[SpacecityPaula]

Ray:

Don't make quitting an option. So you only worked out 5 days last month. That's five days that you took care of yourself and that's a start. I only worked out 11 days this past month. But I did it because it makes me feel better.

You're at the point where the pain of remaining the same is greated than the pain chainging. And You know the change is necessary or your son is going to have a lot of problems. I think Gobbla idea of taking your son to the gym is a good one - you'll be modeling good behavior for him. And I think you going to the gym is a good start at the self care you say is missing in your life.

Miss Jane is right in that you need help. You need help for the depression and I think your marriage needs help too. Being the only mate who is responsible sucks - been there done that with my ex-husband and it's not fun. It may be time for marriage counselling.

I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.