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I just wanted to take the time to thank everyone that has posted and even those that haven't, those that may not have even read this thread but have helped make this such a great, mature community. When I awoke this morning and remembered I had made this post I can honestly say I felt a brief moment of dread at the thought of what type of replies I may have received. Then I remembered I had posted here and that this community is much more embracing and mature then any I have ever been a part of in all my years online.

I know everything you guys have said is true, and I will get passed it. Last night was just a severe moment of weakness. I have a bad habit of being very closed off to everyone but the 1-2 people that are close to me and now that the 1 person that was closer then anyone has hurt me this bad it is going to be a while before I can let someone else in. All this leads to these moments such as last night where all the negative emotions can no longer be held back and come roaring out, usually in the form of anger.

the constant remembrance and recitation of wrongs, the endless looping, the endless imagined conversations and fights

You need the outlet to get thoughts out, rather than just holding them in an ever looping self-dialog that makes it tough to move on

That is exactly what I do, and is what leads to situations like these. I definitely feel that I need to change to a more positive outlook and stop focusing on the negatives. Truth be told, I am pissed about losing my bike, but not as much as I would have thought. It is more about the fact that this is the second time it has happened to me in this damn city (and yes the bikes are locked up at the time lol), and the fact that something like this usually happens within a couple days of me actually acknowledging some positive or happy feeling (on Tuesday I had finally found a Gym that I could afford and was going to go today and sign up and get back into working out).

So once, again, thank you to everyone, if for nothing else but letting me get some major things out (they seem kind of stupid and insignificant when I read them after typing it up, but in my head they seem so massive) and not tearing me a new one for it.


*Edit*

Have a pet? Kittehz and doggiez can provide much needed fun, love, and distraction.

I/we had a cat, his name is Molson. I couldn't take him when I moved out because the place I moved to is a shared housing situation (me and 5 roommates) so there wasn't pets allowed. She also couldn't take him when she moved so he is now staying with her cousin's family back in our hometown.

Here is a pic of Mols, I miss him so much, he was my suck lol