[kfisherx]

I had the chance to workout yesterday after my guitar lesson with my teacher and BrentV. It is funny that we say that we workout together. What we really do is go into the gym and disperse to do our own workouts and then meet up afterwards. We hardly speak to one another at all, though we occasionally spot or assist with some form for each other.

Warm SuperSet 3x15 (30 sec rest)
alt toe touches (each leg)
back extensions (+10lbs)

Deads
1x10 (115lb)
1x10 (135lb)
2x5 (155lb)

Swiss ham curls
3x15

DB push press
1x15 (15) e
2x10 (20) e

Ab Superset 3x15 bw
V-up
bosu ball crunch and reach

db single leg romainian deadlift (each leg)
1x10 (20) e
1x10 (25) e
1x10 (30) e

HIIT tready run 20 min 1 min at 3.5, 1 min at 7.5, did 3x at 8 mph (HR top was 170)

A couple of notes here that are worthy. The first one is that I felt pretty weak for this one. I believe this to be attributed mainly to my diet. I have been struggling this past week with my food demons. Unlike many of you girls my demons do not have me craving food rather they tell me to stop eating. My stomach shuts down and I just don't want to eat. I watched over the course of this week as my daily calorie intake went from 2300kcals down 200 k each day until I was sitting at 1600 kcals a day. This is a far cry from the 2300 that my trainer instructed me to maintain. I was pretty down on myself especially on Friday which was my worst day. I even thought about firing my trainer and giving up on myself.

I remember the last time I had a struggle for a week during my bulk and I had to stand before my trainer and show him my food statistics for that week. He did not get upset at all with me. He could tell that I was already mad at myself and so he told me that while it was an issue that I was trending downward that it was only a week and I could repair this just by jumping back on it. I lost a few weeks of good quality bulk time for that 1 week and I even had to extended my bulk another month but I did bring it around.

This time it wasn't quite as bad I think. The scale is trending downward and so is the bf from what I can see. On average for the week I did manage 2000 kcals per day which is only 300 k less than his recommendation. I just did it in a cyclic way as opposed to consistent way. So yesterday I managed to get a good feed in and got 2100 kcals of quality food. I was a bit low in macros and high in carbs but I think the workout will have offset that a bit. Today I intend to continue to get 2000-2300 kcals in.

As I was in the gym yesterday I looked into the mirror and the old demons were very strong. I almost gasped because all I saw was how fat I was. This is so ridiculous. I am the same hot body that I was last week in reality but in my mind I saw all this blubber around my middle. I hated what I saw and my first reaction was to stop eating. I made myself eat anyway. This sickness is going to take some time and effort to get around but I intend to get around it this time. We are going to do this cut slow and steady and with maximum health.

On a completely different topic, in the evening we had the chance to see the Portland Baroque Orchestra perform some of the Brandenburg Concertos. Ahhhhh.... What a perfectly wonderful way to top off the evening...