[Bytsi]

Whew... back to "normal" (hey - no comments about me never being normal here, ok? ).

Set the friggin' alarm clock and did 30 min stairmaster even though I SO wanted to sleep. DH snored bad last night... around 1 or 2am (?) he got up and said "I'll go in the other room so you can sleep" (cuz I was kickin' him to shut him up ) and then - he laid back down and started snorin' more! WTF?!? Was that just a big tease??? . So... not a great sleep... but dragged tired butt to the gym. HR 70-80% since I wasn't staying on for long (could'a done longer if I hadn't hit snooze repeatedly).

And... drumroll...
After FIVE days of exact same number, scale dropped down 1.5# this morning.

I've been waiting... going to bed hungry... knew it HAD to happen soon (or else I was gonna freak even worse - howz THAT for a threat? ).

I will never understand the scale, but at least I am back on a little down-ish mini-trend again.

Originally Posted by jesca

I'm a little late to the party, but I feel for you. I remember some times when I hurt my mom when I was younger and I didn't know what I was doing. We were all we had for eachother for a while there and I still feel bad about those things some times. I think you get very self involved in those years trying to sort out who you are and you lose track of everyone else in the world and their feelings.
The other thing I can think is that my Mom was trying to hide some of the things that were going on to try and spare my feelings and keep me from worrying and I didn't realize what I was happening. I don't know if that's what's happening with you guys, but I guess you both need to remember you don't know everything about eachother's lives.
I'm glad you sort of worked things out. I'm sure they will even out over the next couple of days. Just take some time for yourself tonight to recenter. And have a kickin' dinner!

Hey thanks Jes... A lot that needed to be said was said... and I think that while she knows I have feelings, she also doesn't really GET that I have feelings - does that make sense? She sometimes like to hurt 'em, but I don't think she understands how much she can REALLY hurt me. Or maybe she does?

Originally Posted by foodfromafar

Bytsi, another understanding shoulder here! Great job on hanging in there and making your rel. with your daughter top priority. You can exercise any time...

I feel very very good about staying around for soccer and the drive time there and back... after such an awful day, we needed that (all too rare) time together...

Originally Posted by sidonia

I'm a little late...but I'm sorry to hear your day started so rough yesterday...the sweet little girl will be back eventually...but she'll be a slightly older one, who will realize that what you did for her growing up was awesome! My mom and I fought like CRAZY when I was sixteen...she used to ask me what aliens abducted her daughter and when they were bringing the other one back!

Just read a little further... glad it worked out...sometimes a blow up is necessary to get to the good stuff!

Alien abduction. THAT would explain SO much . Hope they eventually bring my darling little girl back (even if she is a wonderful young woman at that time).

Originally Posted by SpacecityPaula

Yeah on things being better at the end of the day. I hope you have a wonderful day today!

Thanks Paula!

Ok... back to work... gotta atone for yesterday's crying at work (I am SO mortified when that happens ).