I'm struggling this week. Work is stressing me out and I dont' know what is going on with my body. I'm having a hard time sticking to my diet, and I just took a break 3 weeks ago. I don't really feel like I need another break, I just... I don't know, I'm getting tired of thinking about IS THIS HEALTHY, HOW MANY CALORIES/GRAMS OF PROTEIN IS IN THIS, I CAN'T EAT THAT all the time. I'm tired.
I'm a week late on my period and I've taken two pregnancy tests - both negative. I'm sure it's 100% stress. I've gone to bed before 10pm nearly every night this week and woke up feeling rested, but felt tired again toward the end of the day.
I've spent my day so far today cleaning the house, changing the kitty box, running errands, and grocery shopping. It's making me cranky. I want to be sitting on the beach relaxing, reading my book, and not thinking about all the shit there is to do around the house. I didn't do a single chore last weekend (except laundry) because I didn't want to, but of course now that means the house is extra gross.
GRRRR. I took a bath today hoping it would help me relax, and it did, but my stress level just went right back up when I got out of the bath and saw that there was laundry to do, the floors were gross, the kitty box needed to be changed, etc etc. I hate that I can't deal well with a messy house. I have been putting off getting housekeeping service due to the recurring expense but I think I'm just going to do it. What's an extra $200 a month or whatever. It is worth my peace of mind. Cheaper than a therapist.
