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I know all of you are right, and like I said in the post I know the thought was dumb and idiotic. As much as it might not come through on this thread I am generally a very scientific/analytical/grounded kind of person. I am able to see opposing sides of a problem, the trouble comes when something in my head is telling me to ignore the other side. I knew the poster was stupid yet for some reason I was able to keep convincing myself it could be a good idea, that is why I asked for some "tough love".

Once again I thank all of you, and apologize for the weird crap I request.


For today's mini-vent I just wanted to say, that as if it wasn't hard enough not letting my thoughts of the past/her control my waking life I have started to have dreams including her. Most days I don't even think about her at all but then I will sleep and shortly before waking or even between hits of the snooze button (snooze set to 30 mins) I will have a dream involving her in some way. This is really frustrating me because I don't want to think about her, I want to move on and get passed it but it's like something is trying to hold me back. They haven't really affected me greatly, ie. they do not depress/anger me but they are starting to frustrate me. Oh well, at least I have been dreaming, that is more then I can say about the last couple months lol.