I have a really cool name. But my body doesn’t match the bad-ass image I have in my head when I think about how awesome my name is.
I mean, really. Otto Hammersmith. That’s just freakin’ awesome. I should be awesome to match it.
So what is awesome? What is perfect? Perfect is what I’d have after chipping away for ∞. That’s the thing I forget. I start thinking there’s some endpoint. But an end isn’t awesome, or perfect, or even close. It’s good enough. Good enough doesn’t make me feel good. I know that. Even so, I think “good enough” and slack off. At 260, at 270, at 280 it doesn’t matter.
“Good enough” is death to momentum.
I need to look myself in the mirror every morning and know that the body I have right in that moment is the best one it could possibly be. It’ll take time, but that’s what’s important. Current state, not past progress, not future progress. Where I am right now and knowing that it just couldn’t possibly be any better.
Better is stronger.
Better is leaner.
Better is faster.
Sure there will be lull’s.
But a lull still has forward progress. It’s recovery not damaging yourself and losing ground.
That’s why I can’t in good faith call the last four months a lull.
Was it only four months? I’m afraid to check.
I lost ground.
So be it. But I’m better today than I was yesterday. And I’ll be better tomorrow than I am today. Rinse. Repeat until ∞. Simple formula, right?
Anyway, time for the meta.
This log is for me. It’s actual home is in a file on my computer. I’ll probably post most of it here and a couple other places. I might not. I might even make myself write something in it every day. I might not.
One thing for sure, if I go silent, someone tap me on the (virtual) shoulder… chances are I’m ultra-busy. But I could be off the rails and that’s no good.
I started a new playlist. Called it “Workout (to be indestructible”). First song on it was from the new Disturbed album, aptly named Indestructible.
Lyrics for Indestructible from Disturbed's lated album. My favorite part goes—
“You need to know that you’re in for the fight of your life
You will be shown how I’ve become indestructible
Determination that is incorruptible”
An appropriate sentiment for someone making himself an indestructible hammer deserving of a fuckin’ awesome name, yes?