Hello there, I've been a "lurker" for a couple weeks now and finally got the courage to post and ask a few questions...a QUICK background on my situation. I am 5'5 about 135lbs...depending on the day. In the past I have been too skinny, too heavy, and now, pretty "normal" (bmi 22.5)..
In the past I was diagnosed with an eating disorder...so calorie restriction was my life...and running 10 miles a day 5 days a week was my workout...that kept me at a pretty low weight..but not happy...then I started to actually gain weight (also my ED kind of shifted to bulimia, so my calorie count was probably never completely on target) with this plan and pretty much steadily maintained my weight at 135 (but not happy with the way I look), while still doing cardio like a maniac and restricting calories...so, to say the least, I wasn't happy with my results and I was ready for a change.
So now I'm ready to do something new, I can't expect to do the same old things I've always done, and get different/better results.
sample day for me:
LIFTING Day: Stage one lifts, HIIT
3/4 c yogurt
3/4 c fiberone cereal
1 scoop whey protein
workout
1 scoop whey protein
yogurt
1/2 c cottage cheese
carrots
Salad: 5 oz turkey, lettuce, Fat free ceasar dressing
1/2 c cottage cheese
Apple
1/2 egg beaters
1 slice fat free cheese
2 fat free hot dogs (I know,that's kind of weird but I like them

1/2 cottage cheese
orange
to me that is a LOT of food...In the past I have maintained with about 1000 cals or less per day, but ate a lot on the weekends....so I'm kind of worried about adding calories right away...should i add them slowly?
I want to loose fat and look slimmer, I don't necessarily want to loose weight b/c I know that the number on the scale doesn't really say much. I am concerned about getting bigger (Im getting married this summer)
I am really determined and I work out hard..If someone told me to jump rope for 2 hours a day to get the results i want, I would do it (but if running 10 miles doesn't work, I would doubt jumping rope would).
My goal is to be toned, I want to LOOK like i work out as hard as I do...right now, if someone looked at me, I don't think they would think that I am a runner and that i work out as much as I do...
any suggestions/ comments are so appreciated!
Sorry for such a long post...I have so much floating around in my head and I just want to bounce if off on you guys and see what you think.
