Tempist,
Do you have anything preventing you from taking a job? Sounds like that would be the first order of business. Second, anger doesn't help. Maybe a little tiny bit will add some intensity to you, and light a fire under your butt to get serious about taking care of that family. Don't think, ACT! Sounds like fitness, although important, may be something you should put off for a couple of weeks while you beat the streets.
It is great to have goals, but each one should be assigned a value and prioritized. Supporting a family is much higher priority to having big biceps. When you have children you [should] cease to be the center of your own universe. There will be time to get back into your program and your goals. Once you get a battle rhythm established you will begin to see where you can stake out your "quality-me-time." It may be stressful at the moment, but I can tell you unequivocally that children are the greatest gift in the universe. You really haven't lived till you start your own family. Don't bog yourself down with the bleakness of your current situation. You have something more important to fight for now so go out there and create opportunities for yourself! Good luck.
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