[kfisherx]

5.5 months into the bulk progress pics......

And the number one reason why I LOVE having a guy as a trainer. I sent these pics to Alan. I am proud of the progress that I see actually. I see significant increases in lats and legs which is bringing out the X-frame that bodybuilders so desire to have. His reply was how exciting it was to see my butt lifting up (like helium balloons have been put in there I think he said even). I did not even notice that before but yeah um.... that too!!!!

And with this exchange came about a most significant paradigm change. This has given me new confidence to really love and embrance the bulk and the concept of bulking. Before this exchange I was feeling freaked out about the weight gain. When I recently posted a new AVI (the bulk double bi) recently Alan wrote and told me more than once that he liked my look much better with the added body fat than the previous one with so little bf. I dismissed this compliment because he is a guy and guys always like curvy women.... But after this new exchange it hits me and I realized at a deeper level that GUYS REALLY LIKE CURVY women and finally that it is okay for me to be curvy.

I looked hard at my changes and my body and I realized that the curves are indeed not FAT but rather a symbol of my healthy and robustness. Honestly when I look hard at my hard 11% bf body it is not that healthy looking compared to now. In fact I turned my cut around due to the fact that I started to look so badly. I look at Leah who also recently did a competition and note the same about her. I think I remember the same thing about Natalia as she ventured into the 10% zone. It is time that I really honestly understand this and get it and now I am also gonna say it. Girls, we look better with some bf on us. And again like I mean it, WE LOOK BETTER WITH SOME BF ON OUR BODIES!!! We are healthier and we are happier. Yes, it is cool to see all the muscle at the lower bf and it is cool to see the pics on the stage but that is NOT how we should be living most of the time. That image must be reserved for only those times that we are showing or doing photo shoots.

I am embracing this bulk and doing exceptionally well with it. I must give many thanks to my coach/nutritionist for this entire round Alan Aragon. I did not really like the medicine he gave me at all at first (old paradigms and all) but we worked through the plan together and I have learned much. I look forward to the rest of the journey.