Nice site Bryan.
I like your lesson for the day. I figure I am a bizzare mix of the two. I am doing more public speaking events and appearances now then ever, and I tend to stress out about it before the events take place, but I also have confidence that they will turn out fine because I have been doing it so long that I my expectation is based on experience. So where does that put me? I still have the fear. I don't know that I can free myself of it. But I don't let it stop me from moving forward, because I have faith that I will overcome my personal obstacle of fear.
Once I have gotten a big event behind me I am on a high for a day or two, unless my week has several in one week like last week. I had to do two events with the Governor, which means that I really don't want to screw up because there is more at stake. They went over great, but all week long up to the last event, my stomach was all tied up in knots. I finally recovered from that one and I just found out that I have to emcee a big race this weekend, back to the knots. I have no idea why... This is one of those no-brainer things where I just stand on a stage and mess with the audience a little, then thank the sponsors and hand out awards. I also have a lot of fear with regards to finances. Jeez... If I feel this way, why the hell am I an entrepreneur?
I guess that the final answer is that I do have faith in myself, and that if I just keep pushing and moving forward everthing will somehow work itself out and turn out fine. Faith is the only thing that keeps me going, but it is against a constantly rising tide of fear.
I guess this is where you step in with advice about meditation. I am like a guy who eats McDonald's every day and knows its bad for me, but still asks trainers, "what do I need to do to lose some of this weight?" Many of us already know that answers to the questions we pose. I guess we just want to hear people tell us what we already know, but want to continue to be in denial that we possess this knowledge until someone we consider to be an authority tells the same thing to us. Quit eating at McDonald's, you dork! Or in my case, "JP, DUUUUH! Meditate, you dork!
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