[Luna Sea]

I'm going to the gym at 6AM on TuThS for the workouts. It's not so crowded then, so I can get the cable weights and bench to superset, and both squat racks are empty. I am very self conscious in the weightroom, and I prefer to go when no one is around, so this looks like it will work well for me.


Squat:
2 x 15 with only the bar, need to work on my form. Still leaning too far forward at the bottom, and not getting to parallel. I have been practicing with box squats, and I am relying too much on the bench being under my ass at the bottom. When I go it without the bench, I am not strong enough to get out of the hole, and I lose my form.

Pushups: (alternating with rows)
2 x 15 BW off the bench, maybe this is 30 degrees?
Still hurts my shoulders. Lots of crunching noises, and I was unable to go all the way down. Just not strong enough to push myself up.

Seated Row:
1 x 15 with 60 on the weight stack
1 x 15 with 60, but I started to lose form on the last 5 reps by leaning too far back.

Step Ups: (alternating with prone jacknife)
1 x 15 on the bench with 5 pound dumbells in each hand (left foot)
1 x 15 on the bench with 5 pound dumbells in each hand (right foot)

First set was OK, but the second supreset I had to do 3 sets of 5 to complete 15 on each leg. I was losing my balance and getting fatigued.


Prone Jacknife:
My balance is so bad I need professional help. I had to do these off the floor again, even after practicing on my swiss ball at home.

I'm beginning to worry about myself, and get frustrated with my clumsiness. I have soft carpeting at home to fall onto, but after a few weeks of trying to balance myself, where do I draw the line between hopeless and some progress? This is obviously a point of frustration for me now, rather than a challenge. I try to make a joke of my clumsiness, but it really is holding me back, and I'm thinking of ways to overcome it, but so far, no good. I'll just have to do the best with what I am, and leave it at that!!