While not full fledged eating disorder what you are describing sounds to me like Disordered Eating (DE) which many many people suffer from and can really have a negative impact on one mentally and physically.
I struggle with many of those thoughts myself from time to time. I did have anorexia (about 20 yrs ago) and while I certainly recovered in the physical sense there are always those distorted thoughts about food, bodyimage, etc I have also had periods of overeating/binges often in result to stress/loneliness etc. Been working on that the last year.
And I hate to say it but age really does a play a huge factor. At 40 my body behaves very differently than it did at 20 or 30. I imagine over 50 and after menopause it is even more of a challenge.
While it is tempting to cut back calories more and more or do something drastic it will just leave you in a worse position. Have you read new Rules of Lifting for Women? There is a great section on dieting and what happens when you go lower and lower or do drastic measures. I also recommend Inutitive Eating. I am re-reading it now and it really has some wonderful insights, especially for those of us that have dealt with overeating/binges etc.
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