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Nicole - I hear you saying that you like the scale number (120# at 5'6") but still think you have too much fat. Chances are you have too little muscle.
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LisaS ...
Yes, you're absolutely right .. I remember when I gained last year (then relapsed) .. and because I was still active (cardio and weight training) the added weight went on *much* differently .. I was 110, but while I was slightly softer with the addition of some body fat .. I was also very lean/toned because due to working out .. I was I assume, also adding lean mass. I'd take the body in a heartbeat. This time, I had to completely give up working out to really make the progress that I needed to make from the emotional/psychological aspect ..I knew working out this time around would only keep me stuck in the eating disorder. I don't regret that decision, but I despise how I look. It's not necessarily the number on the scale, but more my overall body composition that really is getting to me. I don't by any means want the perfect body .. I'm enjoying the freedom I have now from the confines of anorexia and not spending every waking moment in the gym doing cardio, in my living room lifting weights, etc .. but I would like a *better* body .. in having less fat/flab, more definition and a diet that provides me with the energy I'm longing for .. I just have zero idea of how to go about achieving that
