Thanks; however, I can't forget softball right now because I have tried too hard to get this far. I am 21 and in a few years (if I actually stop practicing and such), I will lose my speed and everything. I played basketball in 9th grade and was really good (at 3 pointers mainly), but because of my disability or whatever I had a hard time remembering all the plays I needed to remember, so I stopped. I only played freshman year. After a while of not playing basketball and just shooting around for fun sometimes, I lost my skill I was at in 9th grade. For Softball I am in tryouts right now (will find out Thurs if I make it or not) and when it was winter break (I tried out all fall and then there was an invite back for 2nd set of tryouts that is going on now), the only live pitching I was able to do was my mom's slow pitching. I did not really go to the batting cages (I dont like the cages balls much and have to use a diff bat) and then when the 2nd set of tryouts started up again and we were tested against live pitching one practice (so far only one practice for hitting), I could not judge the pitches right and such. I don't know why my brain is like that. Its like if I do not continue everything and if I take even 2 weeks off from something, the timing suffers. When I have not done something in a while if its a sport or at school, its like "what do I do? what happened to my skill?" "didn't I learn this in class and should remember it"? etc.
I am taking 2 psychology classes next semester because I am thinking about majoring in psychology (trying to see if there is something other than graphic design I can do because I cannot draw well and I do not want to spend all the time on the computer). I don't think I ever told anyone that yet and I was not thinking about school classes until now. I am done with my GE and am figuring out what I want to do with life. Psychology classes will help me with my self esteem, confidence, and such, but it may not be the right major for me. I need it though to help me. Its a cheaper way of taking the classes and I can always talk to the teachers after class or doing office hours.
The Psychology classes I am taking are....
"Sports Psychology" and "Effective Living"
I am not just taking it just to decide on my major; however, I am also taking it hoping it will help me get going with my life, encourage me, help me, and such. I may change my classes closer to feb when I find out Thursday on what is happening with Softball if I make it or not to more the evening so I can work during the day.
Do you know why after even 1 week-2 weeks of not doing something (at least wanting to take a break), my body acts like it has not done something in a long time. I really don't know why thats happening. It's hard for me to get better at anything if I don't practice over and over and stick to it. If I stop doing something for 1-2 weeks or even a month, its like I am back to where I started from.
I know that if I stop softball and take a break from it, then I will lose everything I tried hard to get this far. Last year in softball, I did not even make it to the 2nd set of tryouts and the cutting was at the end of the semester. The year before that, I did not even make it more than a week without being cut. This year I made it to the second set of tryouts. I am hoping to at least redshirt this year (I just want to be apart of the team and continue practicing and I don't really care about playing the games this year because I know people are still better than me). I am hoping next year (my final year at JC and hoping I have my for sure major and everything) that I make the team and play. I cannot give up for all I worked hard for. It's like I wasted my time doing all this practicing and everything for nothing.
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