It was humid and 90+ degrees in Akron yesterday, but I was able to complete a 3 mile trail run. At the start I wasn’t feeling it, I could have turned around and went back to the car after a half-mile. To be honest I haven’t been feeling my workouts at all this week, I’m able to complete everything but I don’t feel good when doing it. The last time I felt really good was when I completed the five-mile run at the opening of this thread.
Maybe I was to hard on my diet this workweek, my carbs were lower then ever, and this weekend hasn’t been pretty either, I made up all the carbs I missed during the workweek. My weight-loss seems to be slowing, I've been bouncing between 188.0 and 192.0 for several weeks. The goal is 185 before September 15th, (Vacation) but now that I’m so close I feel like it’s okay to cheat. Not only this, I also don’t feel good at this weight, I feel like I am withering away; I mean, I have been over 190 for fourteen years,,, now that I’ve dropped into the 180’s I feel like I’m sick or something, and at what point should I stop loosing all this weight?
I have so much going through my head right now; I really want to get lean, 10% BF, but I don’t feel like I have enough muscle, and I keep thinking that I should take 6 months and do some muscle imbalance corrections. Can I do these corrections along with a bulk, am I ready to bulk, do I need to loose more weight first. I am tired of being fat, and now that I have come this far I don't know if I want to turn back to a bulk.
To achieve the leanness I want, I would be quite a bit lighter than I want to be. I also think I may not have enough muscle to get me as lean as I want to be. I basically have two directions to go; I can continue with my “get lean” diet, or I can add some calories and begin a bulk. Here’s what I’m thinking, the more muscle you have the easier it is to become lean, right? So, If I begin a bulk and put on some muscle and fat would I become leaner faster than if I were to stick with what I am currently doing? If this were the case I could start thinking about next years beach season and hopefully take care of all three issues. In addition to the above, I also have some nutrition imbalances; I went head-on with my diet and cut calories and carbs so much that I don’t have anything else to cut. If I begin a bulk I could up both of these and get my body back to a normal food intake and take it easy the next time I begin a cut. I am very confused about the direction I want to go at this point.
BTW - I am at about 85% with whatever Mary gave me, I am feeling much better.
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