I've been thinking some more, and I think I just want to do something hard to prove people wrong, which is a pretty shallow reason. I don't even really care about sports or fitness, I just love helping people within the framework, and I love the adrenaline rush I get from working out myself. I do, however, want some kind of career path that I can at least tell potential girlsfriends about, lol. I'm sick of looking like a bum just because my dream sounds like a pipe dream. Perhaps I should spend more time taking steps towards my actual long term dream rather than just grab these degrees simply for the sake of a sense of accomplishment. I think for public speaking maybe I should talk to myself in front of the mirror (you know like the Sims game) lol for 30 minutes a day. And then perform in various things to get over stage fright, like in band or something, or learn how to windmill and go break it down. lol. Wow this was pretty cool. Thanks for responding. It definitely helped me figure some stuff out. I suppose until I'm ready to do those steps I was just talking about, I will be lost in a drift in a boat full of steam and no rudder, relying on the waves of life rather than my sense of direction. I'm sure there is a happy medium, but I will say that my MD/ PA/ PT/ CSCS hopes are shallow at best. I'd do them just as I did the military, as a challenge, as validation, as a way of finding the journey in all things, but perhaps I should stop messing around. Thanks again for the responses. It only takes someone caring once in a while to really help.
