It's been almost 3 months since I've been here, and due to a health problem, I've had to drop out of the August challenge. I've also been out of the gym too, but I've started back slowly last week, and plan on starting NROL4W next week.
I was shocked to see how fast my body deteriorated since July. What little strength I did have is totally gone, so I need to work hard and start everything all over again. I'll be 55 in December, but I look like I'm 65, and I feel like I'm 85!
Depression has wrecked havoc on my motivation in the gym. I know if I push and push I will start to feel better. Last week I felt self-conscious when I was working out, and paranoid that I was being snickered at. It make it really hard to concentrate, but I gave it a half-assed effort and got it done. I know it is unrealistic to expect that everything will be the same as when you left off, but I sure did not expect to fall so far behind. Guess I'm not so young as I thought I was.
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