I've been through very dark periods like this at least a half-dozen times in the past decade. Runs in my family. The "solution" was different every time. And those solutions were different than what worked for my family members.
Aoife's post pretty much rocked it:
1) Just because people don't respond, doesn't mean they don't care. They do.
2) There's no one thing that fixes these phases. Maybe the feelings aren't something to fix. Depression can sometimes be a symptom of a deeper issue, and it does you no good to try and feel happier while ignoring the root problem.
3) You might benefit from getting some professional help at look at any potential root problems mentioned in #2. This will also help if it's more of a brain chemistry thing, as behavioral willpower only goes so far and sometimes medicine helps from there.
In my experience all my dark seasons have been due to deeper issues. Those have ranged from things parental (fleeing the nest) to theological (throwing away some religion) to existential.
Good luck.
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