yet another
weight 163
BP: 119/74 am 135/91 right now
pulse: 66
temp: norm
sleep: 7 hours
fatigue: 3
stress: 8
Got an early start to a long busy day. Have some extra stress on the page for today--will try to take hold of it and make it a friend--ugh
wondering if it is really worthwhile to monitor so closely my "conditions." I'm doing what I can-( baby aspirin, changed my diet, very active, more than enough "expert advice" and patient care) maybe this is just an exercise in extreme vanity? let's face it...I have a lousy genetic heritage. Those are the facts, and after a few years I've come through the darkest hours (I hope), so maybe it's time to do less logging and more living. maybe.
maybe not.
a thought Leigh has talked about in her podcast...about the destructiveness of turning a formerly unacceptable/unhealthy weight number into an acceptable one, has just crossed my mind. .So, no, I'm not ready to just settle in where I'm at. Did that with too many disasterous results. I'm still aiming for that ripped look at 120-125 (as ripped as a few weeks shy of 44 yof can look without losing track of the rest of her already overwhelming life)
sonics: indigo girls; virginia woolf
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