thanks you guys for the responses. lisa- you're right... if you add everything i listed it is under 1800-2000, but with my nightly grazing it comes to about that.
galya, i prefer not to have 3 or 4 larger meals because i get hungry pretty easily... plus i think i tend to binge more on less frequent meals
i will look into cycling my carbs/calories... do you mean the zigzag method?