The idea started on Bytsi's log, and continued with a blog post I read somewhere else. I took these for fun - not sure if I'll do more or not. It was interesting though. And for the record, everything made it back to where it came from (ie. I did not eat the candy or chips).
The cheese blend is the amount I measured out to use with dinner. The soy nuts I was just refilling the container. I left the fun one for last.
The first one is some kind of peach sour candy. I think it's often sold under the name fuzzy peach. It came from the local grocery in a container marked candy. It came from my mother's candy stash (yes, I know where it is). It just happened to be the only one that had a visible calorie count. The others were probably worse, but the packaging was away. The chips are also hers. She has perhaps double that amount on Fridays with her hamburger. Poor dear, she's down two pounds from last week. I restrained myself from smacking her.
The tootsie roll calories was for the individually wrapped ones, I think called midgees or something like that. I did see the minis, but wasn't sure which you had there. I think the real problem isn't the calorie count for small amounts. For me it would be the inability to stop at 100 calories worth. I do sometimes have tostidos with my chili, and I make a point to weigh them out. Funny, but I discovered that I really do like the multigrain ones the best.
Staying away from the open bag was a good choice. I really do believe that you should try and work some of what you like into your meals, however, when dealing with hunger picking the better choices (bulk) may help. Personally I find that the protein levels in food help as well. There isn't a huge difference in an ounce of soy nuts vs. an ounce of chips (134 vs. 153), however, the soy nuts have 10g of protein vs. the chips having 2g. I think that's why I can take an ounce of the nuts in the afternoon and I'm not simply looking for more in a short period of time.
Thanks for the portion pictures! They really do make you think. Don't they?
BTW.......Your pasta and green bean dish looks delicious!!!
Yes, it really does make you think. For me at the moment I'm not struggling with keeping the calories lower. However, I'm sure that the time will come. I deal with the hunger a little, but less that you would think.
The pasta with the green beans was a great lunch. I had originally thought to make it a dinner dish, but I do think it needs more protein. It's fine for lunch though. Tomorrow I'll go back to my mixed veggies, which I also like. They just take a little more preparation time. I could really eat the green beans every day, but I suspect I would get sick of them eventually.
I am so tired tonight. I don't think it has much to do with food and/or exercise. I think it's just sleep I need. For whatever reason I just haven't been sleeping well the last few days. It's not big deal, but I think it is starting to affect me a little. I suspect the cold/rainy weather today didn't help either. I'm hoping to get more sleep tonight. If I don't do so then I'll likely turn my alarm off on Thursday morning and see if I can sleep in.
From the HRM:
Exercise
Time
Cals
Max HR
Avg HR
Max %
Avg %
Treadmill
0:30:00
294
156
134
88
75
Treadmill
0:30:00
324
166
142
93
80
Totals
1:00:00
618
Food for the day:
Total: 2408 (29% fat, 33% carbs, 35% protein)
Breakfast: cracked wheat oatmeal bread, peanut butter, jam, grapefruit (330)
AM Snack: almonds, protein shake (344)
Lunch: spicy sausage sauce with pasta and parmesan, roasted green beans, apple (532)
PM Snack: protein shake, soy nuts (314)
Dinner: baked chicken with tomato/wine sauce with cheese, broccoli, butter, salad w/dressing (528)
Late Snack: fruit salad, biscotti, protein shake (360)
I warmed up with a 15-min walk on the treadmill. Then I did:
A: Wide-grip Deadlift from Box - 60t/10, 65t/10 B1: Bulgarian Split Squat - 15t/10, 20t/10 B2: Underhand-grip Lat Pulldown (Pullover) - 27.5e/10, 27.5e/10 C1: Reverse Lunge from Box with Forward Reach - 10e/10, 20e/10 C2: Dumbbell Prone Cuban Snatch - 10e/10, 10e/10 D1: Swiss Ball Crunch (Long-arm) - 10, 10 D2: Reverse Crunch - 10, 10 D3: Lateral Flexion (Hannah side 1) - 10, 10 E: Prone Cobra - 90sec, 90sec
And then I did the HIIT. Finished up with a slightly longer recovery to end the session at 70mins.
HRM: 568cals, Max: 170 (96%), Avg: 124 (70%)
I feel like this wasn't really a good workout. From the calories/heart rate I suppose it was okay, but I felt most definitely not strong. I suspect this was from getting sidetracked away from my last two scheduled workout. It's been a full week since I did the A3 workout. Although the deadlifts were fine (ie. I could increase) there were lots of areas I either didn't increase the weight, or didn't feel I was doing them well. The pullovers (always my weakest) were especially bad. I had planned 27.5 & 30 lbs for the dumbbells, but couldn't get them up to the starting position for the first set. I ended up doing them one arm at a time... as I needed both hands to get the dumbbell to where it needed to be. So the improvement for the second set was that I could actually get the dumbbell up without help.
I definitely feel like crap today. I know that most of it is that my sleep patterns are disrupted this week. I'm not the best sleeper in the world, but where I usually manage 7 good hours minimum I'm not even sure I've hit it as a maximum since Sunday. And the weather outside truly sucks again. It's cold, dull, and miserable out... and will be again tomorrow (so my plans on working outside are shot). I really kind of feel like a nap, but usually when I'm not sleeping well I try and avoid it, since it can potentially make it worse. Since I have no enthusiasm for doing anything else I will probably rest and watch TV though for a little while.... or nap.
So I didn't veg out for the rest of the afternoon. Looking at the forecast for tomorrow I decided to go outside and finish up the planting. That's everything in that's going in (until later when I have to split up and move some daffodils). From the looks of it tomorrow is going to be a rain all day kind of day, with Friday getting quite hot. So tomorrow I can do some cleaning in the crawlspace and maybe some baking. What I am going to do though is try and get to bed earlier than I've been going lately. I suspect I just need a little more sleep that I've been getting this week.
Food for the day:
Total: 2404 (28% fat, 39% carbs, 32% protein)
Breakfast: egg/egg white omelet with cheese, cracked wheat oatmeal bread, grapefruit (388)
AM Snack: fruit salad, protein shake (283)
Lunch: turkey meatloaf with salsa, roasted veggies, apple (418)
PM Snack: protein shake, soy nuts (269)
Dinner: chili with cheese, multi-grain tostidos, salad w/dressing (782)
Late Snack: fruit salad, protein shake (265)
Well, I did manage to get a decent night's sleep last night so the plan is to try it again today. I still feel a little draggy, but I'm beginning to think it's my state of mind and not my body. I'll get into it more later if I can't shake it.
Food for the day:
Total: 2148 (26% fat, 28% carbs, 42% protein)
Breakfast: cracked wheat oatmeal bread, peanut butter, grapefruit (233)
AM Snack: almonds, protein shake (344)
Lunch: eye of round roast, roasted veggies, apple (436)
PM Snack: protein shake, soy nuts (314)
Dinner: pork souvlaki, broccoli, snow peas, butter, salad w/dressing (494)
Late Snack: fruit salad, protein shake (328)
Hi, Anne! My A4 workout felt the same way. I just felt deflated about it and like I wasn't really pushing as much as I could but physically I was doing all I was up for. Hope that ramble makes sense. I did make a PR on the squats, though. Still can do the Front Squat Push Press due to the shoulder, but I'm hanging in there. I can't believe we're getting ready to start Stage 3!!
I followed with making up the workout to 60 mins with a short walk on the treadmill.
HRM: 598 cals, Max: 158 (89%), Avg: 132 (73%)
Wasn't feeling 100% on this. I have to say that I truly love the front squat/push press, even though I felt like I was not going to make those last few reps. My balance is still crappy on the one point row and the lunge, but the weight I'm using doesn't really seem to affect it. The planks are just sad, no matter how I look at them. I have one more stage 2 workout then on to stage 3. I'm not really sure how I feel about this since I think the bodyweight matrix is going to be impossible for me. Don't get me wrong, I'm going to try it, but the only time I've tried it (in the pool) I could barely manage the jumps. On the last two workouts I've tried a few of the lunge jumps, just for fun, and I'm not sure that my knees will take it. Oh well, I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.
Now, on to the general feelings of lassitude I've had lately. I keep looking for a better word, but it really does fit. I don't think it's food related (ie. I don't think eating more is the solution). I think it has more to do with the weight loss journey in general. I've recently found my food/weight loss logs from the first time I hit 300 pounds. And they're a little depressing. A quick summary:
It starts with a return from a vacation (16-day cruise, + 5 days on land) in which I actually maintained my weight.
March 7th was when I started an exercise program. Although it took some time to work up to it within a few weeks it was an hour of intense (for me) cardio 5 days a week (office gym). I also had a job where I could be (and was) on my feet most of the day. Looking at it dispassionately I see someone whose weight loss had slowed and just kept cutting calories. Having said that I use the term approximately since I see some days with no logging. This probably means my eating was out of control and I chose not to log it.
That's what I've promised myself not to do this time. I've had two bad days since December and I logged the slips meticulously. I think I'm afraid of something that hasn't happened yet. How stupid is that? Tomorrow will be (by the calendar) 6 months since I started back to losing weight and I'm depressed by the fact that I hit 300 even this morning on the scale. I'm down 58.2 pounds in that time but I keep feeling it should be better, or that I should be more fit, or something.
I know I'll get past it, and I will keep going, but damn, I feel like crap today. I'm feeling very sorry for myself, and that's something I don't usually do. Or at least it's not something I admit to.
I think I go read some logs and then go outside into the almost unbearable heat (wasn't I bitching about the cold a day or so ago) and try ripping apart the barbecue I've been avoiding for pretty much a year. Sadly I think I've let it get past the point of no return - last night I believe one of the knobs caught on fire and melted. I missed it, but it's gone and there are definite flame signs. The sad part is that I have some of the parts to repair it, so I should at least see what I can do and then see what other parts I'll need to order.
Hi, Anne! My A4 workout felt the same way. I just felt deflated about it and like I wasn't really pushing as much as I could but physically I was doing all I was up for. Hope that ramble makes sense. I did make a PR on the squats, though. Still can do the Front Squat Push Press due to the shoulder, but I'm hanging in there. I can't believe we're getting ready to start Stage 3!!
I still have great misgivings on the bodyweight matrix, but we'll see. I'll be doing the last B workout on Monday. Since I spread this stage out so much I'm going into Stage 3 on Wednesday next week. I'll wish you luck and you can wish me luck!
Feel free to take the next hour to feel utterly and completely sorry for yourself. Revel in it. Journal about it. Shout about it if you want - cry if you want.
But just for the one hour.
or not. just something that works for me sometimes.
I think you are the most organized, faithful, disciplined and steady person! You are doing SOOOO well. You have losses nearly every week and your weight just keeps going down. Your food prep and tracking is second-to-none. The graph you posted several weeks ago was great!
I tell ya, you are underestimating yourself. I admire your fortitude and I KNOW you will succeed.
Feel free to take the next hour to feel utterly and completely sorry for yourself. Revel in it. Journal about it. Shout about it if you want - cry if you want.
But just for the one hour.
or not. just something that works for me sometimes.
A good idea really. I'm still feeling a bit sorry for myself, but now I'm just pissed at the damn barbecue. I decided that I needed three more parts, so I suspect I won't be able to even order them until Monday. So now it sits in pieces on the side patio.
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I think you are the most organized, faithful, disciplined and steady person! You are doing SOOOO well. You have losses nearly every week and your weight just keeps going down. Your food prep and tracking is second-to-none. The graph you posted several weeks ago was great!
I tell ya, you are underestimating yourself. I admire your fortitude and I KNOW you will succeed.
I think the problem here is that I've been here before. Looking back, not as well organized, and perhaps not as dedicated on the food side. I know I'm in a better place, but I see others doing so much better at it (on the losses per week side) and it depresses me. I think I'm going to distance myself from the diet boards/forums for a little while. I see others losing 3, 4, and even 5 pounds a week and I wonder why that can't be me.
My trip to the hospital last time tells me why it can't be me. However, I can't help but want it faster. I'm going to try taking progress pictures again on the weekend, but sometimes they just send me into just as much of a funk.
58 pounds in 6 months? That's 10 pounds a month! Wow!! That's 1/6th of your body weight!! 1/6th!!! And that doesn't even account for the muscle you've added... You're doing great, Anne!
YOWZA....that looks REALLY good! I had sworn off pasta...one of my favorite foods in the world...we may have to try that one tho...
I also wanted to stop by and say what a great job you're doing! I think we are around the same weight you're probably lighter ...but 58 lbs in 6 months is a huge inspiration. It takes so much dedication to get there! I only hope I have what it takes to do what you are doing...
58 pounds in 6 months? That's 10 pounds a month! Wow!! That's 1/6th of your body weight!! 1/6th!!! And that doesn't even account for the muscle you've added... You're doing great, Anne!
Anne:
You are doing very well indeed. When I started this process a year and half ago, I lost an additional 15 lbs while changin my body composition complete. Unfortunately I gained the lbs back again. I'm now to the point that I'm losing again.
But when I've been really down on myself, I try to focus on the successes I've had. I try to remember that in the last 4 years I've lost and kept off 45 for sure and I would suspect that the number might be closer to 55-60 lbs. That's something that most people haven't done. I try to remember that I'm fitter now than when I started this journey. I try to remember that I make better choice now than I did in the past.
Weight lose isn't easy. It messes with your head and it means changing a lot of habits that you may have had for a very long time. But you are doing VERY well. You are tracking what you need to track. You are making lifestyle changes that are permanent. You are fitter than you used to be. You are stronger than you used to be. YOU ARE DOING VERY WELL!
__________________ It all starts with the mind, but the thoughts, the intention aren't enough. Action needs to come next. Dream it, believe it, plan it, execute it, celebrate it. - Wendy
Hi! Just stopped by your log after seeing you post in Sidonia's log. How did I miss your log before? Seems like so many people started logging at the same time earlier this year and I just got overwhelmed with all the new folks.
You are doing so well! You dedication is admirable. I will definitley stop by more often.
I wanted to tell you your food strategies have been a big inspiration to me. I love to cook and bake and you make it clear that it's possible to love these things and still lose weight.
From what I know about your journey, it seems you have learned so much since your first try that is going to make this one much more stable. Plus, right now you're not working so you don't have the stress of a job you're unhappy in like before. From reading your log I just don't see how you could not succeed.
58 pounds in 6 months? That's 10 pounds a month! Wow!! That's 1/6th of your body weight!! 1/6th!!! And that doesn't even account for the muscle you've added... You're doing great, Anne!
You know Anne I totally get your frustration RE the losing it slow thing. I know that you don't believe that because I do not have that much to lose but I can assure you that it KILLS me.... no FREAK'N KILLS me that I can't just drop this weight and be done with it. But I too have been that route where I just drop indiscriminantly and it has done nothing good for me. So for me the slow route is the way to go....
58 pounds in 6 months? That's 10 pounds a month! Wow!! That's 1/6th of your body weight!! 1/6th!!! And that doesn't even account for the muscle you've added... You're doing great, Anne!
Thanks. I do think the issue is that I just hate my body shape at the moment. It may be smaller than it was 6 months ago, but it's still basically the same shape. I look at comparison photos that are now 69 pounds apart (369 was the highest I took them) and I have a hard time convincing myself of changes. Tonight though I picked a point on the door frame, marked it, and zoomed in to that point. This should give me a reference to refocus on for future pictures. It might help me be more objective. Maybe.
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YOWZA....that looks REALLY good! I had sworn off pasta...one of my favorite foods in the world...we may have to try that one tho...
The one thing I've discovered is that I don't need a huge plate of pasta to enjoy it. That picture was less than a cup of sauce with 1.5oz of dry pasta. When I put it together with a big serving of roasted green beans I don't really care that it's not a big plate of pasta. Just that small amount is fine. A big serving of pasta is now 3oz dry (which every now and then I have for dinner).
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Originally Posted by SpacecityPaula
You are doing very well indeed. When I started this process a year and half ago, I lost an additional 15 lbs while changin my body composition complete. Unfortunately I gained the lbs back again. I'm now to the point that I'm losing again.
I think I wouldn't be so bad except for the fact that I have lost it before, and I didn't keep it off. Okay, I caught it before I'd gained it all back, but it's depressing that it didn't take all that long. I know I'm doing it with better methods this time, but there's always the little voice that niggles away at you.
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Originally Posted by L'ilJ
Hi! Just stopped by your log after seeing you post in Sidonia's log. How did I miss your log before? Seems like so many people started logging at the same time earlier this year and I just got overwhelmed with all the new folks.
I lurk in a lot of logs, but am an infrequent poster myself at times. I've been following yours for a while. Thanks for dropping by. Too bad it was on a meltdown day!
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Originally Posted by LWilson212
I wanted to tell you your food strategies have been a big inspiration to me. I love to cook and bake and you make it clear that it's possible to love these things and still lose weight.
I'm hoping that's true. And you're right, going back to a job I was unhappy in was definitely a good step.
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And that's exactly what I was going to write.
Same comment to you that I made before - sorry you dropped in on a meltdown day. I usually do keep them to a minimum.
Okay, off to do a new post to finish up the day with the food. The good thing is that none of the feelings today drove me to the fridge or cupboard. I do thank you all again for your comments. I think it will be a while before I truly drive the feelings of inadequacy completely away. I'm taking a break from the diet board I've been hanging out on. I think it's making me worse at times. Not because of the women there, but on how I react to seeing some of the posts. I will be keeping my blog up there (it's often a rehash of what I post here). The logging here will definitely continue.
You know Anne I totally get your frustration RE the losing it slow thing. I know that you don't believe that because I do not have that much to lose but I can assure you that it KILLS me.... no FREAK'N KILLS me that I can't just drop this weight and be done with it. But I too have been that route where I just drop indiscriminantly and it has done nothing good for me. So for me the slow route is the way to go....
I know, I know, I know. At least I'm not hungry as I hear you were today....
Ack... it's after 11 and I haven't planned my menu for tomorrow. I'll have to figure that out once I'm done here. I'm thinking curried chicken only because the thighs are freezing on a tray in the kitchen fridge (forgot to bag them up today). I can just go grab what I need and not have to go out to the garage. Tomorrow is a no alarm morning (yay)!
Food for the day:
Total: 2415 (24% fat, 42% carbs, 32% protein)
Breakfast: egg/egg white omelet with cheese, cracked wheat oatmeal bread, grapefruit (445)
AM Snack: fruit salad, protein shake (283)
Lunch: whole wheat tortilla, smoked turkey, mustard, cheese, roasted veggies, apple (414)
PM Snack: protein shake (135)
Dinner: turkey italian sausage(2), rolls(2), mustard, ketchup, salad w/dressing (732)
Late Snack: fruit salad, biscotti, protein shake (360)
Thanks. I do think the issue is that I just hate my body shape at the moment. It may be smaller than it was 6 months ago, but it's still basically the same shape. I look at comparison photos that are now 69 pounds apart (369 was the highest I took them) and I have a hard time convincing myself of changes. Tonight though I picked a point on the door frame, marked it, and zoomed in to that point. This should give me a reference to refocus on for future pictures. It might help me be more objective. Maybe.
Okay now here is where you will see that we ALL feel the same way. We also ALL seem to have a problem being objective about our own pictures. I post my monthly challenge pics and think that I got nothing when others see these changes. Once they point them out I can see them too. It is sort of like proof reading your own paper. You just can't do it with ease for some reason.
The thing that really impresses me about this challenge is the rate at which we are all making changes. If you look at the group of woman who are left and their before and after pics you do not see these gigantic changes like you see advertised on all the diet boards. Not one of us has made it down to the ript abz goal yet. No.... you look at before and then at after and you will see these very subtle but significant changes in all of us. Going through this challenge as really helped me to see what is realistic in body comp goals.
Just wanted to pop in and say hi and how impressed I've been with the changes you've made in your life. (Like you, I read a lot of logs but don't always post and have been reading your log for awhile ) I'm glad you made it through your meltdown day. We all have them!
I love no alarm mornings! I hope you enjoyed sleeping in today.
Okay now here is where you will see that we ALL feel the same way. We also ALL seem to have a problem being objective about our own pictures. I post my monthly challenge pics and think that I got nothing when others see these changes. Once they point them out I can see them too. It is sort of like proof reading your own paper. You just can't do it with ease for some reason.
I do know this. And I will try joining the new challenge in August. I'm just trying the same perspective pictures for my own issues. I do notice that it's easiest to compare even challenge photos when people are in the same outfits, same size pics, etc.
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Hi Anne!
Just wanted to pop in and say hi and how impressed I've been with the changes you've made in your life. (Like you, I read a lot of logs but don't always post and have been reading your log for awhile ) I'm glad you made it through your meltdown day. We all have them!
I love no alarm mornings! I hope you enjoyed sleeping in today.
Hello there. I'm a constant lurker (your log is one of them as well), but infrequent poster. It is something I work on, but I think it will take a while. And yes, I did enjoy my no alarm morning, until the cat decided that it was time I got out and let him go outside. I got up, but did not let him out. They are indoors cats and only go out into the backyard with someone.
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I started to do my walking outdoors later in the morning, but it was way too hot. After 20 mins I decided to call it a wash and did another 20 mins inside. I still owe myself another 20 so I'm going to do them in the pool. The silly cats went outside with me this morning but the one seems to overheat too easily. I called for him (usually I have to chase him in) and he came panting to the door. The little one had found a nice shady spot on the tile (likely still cool) and was harder to convince that he should come in.
I got a bit of a wake-up call on how the heat does affect me. The first walk was okay, but I knew I wasn't going to make 30 mins (which I do on the treadmill). Twenty minutes later (inside) my heart rate was still pushing 100. Just under 60 is my normal resting rate. I did 20 mins again on the treadmill, which would normally not be a push, but it was, so I stopped. Originally I was going to do 40 mins. I did a couple of things inside and then thought I should check some of the plants outside. I'd left the HRM on and just glanced at it while I was watering (perhaps 20 mins, maybe a bit more). This was just filling the watering can (7 litres), walking around and watering, nothing much. The only difference from how I usually do it is that I didn't sit down to fill the can. My heart rate never went below 100 after the first five minutes, and was up over 130 when I finished. So I guess the heat affects me more than I think. It's not that hot out. Current temp is 28C (feels like 35C according to the weather network). Oops - 28C = ~82F, 35C = 95F. Okay, maybe it is that hot out.
And then I came in and made a hot lunch. Silly girl. Doesn't matter though, it was good, and the house has AC. Now I must go and change into a swimsuit so I can finish up my cardio for the day.
Just really adding the HRM info and my food for the rest of the day. The swimming in the afternoon was nice, especially after I finished up my 20 mins and could just mess around. I kept an eye on the cats, but one of them had already decided to go inside on his own. The little one looked a little peeved, but I put him inside as well. Too hot for cats (and people) I think. The morning snack and lunch ended up being eaten almost at the same time. I was putting the water on for the pasta and realized that I was really quite hungry... then realized that was because I'd not eaten my snack. So I did, and held off lunch for a short time. A really short time, since the hunger had taken hold of my better reason.
HRM info:
Exercise
Time
Cals
Max HR
Avg HR
Max %
Avg %
Walking Outside
0:20:00
195
148
141
83
79
Treadmill
0:20:00
207
156
146
88
82
Swimming
0:20:00
174
144
132
81
74
Totals
1:00:00
576
Food for the day:
Total: 2381 (26% fat, 38% carbs, 34% protein)
Breakfast: egg white omelet, chocolate pecan bread, jam, grapefruit (298)
AM Snack: almonds, protein shake (299)
Lunch: turkey sausage sauce with pasta, roasted veggies, apple (534)
PM Snack: red pepper hummus, veggies, protein shake, soy nuts (417)
Dinner: boneless chicken thighs with curry sauce over snow peas, salad w/dressing (473)
Late Snack: fruit salad, biscotti, protein shake (360)
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