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Originally Posted by Sign
I know everything you guys have said is true, and I will get passed it. Last night was just a severe moment of weakness. I have a bad habit of being very closed off to everyone but the 1-2 people that are close to me and now that the 1 person that was closer then anyone has hurt me this bad it is going to be a while before I can let someone else in. All this leads to these moments such as last night where all the negative emotions can no longer be held back and come roaring out, usually in the form of anger.
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So once, again, thank you to everyone, if for nothing else but letting me get some major things out (they seem kind of stupid and insignificant when I read them after typing it up, but in my head they seem so massive) and not tearing me a new one for it.
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Always remember that while your feelings are powerful and sometimes the source of your greatest strength, they can also trap you away from the here and now. The nights are still cool, the sun is still warm, the world is still going to turn and such things are only happy things.
I had my heart broken a month and a half ago by a girl who told me that she loved me, but that the extra effort it would take to make long distance work 'probably' wouldn't have helped. The best thing I did for myself to help get over it (not that I'm completely over it now) was to write it out. Put down all your thoughts somewhere by free writing. Going back to it days later shows you the progress you've made. It is the mental form of looking in a mirror to see gym progress.
I'm sure you're going to be fine, but don't apologize for putting it all out here. Part of what is so special about this place is that everyone is so supportive of everyone else and I think this post proves it.
p.s. That kitty is awesome!