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Originally Posted by Sign
I have actually had classmates in the last 2 days actually come up and ask me if I was ok and tell me I looked pissed off. I didn't feel pissed off, at the time in class I was feeling pretty ok. Is the anger so great that it is starting to show subconsciously?
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Anger and depression often go hand in hand; that's what my old therapist used to say. Your classmates can see it on your face, that's how obvious it is.
Acknowledge to yourself that your anger is a natural response and that it's not going away soon. Then go find someone professional to talk to about this. It's not a matter of "strength," unless you're talking about having the strength to be open about how you feel so that someone can help you sort things out.
Don't fool yourself into thinking that you're "better than your emotions." Your feelings are your children, in a way. You think you're better than your kids??
I've had experiences similar to yours (such as you've described them here), and had to deal with them for a long time, as you have. That last thing I was willing to listen to from people was that things would get better, but they did anyway. They will get better for you as well.
Here's something that I wish someone
had told me years ago: Try to be a friend to yourself. Try to like yourself enough to take care of yourself during this difficult time. Get sleep. Eat well. Lift heavy stuff. And talk to someone.