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Originally Posted by Chloe2
Wendy, I've been thinking about this all day. I am already lean, probably leaner than most women will ever see but I continue on this journey. Like Jane, my sister asked me what my ultimate goal is/why am I working so hard/for what? I really didn't know how to answer her.
Before I gave up my career as an intensive care nurse (after having my second child), I would have defined myself as a nurse. Then when my kids were small, I devoted everything to raising them. I was a mom. Now that my boys will soon be 10, 12 and 14 they don't need me in the same way that they needed me when they were little. I don't feel like "I'm a mom" anymore. But who am I. My husband's wife? I want to be ME. I feel like if I can reach my fitness goals, I will be successful at something just for me. I can't quite express my feelings out loud to my sister or even dh because sometimes I think it sounds selfish. But reaching my goal (even if that goal changes over time) will help me define myself as a strong woman, an athlete or even a beautiful buff muscled individual.
I'm not competitive. I'm way too shy to be on stage and I really have no athletic abilities like running or swimming so I don't have any major performance goals but I really want to look good. I want to feel good in a bathing suit. I want others to see me and think "wow, she looks awesome". Is that shallow? I hope not because as a trudge along trying to look better, I see positive changes happening in all aspects of my life.
I know you have your career so maybe you can't relate but I just wanted to share my feelings.
Having said all that, sometimes I wonder if I'm having a midlife crisis.  |
Chloe, I could have written that, but your version is way better. Basically, here's where I'm at with the goal thing (in the least amount of words I can use): after 12+ years of being a SAHM, I want to get ME back. Most of my family thinks I've lost my mind because I'm "fine" where I already am, but I want to do more and be more.
Wendy, your journey into the pain cave has really got me thinking about goals and where I want to be. Thanks again for your thought-inspiring posts.