[gregl515]

I am feeling trapped and it is causing me to lose sleep. I am waiting for my job to start and my ankle and foot keep me largely inactive. I exercise, but I can do only mainly upper body and core exercises. In the past, my workouts featured a lot of leg exercises, so I feel I am doing nothing.

A friend asked me what I wanted from my marriage since my wife and I are separated. I finally admitted that I wanted everything, my marriage, my therapy, my life as it is to be done. I don't mean that I want to die, I just want to start over.

After my marriage broke up, I learned that my wife has borderline personality disorder. She sees everything in black and white from a position of anger and fear. She masks this by being outwardly a warm and loving person. Inside, she fears that things will drag her down. Including apparently me.

I still love her, I just don't think I can prove it to her and I guess I'm done trying.

Just 3:30 a.m thoughts.