[Autumn]

I bought NROL4W earlier this year. I read it, liked it, and got started. I figured what I needed was a solid and consistent workout regimen. Of course I did Stage 1 for two solid weeks, then took another month to complete another two weeks worth. Life got busy, the gym was always packed, of course I have a long list of excuses. I read through the workout portion of the book again today and came here to see how everyone was doing and I found a renewed conviction to log my food. I use sparkpeople.com, however I'm always second guessing portion sizes. I really should purchase a kitchen scale. I think that would help.
I have taken steps to cut out sugar and artificial sweenteners from my diet. I am also drinking more water than ever before! So now that I'm going into Stage 2 I feel a little more determined, as if I'm learning from my mistakes.
I do fear that I'll fall off the wagon again, though.
I am 27 years old. I've maintained my weight at 136 for over a year. I weigh every few weeks and it's always between 134 and 136. Which the weight sounds okay, but I'm very petite; 4'11". So, I feel my ideal weight is closer to 120. That's why I felt NROL4W would be good for me. I know not to expect changes overnight, but I'd like to see a change in the next 4 weeks, though. I started running last year and I completed 2 5ks. I started to eat less processed food and more whole foods. But nothing has changed. Measurements haven't changed, weight hasn't changed, self image is down, my face does look pudgier and I'm quite frustrated.
Like I read in another thread, for fat loss, one should pay attention to what they eat. So, I guess for the overall healthier body is a consistent/day-to-day decision. I need to be reminded of that. I think my 'cheats' here and there are holding me back from what I could be. So, basically I'm at wits end and would love for the lightbulb to go off and I start making progress.

So, that's a short one on me. I do have a point to all this... I'm looking at the illustrations for Stage 2 and I'm a little intimidated. I am usually the only woman at my gym who even shows up in the weights area. So, many days working out is a test of my will and insecurity. But I know I will feel ridiculous doing some of these. I don't have the equipment to work out at home so I need to do this in the public. How do all of you handle doing a new exercise that you're unsure of, keeping in mind that I am easily intimidated?