felt miserable, so I emailed work I would be late and lied back down. I got back up again in a couple of hours and it was still difficult. The stomach pains are gone, but I feel gross. I feel huge and icky. I have a headache and the dizzys are back as well. My allergies have been pretty bad, so I guess it could be that.
Add to that, that right when I was about the leave the mail came and I got my bloodwork results. Apparently they tried to call me, but the phone number that they had (that they confirm with you and I checked on all my forms) was wrong and they had to send the paper copies out. Some thing was elevated and I have to come back so they can draw more blood and do more work ups. I'm going to google whatever it was when I get home, but needless to say I'm freaked out and even more unhappy. None of the numbers that were on the paper fell outside of the normal, so I don't understand what's wrong. I think part of is is that they didn't do my iron levels and such that they were supposed to do the first time. My guess is that they screwed up my blood work and now I have to get more drawn. Honestly, I hope that's all it is.
So, anyway, here's my info for yesterday. I didn't do so good with the food. I hoarded and then I was so stuffed I couldn't eat my calcuated no fat frozen yogurt that I needed to even out my fat/carb numbers. I also forgot about the fish oil (which I have) and the BCAA's (which I don't have). Needless to say, I don't feel like I got off on the right foot and now that I don't feel good, I'm very negative about this whole phase and even the program. I'm going to keep going, don't worry about that, but my motivation is way down, and I feel like I'm screwing everything up. Anyhow....
For yesterday: Mobility work/foam rolling/stretching: Did all three. Not sure how to do the hip crossovers and leg cradles "in 20 rep rounds", so I just held them for 20 secs each side and then I had a couple mins left so I did both of those again.
Food numbers:A bit of a mess as I said above. Came in way low.
1605 calories
65gfat
127g carbs (Chips and sub roll for starch)
124g protein
Sleep: 7ish hours, and not very good.
Water/sodium: Good.
Probiotics/enzymes: Pretty good, still have the same issues with the enzymes. I'm remembering closer and closer to the beginning of the meal.
Quality of Food: Pretty good for breakfast, snacks and lunch. Not sure that a quiznos sub is a "whole" food
Emotionally: I think that's all covered above. I've been depressed and grumpy for awhile now. I can't seem to kick it.
Ugh. I'm so sorry you're not feeling well. You sound miserable.
I HATE it when they tell you there's something wrong with your blood, but they don't tell you what! I immediately jump to disaster-level conclusions. Hopefully it's just that they missed the iron, like you said.
I hope you get some much needed rest this weekend. It sounds like they have been running you ragged at work and that you could really use a break. Hope you get some sleep and a break from the heat!
Also, I'm certainly not one to talk here, LOL, but you are totally not screwing everything up. The fish oil and BCAAs are extra credit anyway. The food is hard but you're doing the best you can. Hang in there!
I am super sorry you are having a rough time. I have felt this way before when something important is missing from my overall eating.
If you haven't done it already, I strongly recommend pming Leigh Peele. She is amazingly helpful and very adept at identifying mistakes we're making or making adjustments in our programs.
I'm really sorry you are feeling this way and hope it gets better soon!
Ah Jes... No great words of wisdom, but I can offer a cyber-hug. We all have tough days, especially when we're working hard and not seeing the instant "biggest loser" type results we wish were out there...
Ugh. I'm so sorry you're not feeling well. You sound miserable.
I HATE it when they tell you there's something wrong with your blood, but they don't tell you what! I immediately jump to disaster-level conclusions. Hopefully it's just that they missed the iron, like you said.
I hope you get some much needed rest this weekend. It sounds like they have been running you ragged at work and that you could really use a break. Hope you get some sleep and a break from the heat!
Also, I'm certainly not one to talk here, LOL, but you are totally not screwing everything up. The fish oil and BCAAs are extra credit anyway. The food is hard but you're doing the best you can. Hang in there!
(BTW - I got my BCAAs at GNC if that helps)
Thanks. I think the sleep does have a lot to do with it. This week was hard and I think my body just shut down. It used to do that a lot before I went on this program. I would wake up feeling like shit. Nothing specific, just miserable. That's how it was today, except I got some specific stomach pains. They came and went today, so who knows. I at crap today, so I doubt it will get much better. Hopefully some rest and recovery will help.
There's a GNC on base, and I'll probably stop by there tomorrow sometime, so I will try to grab a bottle. I remember you asking about how many people take - what did you work out?
Quote:
Originally Posted by mel
hi, just stopping by for the first time.
I am super sorry you are having a rough time. I have felt this way before when something important is missing from my overall eating.
If you haven't done it already, I strongly recommend pming Leigh Peele. She is amazingly helpful and very adept at identifying mistakes we're making or making adjustments in our programs.
I'm really sorry you are feeling this way and hope it gets better soon!
mel
Thanks for stopping in! I really appreciate it. I know exactly what is wrong with my eating right now and it's that I eat out all the time. I usually eat lunch out with the guys at work, but I can manage a pretty healthy lunch at most of the places we go. I know it's not perfect, but it worked for me the whole first couple of weeks, but then this week was hell and I had to work late a lot of nights and I was exhausted and not making any of my meals, which is terrible. I was trying to adjust to a new level of food and other stuff and trying to juggle work. I hope to just get myself together this weekend and figure out better steps to take because I have these late nights coming up a lot until the beginning of August, so I need to plan. I also need more variety in my eating. I'm getting bored and that's not good. If I clean up my diet over the next few days and don't feel good I will definitely be consulting Leigh. Thanks for the advice.
Quote:
Originally Posted by Bytsi
Ah Jes... No great words of wisdom, but I can offer a cyber-hug. We all have tough days, especially when we're working hard and not seeing the instant "biggest loser" type results we wish were out there...
Hang in there - it will get better.
Thanks, Bytsi, I really needed hugs today. I think there's a little pMS thrown in with everything else that's going wrong with me emotionally, so I know that's not helping. I got a lot of sleep today, but I need more. They say a night of not sleeping catches up with you two days later, so maybe a day of sleeping well takes awhile too.
Anyhow, I'm heading to sleep....again. I've got pilates tomorrow, which I'm counting for my mobility work and stretching, so I'll be taking it easy for the rest of the day. I'll log today tomorrow, as usual.
I'm a fellow crap-sleeper and. boy, can it ever make you feel like a steaming pile of dog crap. Bleh. Hopefully, that's all it is for you and you get some good rest soon!
I'm a fellow crap-sleeper and. boy, can it ever make you feel like a steaming pile of dog crap. Bleh. Hopefully, that's all it is for you and you get some good rest soon!
Thanks, I hope so too. Hubby and I were looking at new beds today. He hasn't been sleeping well (which is also keeping me up) and my back has been killing me. We're looking into foam beds - tempurpedic and the like. We just want to see the model we really want in the store, since it's a crap shoot otherwise. We like them, we're just not unanimous on a brand yet. Hopefully we can get to the store tomorrow and pick one, cuz it's getting pretty bad.
We LOOOOOVE our foam mattress. Used to have an extra-firm mattress, and I always had hip and back pain (I sleep on my side)... got the foam one and... aaaaaahhhh...
Only down side is the lack of motion - because when DH snores I used to just squirm a little and it'd wake him enough to roll over. Now I have to flop hard or actually kick him for him to feel it and stop (for a moment) snoring
We LOOOOOVE our foam mattress. Used to have an extra-firm mattress, and I always had hip and back pain (I sleep on my side)... got the foam one and... aaaaaahhhh...
Only down side is the lack of motion - because when DH snores I used to just squirm a little and it'd wake him enough to roll over. Now I have to flop hard or actually kick him for him to feel it and stop (for a moment) snoring
Good to know! We're going to look at some tomorrow and hopefully make a decision. This not sleeping thing is no good!
So Friday and Saturday were rough. I'm having a very tough time getting in all my calories. The weekends are the worst for me because I have a very erratic eating schedule and rarely eat lunch. I eat a biggish breakfast and then I'm done until dinner. I snack here and there, but nothing much. Trying to get all my calories in is rough, but I managed to do it with a big shake today.
Also, I did not do Pilates on Saturday. I woke up to go and my body was just screaming NOOOOO! I have only missed two classes before this in a year and a half, so that tells you how dedicated I am to this, so to skip a class was huge. I really really did not feel good. So I took myself back to bed and have slept a lot this weekend. I'm not feeling so hot right now, not sure what is up. I guess we'll see how I feel in the morning.
And, finally I checked on my bloodwork coding and it looks like they think I am anemic The thing that was elevated (32% when the top of normal is 14%) is apparently an indicator of anemia. So I have to go back and get all the iron panels they were supposed to do before. I'm going to do that tomorrow, because I know that it's very hard to get your iron up when it's down. This sucks because we were looking at trying to get preggers in August (now pushed back to October or so because I'm the MOH in a wedding at the end of May), which means I have to get my iron up by then. An anemic Mom causes a good chance of birth defects, so I don't even want to start trying until I get this worked out. Kind of sucks, but at least we know now.
Since I haven't posted all weekend, I'm just going to put today below. I want to start doing the 6pm-6pm counting thing, but I'm not sure how to make it work. I have to log the dinner I ate that day somewhere and I can't put it in a "tomorrow" time slot because you can't get to that on the daily plate. I have to ponder on this a little more. For now, it's regular.
Mobility work/foam rolling/stretching: Check. I did Mobility all three days and foam rolling on Thursday and last night.
Food numbers:A little off today, but still pretty good.
1842calories
55gfat
204g carbs (Auntie Anne's pretzel and waffle for starch)
127g protein
Sleep: 10 hours
Water/sodium: Sodium a little high, water pretty good.
Probiotics/enzymes/Fish oil: Did good with all of them today and yesterday. Missed fish oil on Friday. Finally remember enzyme before meal instead of during.
Quality of Food: Not too good today. Lots of processed stuff.
Emotionally: All over the freaking place in a negative way. I've been angry and upset, crying and pissy all weekend. I don't even know why outside of possible PMS. I've just been really touchy and unhappy. I think a lot of it is this bloodwork thing. I keep thinking that it's going to make big trouble for me, when I'm not even really sure yet, but at the same time I'm hoping that we've found what's wrong with me so it can get better. My back has also been hurting bad and then missing Pilates was not helpful because my back always feels good after class. I dunno, it's been a hard week with everything and eventhough I wanted to relax this weekend, it didn't seem to work out. Hopefully getting back to work (if I'm not icky tomorrow) will help me get back into a groove. I need to really start meal planning (which I was supposed to do this weekend!) so I can eat enough. When I go up for activity it's going to be hard. Argh! Sorry to be such a downer! I don't mean to drag everyone down in my heap. I hope everyone has lovely days!
Jes - if you're anemic, it could explain so much - and it's not hard to fix. I hope whatever it is, you get it figured out - just having an answer may help you to feel less anxious... keep us "posted" (pun slightly intended )
So, I have some great news! We got a new bed yesterday and it's coming tomorrow! I'm so very excited. We went to a store and they happened to have the exact model we had been looking at, so we tried it and loved it. We have 60 days to know for sure, so we'll see. My Mom was skeptical, but I slept on a waterbed for years, so I would dare say I'm not your average sleeper. Most people hate them and I loved it and never had a problem - not even a back problem. I am very hopeful that it will help my back, because it's been really awful lately and keeping me up, so fingers crossed!
Also, yesterday (monday) I woke up and felt like poo and generally had no reason to go to work, so I called in sick. It was awesome. DH was off too and we just had a restful day. I started tracking in the morning, and then I just decided to eat what I wanted to and take a break. I felt like I was creating undue stress on myself. I know that I ate a lot of carbs and fat, but a little mental math tells me that I didn't go over my calories. My macros just sucked. For the relief and renewal that I got from stepping away one day, it was totally worth it. I don't know that the food was all that great or that it would normally be worth it, it was just a coincedence that the day I let go was also a day we ate out a lot. It was probably better that way because I am now erring on the side of too low (sometimes far too low), so this way I got reasonably close to my number. I think the PMS finally let go of me as well.
Tomorrow I go to get my blood work redone and get them to fix my phone number so I can know in 10 days instead of 6 weeks what's going on here. I have to say, I will be livid if when the results come back that I have to make an appointment so she can give me a rx for iron, if that's what's wrong, because making an appointment is always quite a run around. Fingers crossed about that too
So I have my info for below about today as I didn't track yesterday. I did do my mobility work and take all my meds (except for lunch). Also went to check on BCAA's at GNC and the only bottle they had was $36! I was pretty surprised about that. I figured since it was extra credit and I already have some in my PP, that I would just pass this time. I sort of feel like the things I have been taking (enzymes and probiotics) are perhaps not working as intended. I don't feel like my digestion has improved, and perhaps has gotten worse. It's hard for me to say, because it could be the increased load on my system as the calories go up, or whatever is wrong with me. I had hoped by now to feel an improvement, but I feel like I was doing better before them. I know that I have a sensitive system, so perhaps I'm just not cut out for these or perhaps it will take longer for me to adjust. I am considering continuing to take them until I run out and then evaluate from there. Any thoughts from people that use one or both would be appreciated. This is new territory for me, so I'm just unsure. I also meant to get melatoning at GNC, but forgot. Now that we're getting a new bed, tho, maybe I won't need it!
Mobility work/foam rolling/stretching: Did not do today Got home from work and suddenly became overwhelmingly dizzy and ill. Figure it's not good to do a bunch of moving side to side when you don't feel good.
Food numbers:A little low today because of above ill feeling. Don't want to eat when you feel like puking!
1728 calories
73gfat
161g carbs (tortillas, dinner roll, banana for starch)
104g protein (ugh so low)
Sleep: 8ish hours - still never enough. Guessing it's the anemia (or whatever is wrong)
Water/sodium: Sodium way back down today. Water good.
Probiotics/enzymes/Fish oil: Took everything. Still forgetful on the enzymes. So close to being there, tho.
Quality of Food: Really pretty good today. I'd say I'm in the 80% range now.
Emotionally: A little frustrated with myself. I used to be a real complainer and I can get very negative (as you already know ). I felt like I had gotten past being the complainer and whatnot, and clearly that's not the case. It kind of came up today and everyone at work agreed. I felt pretty embarrassed. They don't mind, but I'm upset with myself for getting back to that and not even noticing. I notice when I type, but not when I say it. I dunno, I feel like I'm making conversation or whatever, and it's not coming across that way. I guess it's hard to tell when you're not looking at it. I also don't think feeling tired and miserable is helping very much. I just need to be more mindful of the complaining. I have a very big personality and it can go either way. I have been the center of light, happiness and general well being and I have been the miserable vortex that can suck the life out of you. I seem to not be able to find the middle ground. Clearly I'm slipping to the dark side, and I need to come back. It's another thing to focus on right now, which is hard, but complaining only makes me more miserable (I have noticed) because I get down about being down Such a silly cycle to get into. I guess this was a good wake up call and I can at least cut it back before I become some hateful biatch. I have been happy very recently and I just need to scramble my way back there as quick as I can and make it stick, for my good and for those around me.
/end rambling
Weight: 168.6 (I have no idea what is going on with my weight. I am all over the place. Just don't get it) Waist: 35.5 (the lowest I have been since I started with the myotape. Again, wtf? If anyone sees trends, let me know cuz I got nothing!)
Emotionally: A little frustrated with myself. I used to be a real complainer and I can get very negative (as you already know ). I felt like I had gotten past being the complainer and whatnot, and clearly that's not the case. It kind of came up today and everyone at work agreed. I felt pretty embarrassed. They don't mind, but I'm upset with myself for getting back to that and not even noticing. I notice when I type, but not when I say it. I dunno, I feel like I'm making conversation or whatever, and it's not coming across that way. I guess it's hard to tell when you're not looking at it. I also don't think feeling tired and miserable is helping very much. I just need to be more mindful of the complaining. I have a very big personality and it can go either way. I have been the center of light, happiness and general well being and I have been the miserable vortex that can suck the life out of you. I seem to not be able to find the middle ground. Clearly I'm slipping to the dark side, and I need to come back. It's another thing to focus on right now, which is hard, but complaining only makes me more miserable (I have noticed) because I get down about being down Such a silly cycle to get into. I guess this was a good wake up call and I can at least cut it back before I become some hateful biatch. I have been happy very recently and I just need to scramble my way back there as quick as I can and make it stick, for my good and for those around me.
Awesome on the bed - you'll love it. And also on the day off - we all need that break sometimes!
Emotional stuff... I am so similar to you (sorry - not meant to be an insult to you ). I can get very complain-y and not even realize it until someone hits me over the head. Like once being called in by my boss and asked if I'm unhappy in my job - and I wasn't and had NO idea I was coming across that way . To me it seems like everyone complains about stuff and bitches and moans... but somehow I guess I don't always manage to moderate it with times of being little miss sunshine (sorry Ginger!) too... I dunno - it's one of my many self-improvement projects.
I read a great article in Oprah (yeah, Oprah) a while ago about complaining. Basically, it said that complaining allows us to stay in otherwise intolerable situations - it's like a steam valve. When people were told to not say anything negative or complain for an entire week (or month or whatever), many found that without the outlet, they couldn't handle the bad stuff and were forced to make changes. So people quit crappy jobs and left bad relationships when they could no longer vent and release the pressure... hmmmmm...
It's 1:22 am and I should be fast asleep, but I'm not. I finally caved and took half a sleeping pill. I probably wouldn't have bothered except that I have Pilates in the morning and if I start on Friday with a screwy sleeping schedule, I'm likely to be messed up the rest of the weekend. I hope this pill kicks in soon, I want to be in bed!
freaking salt I was guessing. Down today tho.
I'm going to keep going, don't worry about that, but my motivation is way down, and I feel like I'm screwing everything up. Anyhow....
Got home from work and suddenly became overwhelmingly dizzy and ill. Figure it's not good to do a bunch of moving side to side when you don't feel good.
Linear Mode
