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Its good for you to vent and this is a good place for it.
You need to find some place for your anger and depression. I didn't until too late and it contributed to my illness and loss of my leg.
I got angry and depressed when my wife got sick (breast cancer). I tried to be a helpmate to her and stay positive but inside I was angry and fatalistic. She recovered from her cancer but I didn't recover from my anger and depression. During the whole course of the disease I cursed God and asked why she got sick when she was a good person doing good things and why not me, a not so good person trying to get criminals out of jail. I set myself up for illness by feeding my anger, self destructiveness and my depression. When I got out of the hospital, my wife left me because, in her words, "You'll never change." she got tired of me being depressed.
Now I'm trying to put things together. I could have avoided some of this if I had found a way to deal with my frustrations in a less destructive manner.
Please deal with it.
By the way, I miss my cats. Not my wife as much anymore I think because I am working hard at moving forward.
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