This is my info from yesterday since I never got a chance to log.
Rest: Good. A little busy and had some walking, but pretty restful overall.
Food numbers: Not so good. I went over about 90some calories and my macros were terrible. Not sure what happened, but at the end of the day I just lost track of my numbers, and had a shake and dessert. Oops!
1716 calories
63g fat
107g protein
Sleep: 8 hours
Water/sodium: Both good
Emotionally: Pretty good. I was very happy it was Friday and it was such a nice day.
So today was not the day I had planned. I went to Pilates class (which I have taken every Saturday for over a year) and I probably shouldn't have, but it's usually not that hard, either. Our teacher decided to kick our butts a little more than usual. Normally I feel like I've had a good workout, but it's more strengthening and stretching, but this was just plain hard. I tried to eat a little extra breakfast and I ate back those calories today that I worked off in class, but I hope I haven't ruined what I've been working on here. I will have class every Saturday after this, too, but at least by the next one, I'll be a few days into eat, and I expect my body won't react so badly from having been on low calories.
Rest: Ok. Clearly class was harder than I had been expecting, but I came home and tried to sleep and relax the rest of the day. I kept trying to take a nap, but it just wasn't working out. I'd drift off, have some weird ass dreams and wake up not feeling better. I finally gave up and got up.
Food numbers: Better than yesterday, but my carbs were a little high and the protein a little low. I did try to eat a bunch, but I'm not sure where I'm going wrong on the weekends. I need to look at the days I did well and try to sort find the differences. I suspect having 2 eggo waffles today may have had something to do with it!
1809 calories (minus the 182 I worked off in Pilates and you get 1627)
53g fat
142g protein
Sleep: 7.5 hours
Water/sodium: Water potentially a little low, sodium about 1g under as usual.
Emotionally: Ok. Frustrated with Pilates being so hard, and then being exhausted and not sleeping. Also in a lot of pain right now, I guess from diving into the shallow end of the workout that I shouldn't have done. I'm not sure, though, because I am really achey. I took 600mg of ibuprofen and I'm taking half a sleeping pill tonight. If I feel bad tomorrow, I will take another epsom bath and hope that helps. I'm just grumpy right now because the day did not go as planned at all, but hopefully I can get something done tomorrow!
Well... I guess you could consider it a draw - the pilates equalled-out the extra 90 kcals?
I'm sure your overall program isn't derailed -you're doing great!! Hope you're not as cranky today
Thanks, I'm doing better today after the sleeping pill knocking me out for a nice 6 hours of no weird dreams! Once I got up to let the dog out and crawled back in bed I had weird ones again. I guess I'm subconsciously food obsessed, because one of them was me eating half a package of pillsbury crescent rolls (with butter and honey, mmmm....) and then remembering that they are loaded with calories! It's so weird, because I haven't even been craving them, tho they are very tasty. I guess I just have a fear of screwing up my whole diet without realizing it, which is clearly what I was doing before this. So odd.
Anyhow, I feel the energy to get everything done today, even my pedicure but I better get moving!
Oh, and one exciting thing! I am currently wearing a pair of size 10 capri pants from the gap! I bought them over the winter, and when I tried on the 12s, they were a little too big, and I was doing the program, so I had hoped I would get into 10s soon so I bought them. Then I kept getting bigger and further from my goal. But today, I tried them on and they fit reasonably well. I have a little muffin top, but nothing a loose tee won't cure I'm actually going to leave the house in them, where before they were so tight I couldn't even sit down.
I hope I'm not stepping on Leigh's toes here, but the point of REPAIR is metabolism fixing, not weight loss.
Weight loss DOES happen, in small amounts for most people, but it is usually de-bloating and not necessarily fat. In fact it could be muscle (because of the stoppage of workouts).
Her program is supposed to repair the metabolism with very little if any weight GAIN, for those of us so mentally wacked that we can't just do a proper re-feed and gain weight while the process is underway. If your body image is bad enough that 5-10# of gain would put you on meds, then that's what REPAIR is for.
Afterward you can cut or do fat-loss in general or just train again.
But I wanted to rain on everyone's parade (mine too, as I'm fitting into pants better!) and remind us that we're here to get better, first and foremost.
Sorry for the early June reality check.
Andrea
__________________ "My yoga class had me trembling and sweating and I feel MUCH better." - Fang
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Again with the not having a chance to post last night. Hubby and I were busy making decisions about what siding to put on the house and wondering how long we'll live here and making all kinds of tentative decisions you can't necessarily control. Before I knew it, it was 11:30 and time for bed
The good thing was that before all that, I managed to clean a bag of cherries and divide them in to cup size portions, divide 3 days worth of blueberries (they're in the stores in pints now! I can't tell you how happy that makes me! I will be eating them non stop this summer, and when they're on sale I'll be freezing those babies!), and cut up a whole watermelon and weighed out a weeks worth of portions too. I'm very proud of getting that done because normally I just put that off and it doesn't get done and it makes me later for work or I just don't bring it and have to buy waaaay overpriced fruit from the store downstairs. So, my Sunday was pretty productive. Below are my notes on the day
Rest: Did some running around and errands, but nothing overly exhausting. Plus I sat in the pedicure chair for an eternity waiting for them to get to me (with my feet soaking), so talk about resting
Food numbers: Good. A little high on fat and low on protein, but I saved my calories up to go out to dinner and did pretty well. When I got home I wanted a carb/choco snack, but I knew my protein was low, so I had a shake. That was some self control!
1625 calories
58g fat
147g protein
Sleep: 9.5 hours
Water/sodium: Water a little low, sodium a little high. Definitely fixing that today (and sort of paying for it!)
Emotionally: Good. I wore some pants I never though I'd get into, so that made me happy. I got things done and I relaxed too. Usually Sundays are stressful for me because I'm trying to cram it all in, but yesterday worked out well. I felt pretty darn good.
I hope I'm not stepping on Leigh's toes here, but the point of REPAIR is metabolism fixing, not weight loss.
Weight loss DOES happen, in small amounts for most people, but it is usually de-bloating and not necessarily fat. In fact it could be muscle (because of the stoppage of workouts).
Her program is supposed to repair the metabolism with very little if any weight GAIN, for those of us so mentally wacked that we can't just do a proper re-feed and gain weight while the process is underway. If your body image is bad enough that 5-10# of gain would put you on meds, then that's what REPAIR is for.
Afterward you can cut or do fat-loss in general or just train again.
But I wanted to rain on everyone's parade (mine too, as I'm fitting into pants better!) and remind us that we're here to get better, first and foremost.
Sorry for the early June reality check.
Andrea
You're not raining on my parade, and I know that the goal is not weight loss, but when you have been stuck at a number and feeling miserable about it and in general, when the scale moves, for whatever reason, it's something to be celebrated. I don't care if it's water or fat or muscle at this point, to be honest, because I haven't gotten that number to move down in 4-5 months, so the fact that it did, is awesome. My goal with this program is to stop feeling like sh!t all the time, stop having miserable digestion, and to find maintenance (and move that number up, hopefully!) so that I can lose sensibly. All of those things are happening, and I'm ecstatic about it. The weight loss is just a bonus, because ultimately, if I hadn't been able to lose weight at 1629 calories a day, what would that say for how bad my metabolism had really gotten. At least I know now, that 1629 is below maintenance, it's a sustainable number, and I'm coming to terms with the fact that you can actually lose weight and not exercise, which is truly amazing to me. I had constantly put so much stress on myself to exercise that it was literally making me sick. Even if I didn't get in the exercise I still thought about it constantly and it haunted me all the time. Even when I worked out it was never enough, I was always thinking of when the next workout was. I've let a lot of that go, and am just reveling in the fact that I feel so much better and can lose weight without killing myself. That right there is so cool
Hey Jes - great job on the self-control having a shake for dessert - that's great! It's all the little victories - they really add up!
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I'm coming to terms with the fact that you can actually lose weight and not exercise, which is truly amazing to me. I had constantly put so much stress on myself to exercise that it was literally making me sick. Even if I didn't get in the exercise I still thought about it constantly and it haunted me all the time. Even when I worked out it was never enough, I was always thinking of when the next workout was. I've let a lot of that go, and am just reveling in the fact that I feel so much better and can lose weight without killing myself. That right there is so cool
You're making such great progress! I know how it is to always worry about the next workout, so it's encouraging to know that you can live without that mindset.
Hey Jes - great job on the self-control having a shake for dessert - that's great! It's all the little victories - they really add up!
You're making such great progress! I know how it is to always worry about the next workout, so it's encouraging to know that you can live without that mindset.
Thank you! I really appreciate yours and everyone's encouragement. It's really helping me through this.
Today was ok. I had some anxiety surrounding traffic and getting home, but overall it was fine. I did manage to find my enzymes and probiotics in the organic market by work and they were a good price - which is a miracle in that store. I also got a foam roller at target yesterday, so apart from the BCAAs I think I'm set to the end of the program
Rest: Did a little extra walking today. Roamed around trying to see clients to no avail. Then I came home and took the dog for a walk. Today was so nice I just couldn't pass it up. I walk so much anymore I barely notice when I do "extra". I guess that will be good from NEAT standpoint after this is over.
Food numbers: Just about perfect. I litte under protein, and over on carbs. Pretty much spot on macros for the next stage. At least my carbs are coming from fruits and not from white flours and such.
1630 calories
38g fat
146g protein
Sleep: 7 hours (and I am feeling it today!)
Water/sodium: Both good
Emotionally: Pretty good. Like I said, a little anxiety in there, but mostly ok. Glad that I was supposed to work late tomorrow night, but both of my appts. cancelled, so I'm free.
Weight: 168.6 Waist: 36 - not surprised. I think I was bloated from the sodium in the mexican food last night. I totally felt it today.
It looks like you're doing great, Jes. I'm with both you and Andrea about getting excited about loose pants, falling numbers, and having to check myself. I know I might put some weight on this next month, but it's worth it to get better. And proving to yourself that you can lose weight without exercise is HUGE. Before I would be terrified to miss a day, thinking I would immediately gain 5 pounds. To be free of that - there are no words. That knowledge right there is worth way more than $39.99!! hee hee
Yay on getting all the fruit ready!! I LOVE fruit. I am so excited about the farmer's market and all the Michigan cherries, blueberries, and peaches. Yay!
It looks like you're doing great, Jes. I'm with both you and Andrea about getting excited about loose pants, falling numbers, and having to check myself. I know I might put some weight on this next month, but it's worth it to get better. And proving to yourself that you can lose weight without exercise is HUGE. Before I would be terrified to miss a day, thinking I would immediately gain 5 pounds. To be free of that - there are no words. That knowledge right there is worth way more than $39.99!! hee hee
Yay on getting all the fruit ready!! I LOVE fruit. I am so excited about the farmer's market and all the Michigan cherries, blueberries, and peaches. Yay!
It is huge and it was totally worth it. It's the seemingly easy and little things in life that make it so much better
Oh and I love just about every fruit and vegetable out there. My husband says I have vegetarian teeth because they are completely flat. If you took all my teeth out and layed them on a table, you'd be hard pressed to tell which ones were the canines. Kinda' weird, really. Anyhow, summer makes me sooo happy in that regard. I love to garden and grow food. I've been munching on a daily harvest of sugar snap peas that I have growing out back. I get about a handful a day. It's awesome!
Anyone else just not a morning person? What gets you out of bed? What's your motivation? What tricks do you use?
I am sooo not a morning person and I have the hardest time getting up. I never get over it. I try to coax myself out with the thought of coffee, but even that doesn't get me up quickly. I got to figure it out, because I'm getting up later and later and it's just no good.
I think about if I get into the office earlier, then I get to leave earlier and enjoy the sunshine outside. I hate being cooped up all day.
__________________ It all starts with the mind, but the thoughts, the intention aren't enough. Action needs to come next. Dream it, believe it, plan it, execute it, celebrate it. - Wendy
I think about if I get into the office earlier, then I get to leave earlier and enjoy the sunshine outside. I hate being cooped up all day.
I wish my office worked that way. That was my motivation a couple of jobs ago when I was hourly. I used to get in as early as I could stand. We also lived right across the street from my work, so that made it easier
Now it's set hours, I just come in later and later, which I don't like, but everyone else is the same, so it's hard to change. I just don't want to keep getting worse! I got a parking pass today, so I think driving will help. It's actually cheaper and faster than the metro, so as long as I can stand some traffic on the way home I'm good. I think this will help get me in earlier, as well. I dunno' we'll see how it goes!
I SWEAR by my probiotics and enzymes!!! Little miracles, they are!
Yea! I'm so glad to hear that. I've been doing MUCH better with my digestion, but still having problems with red meat (which I have had most of my life). It would be cool if they would help with that, and then I would know if I took enzymes before a meal with red meat, that it would help with my digestion. If I could eat red meat without becoming a puffer fish, I would be ecstatic!
So I just rambled on and on in Bytsi's log. I hope it made sense!
I was going to log tonight, but I took a whole sleeping pill and it's kicking in, hence the ramble fest. Today was a negative 5 on the feeling good meter. I had a panic attack so bad at my desk that I had to get up and walk out. I took my wallet, left my work phone and didn't tell anyone where I was going. I don't know how long I was gone, a half hour, maybe. It was bad. I stayed for another hour or so, but went home early. I still haven't really calmed down. I played video games, took a bath and finally had to just take a sleeping pill and hope I feel better tomorrow. I don't think this is all just a normal attack. It's never lasted this long and it's coming and going in waves. I think some of it was asthma related too because when I can't breath my heart races and when your heart races, you usually breathe more. Add that to panicking and you can see where they all meet in the middle and you can't sort out which thing started first and what to work on. I just hope I reset overnight and don't wind up hung over from the sleeping pill. I guess we'll see.
Tomorrow is my last day of rest, so I will log today and then kind of do my summary. Everything has been good so far, so today just blew me out of the water because it came from no where. My first instinct was to exercise, but Leigh warned against that. One problem causing the other and getting into a vicious cycle, so I did what I could to calm down in other ways. Hasn't worked, but then again, I don't know that anything could. Hopefully a really good nights rest (haven't had one in awhile - staying up too late and then allergy attacks have been ruining the last two nights) and I will be back to happy me tomorrow. Hopefully.
Rest: Not good. Not enough sleep and lots of weird dreams. Had to get up and go to the bathroom a bunch, which is how I was before the program. Didn't make me very happy.
Food numbers: Very below. Once I started freaking out I didn't want to eat. I had to choke down some food last night or I wouldn't have eaten more than 1k calories.
1567 calories - probably less, but I didn't measure my watermelon last night. I was happy to even want it.
49g fat
103g protein
Sleep: 7 hours
Water/sodium: Both good
Emotionally: Terrible. See previous message. Better today, tho. Thank goodness.
Jes - so sorry that you had a bad day... I hope today is better and you are recovered... does your doctor have any suggestions?
Thanks. I do feel better today. I hated that doctor that gave me that anti-vert and I haven't heard a word on my blood tests, which probably means they were normal. It's the military, tho, they take forever on these kinds of things.
I didn't really feel like I had anxiety issues while I was there, and I was desperate to find another reason for the dizziness, but I think it's the anxiety. I don't fully understand what happened yesterday, but it is a rarity, unless it happens again in the near future, I'm going to let it lie. My emotions have been so much better with this program, that I think I'm well on the way to fixing it. Most drs. would be happy to get me some welbutrin or something and send me on my way, and I'm not interested. Even if they gave me something I wouldn't take it. I just don't do well with my chemicals being messed with and modern medicine generally doesn't deal with people like that well. If when I finish all this, I continue to have issues, I will certainly look into another way to manage it.
do you have any behavioral scripts/routines that you can use with the panic attacks - yoga sequences, relaxation tapes, tai chi- that sort of thing?
Nothing specific. Usually I can just distract myself with something. Like if I'm at work and I feel one coming on, I will play a game for a little bit and feel better. If it gets worse, then heading outside and going for a walk usually helps too. I do take deep breaths and try to remind myself that it will pass, no matter what situation I am in.
Yesterday it seemed like nothing helped, which is partly why I'm inclined to think that there were other things at work besides just general anxiety.
Have you considered learning some relaxation techniques (like LisaS suggested)? For panic attacks, if you don't want meds, they are quite helpful... you could probably learn them from an experienced therapist in just a few sessions...
Rest: There was a lot of this going on today. We had huge thunderstorms today, so I came home from work early and pretty much passed out. It was nice. I was generally lazy today, so I really got this rest thing worked out.
Food numbers:
1604 calories
37g fat
137g protein
Sleep: 8.5 hours
Water/sodium: Both good
Emotionally: I still felt a little weird this morning, but I felt better over the course of the day. I think some of it had to do with taking decongestants because my allergies were horrific. I took another one this morning and I think it made me feel worse. I think that combined with just having one of those days made me feel miserable. I feel good now and my allergies are good since the rain, so I think I will even out now.
Yea! I'm so glad to hear that. I've been doing MUCH better with my digestion, but still having problems with red meat (which I have had most of my life). It would be cool if they would help with that, and then I would know if I took enzymes before a meal with red meat, that it would help with my digestion. If I could eat red meat without becoming a puffer fish, I would be ecstatic!
What brand/formula of probiotics and enzymes are ya'll using?
I found a brand that looked good, was fairly expensive, but is NOT Udo's like Leigh recommended. Hmm....
__________________ "My yoga class had me trembling and sweating and I feel MUCH better." - Fang
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Again, I am hijacking this format from Marty. I think it's smart and it works, so why mess with perfection
Rest - in review:
Compliance:
I did pretty good, I'd say. I had one strenuous day with Pilates and one hard day in the yard, but otherwise I pretty much sat around, beyond my normal work walking. I've even started to drive - which sadly is cheaper than the metro! so I'm getting even less walking. I hope to get myself together and use the metro more later in the program, because I do miss the walking, and I dislike the evening traffic. It's hard to compete with cheaper and more time effective, tho.
Sleep: Most nights were pretty good. Had a couple of nights where I needed a sleeping pill, and I had some weird dreams, but I don't think that's different than before. I will say since I got the sodium/water thing under control (I think I was way over on both all the time), that I stopped getting up two and three times a night to go to the bathroom, so I've had much sounder sleep lately.
Water/sodium: More even on both overall.
Extra credit: Didn't get any massages, but I did take 2 epsom baths. I saw immediate results from those, but not lasting results, I'm afraid. The way my back was hurting, though, I was glad for the immediate part!
Results:
Weight went down several pounds, but stomach stayed mostly the same. Perhaps a little lower most days than beforel. My digestion is significantly better and so are my bathroom habits. I would say I'm much happier over all and less stressed about everything, all the time. I've had my moments, but there's clear improvement. I checked my temperature the other day, but it has not gone up. I was already at 97.9-98.1 most days, so I don't know how much better that's going to get. Considering I have had days that were 97.0, I guess I should be glad it's as high as that. Perhaps after increasing my food some more, I will get closer to "normal". Also it's hard to tell whether I've been warmer. I think I've been better, but it's been so freaking hot here, it's hard to say. Overall good progress, I'd say. Especially with the digestion. I can't discuss how much stomach/gas medicine that was I was taking before this, and I haven't even had a tums in at least a week and a half. I have really cut back on pain meds too, so I think everything is on the up and up!
Also, I got my myotape today and I think it's going to work well. I will use it tomorrow to take my measurements. Other than that, bring on Eat and another 163 calories! Woohoo!
Hi Jes! First, YAY for better digestion and a higher temperature. That's awesome! I am totally with you on the digestion - a week ago I realized I hadn't taken any Pepto Bismol in weeks. Kraziness!
What city do you live in (if you don't mind my asking)? I was trying to figure out which ones had a Metro.
I am feeling for you on those panic attacks. I wish I could help somehow. Hang in there.
Great work on Rest! And yay Eat! 163 more calories!! WOO HOO!
Have you considered learning some relaxation techniques (like LisaS suggested)? For panic attacks, if you don't want meds, they are quite helpful... you could probably learn them from an experienced therapist in just a few sessions...
Yeah, I should definitely look into what people recommend for anxiety. I try to go to a "happy place" and breath. I also try to rationalize the situation and think about why I'm flipping out. Either that or complete distraction usually works. Sometimes nothing helps, though, and I just have to wait for my body to deal what it's going through. Understanding that it's just a whacked out chemical thing that will pass also helps, because you realize that you're in no real danger and that nothing is going to happen if this light doesn't turn green RIGHT THIS SECOND!
It's also hard, because much like we lie to ourselves about how much food we're taking in, I have lied about having anxiety attacks. I have had them since college, and potentially before that, but I refused to accept that's what they are. I used to think that anxiety = crazy, so I never wanted to admit it. To admit it is to accept that you have to do something about it and since our society treats everything with a pill, I just didn't want to go there. Plus, I didn't really want anyone to know, because I didn't want to stand out like that. Everyone in my family is in medicine (except me, my Dad and my aunt. I mean everyone!) and as soon as you admit you have a disorder or something you get 15 prescriptions and 25 things you should do. I can't tell you how much medicine I was on when I was in high school. Instead of dealing with the stress of being in high school and learning how to cope with anxiety, I was on asthma meds and stomach meds. I think that's a lot of why I'm gun shy about offering up issues I have. I have no desire to go down that path. I hope that clears up why I might not seem as open to suggestions as I ought to be. It's not that I don't need them, it's just something I need to work on.
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What brand/formula of probiotics and enzymes are ya'll using?
I found a brand that looked good, was fairly expensive, but is NOT Udo's like Leigh recommended. Hmm....
I finally found the Udo's at the Yes! Organic market by my work. There are sooo many brands out there, but I can't recommend any of them, since I've never used them. Miss Jane said that the PB8 brand of probiotics was good, which is what I was going to buy, but I found Udo's in both and just went with it. All Leigh says is don't skimp on it, so I figure if it's around $17-$20 for 60 caps, that's about right. HTH!
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Hi Jes! First, YAY for better digestion and a higher temperature. That's awesome! I am totally with you on the digestion - a week ago I realized I hadn't taken any Pepto Bismol in weeks. Kraziness!
What city do you live in (if you don't mind my asking)? I was trying to figure out which ones had a Metro.
I am feeling for you on those panic attacks. I wish I could help somehow. Hang in there.
Great work on Rest! And yay Eat! 163 more calories!! WOO HOO!
I live on the edge of DC on the MD side. I work downtown and we live near one of the metros. I still have to drive and park to ride the metro, which is partly what makes it so expensive. Now that I have free parking down town, it's hard to pass that up!
I kind of blew out yesterday with what I should be eating. I think I thought "I can eat more now" and went a little nuts. I logged everything and I didn't go over - but it was all eaten out, so you never really know. I def ate too much sodium cuz I'm crazy bloated today, but Leigh also said that with the Probiotics and Enzymes things could get worse before they get better. Now I'm not sure who's the culprit since I started yesterday. Likely a combo, I guess. I am trying to suck down water today to make up for the imbalance. It's hard to keep a good balance with this weather, tho. Man it is just hot and muggy outside and Sunday's forecast is 97 degrees. Yikes!
I use PB8, as Jes said, and it works great. And, it's inexpensive. I should get a kickback from the company for all the people I have taking this stuff! My poor mom was in miserable shape with her whole digestive process and BINGO! she's now perfect.
Here's one place to get it.....google PB8 and you may even find it cheaper. I just always look for the best sale when I stock up.
I use PB8, as Jes said, and it works great. And, it's inexpensive. I should get a kickback from the company for all the people I have taking this stuff! My poor mom was in miserable shape with her whole digestive process and BINGO! she's now perfect.
Here's one place to get it.....google PB8 and you may even find it cheaper. I just always look for the best sale when I stock up.
Do you just use probiotics or do you use enzymes as well? How are you taking them (before every meal or 2x a day?). I'm curious because the udo's says UP TO 3 times a day, but I stared with 2x a day. I'm not sure if I should just go to 3x or not.
If your body image is bad enough that 5-10# of gain would put you on meds, then that's what REPAIR is for.
It was bad. I stayed for another hour or so, but went home early. I still haven't really calmed down. 
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