[dmac90]

My hear goes out to you. I almost didn't reply to this because it is such a personal situation, but I did go through a time when I lost a loved one. At first I tried to hold back the emotion and hoped that the hurt would dissapear. I'm one of those people that never want's another see me cry.

I never talked about it, until one evening I was sitting with my girfriend and I broke down. I openly discussed my feelings and it was like a weight was lifted.

Now I focus all of my memories on good ones. I look back and smile on the time we had together. I know everyone handles situations differently but the only suggestion that I can make is what worked for me. Talk openly to someone about your feelings.

My prayers are with you.