I'm so sorry to hear what you are going through. Have you considered talking to someone and reaching out for some help? There are times in everyone's life when it can't hurt to have someone help us out.
I think it's brave of you to WANT a fitter lifestyle. And, I think it will ultimately be a very good thing for you and your family. I encourage you to continue on this journey, even if it's baby steps for awhile.
Please don't leave us......you are amongst friends, and we care.
