Never 2 Late 2 Chase the Dream (it's better than liposuction)

[nutbar]

Hey, congrats on fixing your squat! That's cool!

[kfisherx]

Originally Posted by marthand99

Good luck with your cut! I can't wait to see your final pics.

LOL!! Your avitar reminds me of this saying I see on my friend's wall.

"Sometimes a cigar really is just a cigar"

Today I did a nice little 10 min mile run for 60 minutes. It is so nice to have some longer cardio back in my life. It is such a stress release for me. There is this awesome little paved trail next to my work. It goes through a wooded wetlands area and in that area the trail turns to boardwalk. It is wide enough for 2 people to walk side by side. I love running on that as you can hear your feet hit the boards and the boards have a nice give or spring to them.

Today I am running and listening to my feet when I hear this faint buzzing sound. It sounded a bit like a downed power line buzzing away. I became alert and the sound got louder and louder until the buzzing was so loud that I could literally feel it under my feet. I stopped and looked around for the powerline. It was then I realized that the buzzing noise came from the wings of bees. Lots and lots and lots of bees. I have never been amongst so many of them. I took off a hell'n but then stopped and walked back a bit to assess the situation. At the top of this tree I could see a swarm so there must have been a honeycomb up there somewhere. It was actually pretty cool.

I then did the rest of my run with very little else happening. At one point there was a low flying duck (maybe 5 feet above my head) flying along with me for about 30 feet. That was pretty funny and I got to really see how funny ducks look when flying. They are almost fat for birds. I always enjoy the wildlife on my runs and today I was blessed to have this awesome experience without even one sting to remind me of it.

[kfisherx]

Originally Posted by nutbar

Hey, congrats on fixing your squat! That's cool!

Thanks Diane. I am looking forward to my squat workout on Tuesday to see if I can get some more weight on me now that I have the bug worked out. How is yours coming along btw?

[LisaC]

Hi Karla-

I'm looking forward to squat night next week. I may or may not work out, depending on what time I can show up at the gym.

I'm getting back on the wagon after an extended break...

[nutbar]

Originally Posted by kfisherx

Thanks Diane. I am looking forward to my squat workout on Tuesday to see if I can get some more weight on me now that I have the bug worked out. How is yours coming along btw?

Meh. It's coming along slowly but surely with improvements every day. Well, every other day anyway. LOL

[kfisherx]

Originally Posted by LisaC

Hi Karla-

I'm looking forward to squat night next week. I may or may not work out, depending on what time I can show up at the gym.

I'm getting back on the wagon after an extended break...

Well if you can't get there until later we can back it up an hour or so. Let me know when you do. I am looking forward to it!

[Bytsi]

Originally Posted by kfisherx

Today I am running and listening to my feet when I hear this faint buzzing sound. It sounded a bit like a downed power line buzzing away. I became alert and the sound got louder and louder until the buzzing was so loud that I could literally feel it under my feet. I stopped and looked around for the powerline. It was then I realized that the buzzing noise came from the wings of bees. Lots and lots and lots of bees. I have never been amongst so many of them. I took off a hell'n but then stopped and walked back a bit to assess the situation. At the top of this tree I could see a swarm so there must have been a honeycomb up there somewhere. It was actually pretty cool.

I'd have DIED!!!
I have a severe bee phobia... I probably need therapy just to deal with my fear of bees - I'm gonna have nightmares just from READING about your run!

[kfisherx]

Originally Posted by Bytsi

I'd have DIED!!!
I have a severe bee phobia... I probably need therapy just to deal with my fear of bees - I'm gonna have nightmares just from READING about your run!

I too have a fear of bees and even an allergy to yellow jackets. It was just that this was so surprising and so big and powerful that fear only happened for a little while when I first realized what it was. Then I was just completely blown away by the whole thing.

In fact I keep coming back to it in my mind. The buzzing was so loud from these guys that you could literally feel it. I had never seen anything like that before in my life. Amazing...

[kfisherx]

I had the chance to workout yesterday after my guitar lesson with my teacher and BrentV. It is funny that we say that we workout together. What we really do is go into the gym and disperse to do our own workouts and then meet up afterwards. We hardly speak to one another at all, though we occasionally spot or assist with some form for each other.

Warm SuperSet 3x15 (30 sec rest)
alt toe touches (each leg)
back extensions (+10lbs)

Deads
1x10 (115lb)
1x10 (135lb)
2x5 (155lb)

Swiss ham curls
3x15

DB push press
1x15 (15) e
2x10 (20) e

Ab Superset 3x15 bw
V-up
bosu ball crunch and reach

db single leg romainian deadlift (each leg)
1x10 (20) e
1x10 (25) e
1x10 (30) e

HIIT tready run 20 min 1 min at 3.5, 1 min at 7.5, did 3x at 8 mph (HR top was 170)

A couple of notes here that are worthy. The first one is that I felt pretty weak for this one. I believe this to be attributed mainly to my diet. I have been struggling this past week with my food demons. Unlike many of you girls my demons do not have me craving food rather they tell me to stop eating. My stomach shuts down and I just don't want to eat. I watched over the course of this week as my daily calorie intake went from 2300kcals down 200 k each day until I was sitting at 1600 kcals a day. This is a far cry from the 2300 that my trainer instructed me to maintain. I was pretty down on myself especially on Friday which was my worst day. I even thought about firing my trainer and giving up on myself.

I remember the last time I had a struggle for a week during my bulk and I had to stand before my trainer and show him my food statistics for that week. He did not get upset at all with me. He could tell that I was already mad at myself and so he told me that while it was an issue that I was trending downward that it was only a week and I could repair this just by jumping back on it. I lost a few weeks of good quality bulk time for that 1 week and I even had to extended my bulk another month but I did bring it around.

This time it wasn't quite as bad I think. The scale is trending downward and so is the bf from what I can see. On average for the week I did manage 2000 kcals per day which is only 300 k less than his recommendation. I just did it in a cyclic way as opposed to consistent way. So yesterday I managed to get a good feed in and got 2100 kcals of quality food. I was a bit low in macros and high in carbs but I think the workout will have offset that a bit. Today I intend to continue to get 2000-2300 kcals in.

As I was in the gym yesterday I looked into the mirror and the old demons were very strong. I almost gasped because all I saw was how fat I was. This is so ridiculous. I am the same hot body that I was last week in reality but in my mind I saw all this blubber around my middle. I hated what I saw and my first reaction was to stop eating. I made myself eat anyway. This sickness is going to take some time and effort to get around but I intend to get around it this time. We are going to do this cut slow and steady and with maximum health.

On a completely different topic, in the evening we had the chance to see the Portland Baroque Orchestra perform some of the Brandenburg Concertos. Ahhhhh.... What a perfectly wonderful way to top off the evening...

[nutbar]

Wow, Karla. Sorry the food battle is such a tough one for you at times BUT it sounds like you're facing it head-on and will have it kicked! It's the most difficult things we overcome that teach us the most -- and give us the most pride later on.

On the subject of bees... I am a complete freak about flying things! I hate bees, wasps, birds, moths, you name it! I had a wasp get caught in my bra about 10 years ago and sting me and guess what? It happend again last week!! Wasps are boob addicts, if ya ask me.

[stephanie932]

Originally Posted by nutbar

On the subject of bees... I am a complete freak about flying things! I hate bees, wasps, birds, moths, you name it!

OMG........I could have written that! Don't forget BATS!!! I even took a class to try to get over those flying things, but it only made more afraid.

Karla.........This is a picture from last summer. Our house is in the background and the tree is in my neighbor's yard. I heard the buzzing and couldn't figure out what it was. My DH ran and got his camera to take the picture. I ran inside. What you can't see is me peeking out of one of the upstairs windows because I wouldn't go outside......lol



The cool thing is, that isn't a hive..........they just swarmed in around the queen to protect her (sort of what you were saying happened to you). Then they just hovered there. The neighbors waited until dusk and then sprayed them with a bee spray and we had what seemed like a million bees on our patio the next morning. Totally freaked me out.


Okay........enough about flying things. I do hope you talk to your trainer and get your mind set right with your eating. You are stronger than those demons and have to fight hard to do what is safe. Just think of everything you've accomplished so far.....and, just keep remembering how much you have changed and love the new skin you're in.

[Bytsi]

I can't even look at that picture without it freaking me out!!!!!!!!!! Had to scroll down quickly when I realized what it was... sigh...

I'm such a big baby sometimes.

[foodfromafar]

Karla, I do that mirror thing, too. Why can't we see ourselves as we really are instead of how we imagine ourselves to be? It's something that I have to make a conscious effort to do sometimes...to dwell on the things that are true...

The whole bee thing sounds so cool - I guess you can tell I homeschool. We'd have made it a project!

[marthand99]

Karla, good for you for coming back from the negative food/body place. It really takes time. I've had so many ups and downs, too. You're doing awesome.

[kfisherx]

Guys, thanks so much for the support. I did not realize how broken I really am about eating and taking care of myself before this adventure. I don't know where this stems from but I don't really care at this point. I am just going to take it one day at a time and make good planning and good decisions each and every day.

The past two days were good days for me. I hit 2000k or better both days. Yesterday I had a redneck workout (taken from Diane) on my farm. I have a few acres of garden and lawn to tend and nearly 40 acres of brush and planted forests that I have to go over. Yesterday was lawn day and I cut, weeded, weed whacked and did a big burn. We have a wood pile that has been accumulating for years that I am slowly burning away. I could not just light the whole thing up due to the dry and windy air so I dismantled it piece by piece and made a smaller fire that I kept going all day long. I also had to lift some nice and heavy rocks to get plastic under them and shovel bark shavings as well.

I worked from 9:00AM until 8:00PM pratically without a rest at all. I managed to drink a lot of water and to break for food every few hours. I slept like a rock last night. It is a good kind of tired. My hammies are tender from Sat workout and now my back is a bit tired from lifting so much wood and rock. But again it is a good tired.

Today my plan is for a nice 1 hour ss cardio run at lunch and then to rest tonight. Tomorrow is QUAD KILLER day and I am looking forward to lifting again. I debated lifting upper body tonight but I think I will take it a bit easy for one more day.

Oh yeah and this morning I weighed in at 131.8 and 18.7% bf. I think that is a 2.3lb total loss for last week. That proves that I need to keep the cals up.